It doesn’t matter anyway

Long training days at work. The good thing is that training ends on Friday. I don’t know whether that is really a good thing because that means I have to uh, work. No more 3-hour meetings. Just working. How boring and normal. I will try to keep it exciting. 😉

I got feedback on two of the 4 free tarot readings I did over the past week. One was a 3-star rating. Bummer!!! She didn’t say anything about the actual reading. She just said she wanted to know which cards I drew. Okay. I kind of get that now. From now on I will tell everyone what cards I pulled. I got a 5-star reading on the other! Yay. She said I was 100% right and she liked my advice. After that “bad” feedback, I was glad to receive 5 stars.

I’m scared to get feedback on the other readings. One I didn’t include the cards, so I feel like that one will be average or bad. I did that before I got feedback about people wanting to know which cards I picked. Oh well. They have to give feedback if they want to continue getting free readings. The other one I told her the cards, but she asked THREE questions which is against the rules, but whatever. I answered all her questions. I felt like it went well.

UPDATE: I just got another 5-star rating for a reading I did. Thank you so much! Now my average rating is a 4.3. Woohoo! I know I shouldn’t get caught up on ratings. But I haven’t done a lot of readings. I need some type of validation. I have only done a total of 15 readings so far. Most of the ones I’ve done are through email. I’ve done 3 on Zoom/Skype and one in person. So now I’m only waiting for feedback on one more reading.

I think my mentor wants me to read for her. I’m trying not to get too anxious about it. What I want to do is practice on Zoom by myself and do a fake reading. I know I say “umm” and “uhhh” A LOT. I’ve done it my whole life, and I don’t know how to stop. Anyway, if I’m not too busy this weekend, I think I’ll do a fake 30-minute video reading and watch the recording. That will be brutal!

I did a 1 minute 44 second YouTube intro video for my website. I don’t know whether it is any good. I hope I’m not mumbling. I should ask my mentor what she thinks, but I’m scared. I also did Instagram stories last night! I’m very new to that. I was so tired. I did 15 seconds from each of my blog posts.  That’s 12 blog posts! It took forever because I didn’t know what I was doing. I hope that wasn’t a waste of time. It was my mentor’s idea.

I was so tempted to go on another Getaway. Ah, that would be so nice. I even went to the website and saw that the dates I wanted are available. That would be financially irresponsible, so I’m not going. No internet. No TV. Reading in bed for two days. Why can’t I go? *whines* Adulting is so hard.

Sigh. I made an appointment 3 months ago to see my doctor on July 30th. Now she’s going on vacation or something, and my appointment has to be rescheduled.  They called me this past Friday to tell me. I have a problem when doctors don’t seem to care that we take days off from work to go to the doctor. She only does well visits AKA annual visits when I’m working, so I have to take time off to go to her office.

Anyway, I rescheduled it for September 17th. I have that day off. Hopefully, she won’t be off on that day too. UGH. On the off chance, that she has an emergency, I’m sorry for bitching about it.

Gotta go. Bye!


Is it just part of the process?


17 days until I’m off from work for a full week

I’ve been working 24/7. I finally have at least 10 minutes to catch my breath. It’s my fault. I need to be more structured when it comes to the tarot biz. However, I only have a mentor for 3 months so I’m trying to get in as much as I can while she’s around. I go from working my day job to working the tarot. I can’t wait to be off from work for a week, but that time will probably be 95% tarot and 5% doctor appointments. It would be nice just to have one day off of not doing any work. I’m going to try to do that. As of right now, I’m going with the Wednesday of that week.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

We started working on the new system at work. So far, I am really slow at it. It took me 5+ years to really get used to the old system and now, they change it. I hope it doesn’t take me too long to get used to the new system. We started training in March. I have forgotten so much. I have to look up almost every single thing. That is why I’m so slow.

Enough about that work. Now let’s talk about tarot work. I joined a tarot community that assigns people free email readings to do. How awesome. There are drawbacks, of course. But the best thing is that I don’t have to ask people do they want a free reading. I was shocked I got picked. I thought they would never pick me, but I got a free reading request the first night I signed up! The question is pretty detailed. She wants a little of everything covered. Uh, I don’t usually do that in readings. I might talk it over with my mentor tomorrow. But how much can I tell her? I don’t want to cross any boundaries.

(UPDATE: I just got a request for another free reading. Ummmm, I haven’t even done the first one yet. I’m grateful for the opportunity. But I’m shaking at the same time. This one is 100% relationship based. Oh dear.)

UPDATE pt 2: I now have 4 readings to do. There goes working on my intro video.

Another good thing is the feedback. On Facebook, I didn’t always get feedback. Now I get feedback PLUS I get rated from 1 star to 5 stars. LOL. Oh, God. This could really suck! I’m doing the reading on Saturday. I’m anxious about it. Please give me at least 4 stars!

FUCK MY THERAPIST! Okay, this time we actually had a decent session. She even took notes!! But she didn’t know I don’t have any friends. How many times do I have to say it? This time she typed it into her notes, so I think she got it. Why fuck my therapist? Because she wants me to talk to my dad. NOT HAPPENING!!!1111!!!!!

Should I lie? Nah. Should I tell her I just didn’t want to do it? I will probably do something like that. After I told her he lives mostly in {insert country name}, she asked whether he spoke English. ROFL. Uh, yes. Very well.  He was born in Maryland and lived most of his life here. Anyway, my appointment is on Tuesday, right after work. I might see my dad on Sunday. But I’m not saying a thing besides “hi.”

Oh, and the main reason I don’t talk to my dad is social anxiety. Simple as that. I admire my dad. He is a Vietnam Vet. He is smart. I don’t agree with him when it comes to everything. For example, he doesn’t think the football players should kneel. FYI, not all veterans agree with him. Some think they fought for the right of the football players to have freedom of speech. What a novel concept! So there’s that. I think the whole thing is stupid. Stop playing the National Anthem at football games. Whatevs. I don’t watch football anymore because it kills people. Not because of some kneeling BS.

(Not that the football players are kneeling for BS. Just wanted to state I know they are kneeling for important stuff they believe in. I think the “controversy” is BS).

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Dave Matthews Band, James Bay, Janelle Monae, Florence + the Machine, Sugarland, Demi Lovato, Amy Winehouse, Hailee Steinfield

TV of the week:  Big Brother, The Handmaid’s Tale, The Bachelorette (judge away)

I watched The Bachelorette because they visited my hometown. It’s so sad that I’ve only been to one of the places they visited. It’s not like they went to touristy places. They just went to everyday places. I’ve wanted to go to one of the places they visited for the longest time. I just keep going to the same places. Anyway, I like Becca (the bachelorette), so I’m going to keep watching until the end of this season. I’ve never watched the show before, but I know the concept. I don’t watch it live, so I hope no one spoils the ending. I have to stay off social media… especially Twitter.

Oh and one of the guys called where I live “country”. Okay, Mr. Elitist or should I just call him ignorant? I’m sure tons of people living in the city were laughing at that. The country is at least an hour away from here, dude. Thanks for stopping by. I love the country, btw. I’m trying to move there. I want to own a house there. It’s just so far out. I don’t want to spend a ton on gas just to get places, but it’s probably worth it.

Movie of the week: I watched two comedy specials last week. I can’t believe I’m watching comedy like I used to back in the day. So weird. I watched Kamau Bell’s latest (soo good!) and Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette. I enjoyed both. Nanette was more serious and so necessary. If you want serious comedy, watch that. If you want to laugh at the ridiculousness, this country has become watch Kamau’s special. Can’t go wrong with either option. Should I watch David Chappelle next? I probably won’t because I haven’t heard great things about any of his recent specials.

Podcasts of the week: Fresh Air, Online Marketing Made Easy, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, The Mind Your Business Podcast, True Crime Garage, Unsolved Murders, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Tarot, tarot, tarot. What else is there to do? I’m working OT on Saturday. I also have to do that free reading. I hope I do a good job. On Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping.

I also want to record another video for my tarot website. I’m not sure I’m going to get it done this weekend, but I want to try. This one I want to be more professional. I’m going to attempt to use iMovie for the first time ever! Ugh, this might take some time. There goes my weekend! I hope I can make it good. Oh, and I also started a biz Twitter account. I’m not sure how long I’m staying on there. I don’t like having two Twitter accounts. One for fake business shit and one for real stuff I care about. It doesn’t sit right with me. I feel like I’m fake on the biz Twitter because I probably won’t tweet anything bad about Trump or politics at all. I do follow NPR on that account though. LOL.

Anyway, I’m glad I made time to do this entry because I don’t want this blog to die just yet. Thanks for stopping by. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Obstacles are detours

I got more info about my DC Getaway. I’m not pleased with the new dog information. Um, they don’t want any dog hair on their bed or linens. LOL. That’s understandable, but really? So what I have to do now is buy a queen size sheet to cover the bed and a full-size something so that I can have cover. I can’t sleep without something on me. It doesn’t matter how hot is it; I have to have cover.

I did my grocery shopping on Saturday. I happened to come in under budget, so I have cash leftover. I was going to use that cash to pay for my groceries on June 23. Now I have to use that to buy linens for the cabin/tiny house. 😦 Where is my dog supposed to sleep? On the floor? My dog laughs at that idea!  It is a tiny house. There will probably barely be room for his crate*. Of course, he is going to sleep on the bed. UGH. My dog doesn’t shed a lot. But he does shed. I don’t want to mess up their cabin so I will follow the rules. Plus, I don’t want to get charged for dog hair. Whatever.

*I’m only going to leave him in his crate when I’m in the shower. I don’t trust my dog enough to leave him out while I can’t see him in a new place. Showers can’t take long because there is limited water. They call a 10-minute shower long! LOL. I consider a 20-minute shower long. I will probably set a timer for 5 minutes while I’m in the shower. I don’t want to run out of water.

I have an hour long tarot card reading scheduled for June 14. That’s one day before I leave for my trip. I’m so excited. It is going to be on Skype. I’ve never had a reading like this before. Since I’m new, I got 20% off. I paid $44.00 for it. It isn’t in my June budget, but it doesn’t matter because I paid for this on May 31! I cheated. 😉 Can’t wait. This will be the last reading I pay for. Well, I’ve only paid for one other reading.

Now onto the ‘job’ opportunities. There are two tarot reading opportunities I can apply for. One is option A, and the other is option B. Option A is harder to get because I would have to do a LIVE reading on camera with the head of the company (even though I will only do email readings if I get approved). I know I’m not ready to do that now, so there’s no point in applying. But I will apply shortly. Option B is easier to get. I just need a $50 webcam, a good quality microphone, and a nice background. That’s it. I can do that.

Option B scares me because it is just people looking at you while you are sitting there. You can’t see them. And then they can ask you for a reading, and you do the reading live and on camera (not in front of everyone – one on one). Horrifying, right? They rate you after the reading so if I suck, everyone will know. I don’t want to take anyone’s money and not give a good product. That’s very important to me.

Anyhow, I need the practice and the money, so I need to do Option B, but first I need to do more FREE readings. I also need to buy the camera, a backdrop (fabric) and a better microphone. I would like to get started on there by August 1. I will be finished with my class by then so I will have more time to dedicate to free readings.

I’m glad I have those two options. I wish I could do option A now. However, I don’t feel confident enough to give a live reading to the head of the company. The pay isn’t great for either option. For one company, the pay is something like $6.00 for a 20-minute reading! That’s really low.  But it’s great practice, and it is extra money. Plus the person that recommended both of these companies is someone I trust.  I want to do work at both companies at the same time. A lot of people do that.

Truck driving school costs $4,500 where I live. Probably not doing it…ever. But who knows? I know I’m not going into debt to do it. That’s for sure. I’m not going into debt for anything except emergencies. I’m scared of driving a big truck. We just had an accident here involving a truck. Someone died. I just don’t feel comfortable doing it. I don’t want to make decisions based on fear. I dunno. I’m still thinking it through. If I feel like it’s my only option, I’m probably going to try driving school (if I can pay with no debt).

Therapy. I was charged $25 for my appointment this Sunday. UGH. It was a mistake I unknowingly made, but they won’t refund me. I should have scheduled it differently. So I still have five more free visits, and then I will have to pay a $25 copay. At least, I finally have the amount I have to pay confirmed. I don’t know about going to therapy weekly. Cognitive behavioral therapy is not supposed to last forever. Ideally, after I finish the workbook, I should be done. That should take less than 10 sessions. After the 10 sessions, maybe we could meet monthly. I do like working with her. I wish our time together were an hour instead of 45 minutes. Oh well.

Training is kicking my ass right now. I’m off work, but I’m reviewing what we went over in training. I’d much rather be working on my tarot class or doing anything fun.  I also mowed the front yard today. It wasn’t that hot. It was about 83 degrees. I think I might do the back tomorrow. It’s either mowing the lawn or going to the park.

Gotta get back to reviewing training stuff. Bye!

Lose realism


This is a pic of my dog on his 4th birthday. Okay, I don’t know his exact birthday. The vet says one thing. The place I order his medicine from says another. I can’t find his adoption papers from the animal shelter. :/ All I know is that he was born in approximately late April and he is a Taurus. That means he is the best, stubborn pup in the world! I can say that because I’m a Taurus too. Btw, this picture is from while we were at the river.


2 days before my next Tarot coaching call

3 days before my 3rd pap smear (ugh!)

4 days before my birthday

35 days before my DC Getaway

35 days until my only vacay this summer. Woohoo!  No internet access. No TV. Just me and my dog. I can’t wait. I only wish it were sooner.

I’m getting a great bonus from work. My boss gave me an extra 100 dollars (in addition to the bonus) for “doing all that I do.” At least, someone appreciates me. 🙂

For my birthday, I’m just going to a new-to-me park, and then we’ll grab a tuna sub from Subway. I hope it doesn’t rain. We’re having “bad food” from a local restaurant on Mother’s Day, so I can’t eat more bad food on my birthday. My bday is too close to mother’s day.  Anyway, I think a tuna sub is better than anything I REALLY want to eat. Normally I would go to one of my favorite restaurants on my birthday but I know I would eat something really unhealthy.  I can’t have bad food back to back.

As of right now, I’m taking the whole day off on my birthday. Things keep changing. We might be in training all day. We’re supposed to be in training all day now, but someone dropped the ball. It doesn’t really matter. I’m still not working on my birthday. I haven’t had a whole day off since March. I need a mental health day. Desperately.

I’ve been canceling things left and right. I feel wonderful about it. I still have to cancel a Marianne Williamson subscription, but I have to download every audio first. I love listening to her lectures. It would be nuts to cancel it without getting all the stuff I paid for. I’m keeping my Gabby Bernstein matter what. I refuse to say I might have to cancel that sub. It is only $19 a month, and it is so good. It has helped me immensely.

However, I still have shit that I should be canceling. I’m canceling Audible soon. I rarely listen to audiobooks. I only occasionally listen to self-help books. All the other monthly bills will be much harder to cancel. I’m NOT canceling Spotify. No way.

My tarot coaching call is on Monday night. All I know is that I will have to talk more on this call and each of us will be doing a reading. I hate calling it “a call” because it is VIDEO and a call, but whatever. I get so nervous about the readings! I’m doing a reading for my mom on Sunday, and I’m nervous about that. I have to get all my rituals down. Plus, my dog will be there causing havoc so what kind of environment is that for a reading? Ugh. But I will use my crystals. I will say my prayer and try to meditate. I’m not doing everything I would normally do for a reading because this is a reading for my mom, it’s free, and it’s my first in-person reading.

Of course, my mom is like most people and think tarot reading is about being psychic and fortune telling. Sigh. I’m trying not to care if she really gets it. It doesn’t matter.

ICK! I just got the new training schedule. They are starting a new part of training on my birthday. I don’t know what to do. Right now I’m thinking if it rains then I will attend SOME training (maybe 2-3 hours). But if it is sunny, I’m going to the new-to-me park. It is supposed to rain in the afternoon. I’m planning to be at the park around 9 or 10. Hmmm. Gotta think about it.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Rachel Sage, Jasmine Thompson, Ariana Grande, Jess Glynne, Florence + the Machine, Janelle Monae, John Mayer, Shawn Mendes

So much good music is being released this year!

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  How to Get Away With Murder, RHoBH

Movie of the week:  The Rachel Divide (4.5 stars out of 5)

Podcasts of the week:  True Crime Garage, The Russillo Show, Mogul: The Life and Times of Chris Lighty

Books of the week: Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: On Saturday, I’m working, going to the park, then the UPS store, and then the grocery store. In that order. I know you need to know this info. 😉 On Sunday, I’m going to my mom’s house for probably about 3 hours.

I plan to get a lot done for my tarot course. I want to be ready to do my on camera reading on Monday night. I’m glad (as of right now), I get 10 hours off from work next week. YAY!

Thanks for reading! Have a splendid weekend. 🙂

What if I lose?

SHUT THE FRONT DOOR! I just read for a woman in my tarot class. I blogged about it in my last entry. I pulled 3 cards for her. One was the tower card. It was in the future position. That usually means something will happen unexpectantly like a job loss. She lost her job 3 days later. FUCK. I expressed my sympathy to her over Facebook. I’m freaking out a little. Shit, I can’t believe that happened to her. She has a side business/hustle, so maybe that can work for her.

Oh, she just messaged me again. She is going to work on her spiritual business. I’m so glad she has that up and running (unlike me). WHAT IF I’M REALLY INTUITIVE? Oh, this is about her and her job, not me. Not. I was feeling so down about the tarot thing, and now I’m thinking what if I’m okay? I have tons of work to do, but maybe I’m not a complete tarot idiot.

This was my FIRST reading for someone else, and it was sort of right. WTF? I’m doing a financial reading for my mom in a couple of weeks.

Back to my regularly scheduled entry. I had to post that first.

I want a break! I didn’t take any time off from work all of April. I get 10 hours off this month. Two hours off on May 15 and all day off on May 16th (Janet Jackson’s and my birthday). I should say I have 8 hours scheduled off for my birthday, but now my manager is trying to change our training schedule so we can be in training all day long. (Now we are only in training about 4 hours a day).  It probably wouldn’t be a good idea to miss a whole day of training. I just wish I knew so I could make plans.

I’m obviously not doing anything big. I probably will go out to eat with my mom. I want to go to my favorite park in the city, but they don’t allow dogs. I don’t want to be without my dog all day. 😦 That’s no fun. So I will probably go to a park that allows dogs. I would go to the beach, but I don’t feel like driving there and back in one day PLUS I don’t know if I can take the whole day off yet.

This advanced tarot class is killing me. I can’t believe I’m doing this to myself. I LOVE the content. It is worth every penny, but I’m not advanced, so the coaching calls are over my head. I don’t have time to learn all the cards. By the time I feel comfortable with the cards, the class will be over. I need to get over it and be willing to suck in front of people.

I can’t wait to get my reading space ready. I’m buying an inexpensive table and using that to do all my readings (including readings for myself). I have to make space for it. That is the holdup. I need to declutter.

Woohoo! I made it to the park 3 days in a row. Can I make it 4? Why not? I might make it 5 days in a row. I don’t know what I’m doing on Saturday as of right now. The only reason I went to the park Tuesday through Thursday was because I wasn’t working overtime. I start working OT on Saturday.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Janelle Monae, Natalie Merchant, Ariana Grande, Cardi B, Brandi Carlile, Christina Aguilera, Lissie, Kesha

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  How to Get Away With Murder

I’m loving season 4 of HTGAWM.

Movie of the week: none

I might watch The Rachel Divide this weekend or during the week. I’ve been watching a court trial. I finally finished it. Now I feel like I have my life back. I can watch other stuff! Lol. The movie is a documentary about Rachel Dolezal. It’s right up my alley.

UPDATE: Watched it. So good. I will do a “review” next week.

Podcasts of the week:  Wrongful Conviction, True Crime Garage, Tara Brach, The Lively Show, Fresh Air,

Books of the week: Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: I’m working on Saturday. I will probably go to the park either Saturday or Sunday whichever day is best for my dog. 😉 I have two tests left in the class I no longer care about. I will take that one day this weekend. I guess I feel like I have to finish the course even though there’s a zero percent I will pursue the certification.

I also have to mail my old router back to Verizon, or they will charge me $100 :/ I had that router for about 5 years. Small things like my Kindle would work with Wi-Fi, but my Mac and PC laptop wouldn’t connect to the Wi-Fi. That’s an emergency! (<– sarcasm)  I got the new router on Tuesday. It took me hours to set up my work desktop, but everything is working now.

Yeah, a pretty lowkey weekend. I really want to focus on reading my library books and working on the tarot class.

Thanks for checking in. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Looking for heaven

I’m feeling scattered. Today is the first day of my favorite month of the year. The weather is gorgeous. My neighbor mowed my lawn on Saturday while I was out! Of course, I didn’t ask him to. He just did it. Good things. But there are also bad things. Or maybe not so bad, depends on how I look at it.

Tori Kelly’s City Dove (one of my favorite songs by her) is describing me right now. I hate quoting song lyrics on this blog, but today I will:

I don’t really know my fate
I just know I’m on my way
There will be mistakes
movin’ on

I could quote the whole song. It’s so perfect for where I am right now.

I’m feeling overwhelmed by my advanced tarot class and work. This class is a little more intense than I thought it would be. The damn coaching calls for this class are a bit much. I get so anxious. I have to talk and be on camera. Sometimes I hate technology. 😉 I would feel much better if they were just on the phone like my work meetings.

Ugh. I did the coaching call for the tarot class last night. It lasted 2 hours! And I sucked. Everyone else did so well. I’m not just saying that because I have low self-esteem. No, I was really inept. In my defense, I did a reading on someone who had to leave early. Everyone else had a partner. I probably would have done better if she were at the meeting. I also didn’t shuffle the cards properly because I had no idea we were going to do a REAL reading live on camera! I thought that didn’t happen until week 5.

I have to get better. I’m embarrassing myself. I just feel overwhelmed with everything going on. Anyway, now I have to message her the reading since she had to leave early. More work for me. I have to type it up. Blah, blah, blah.

AND because I didn’t get a lot of time to talk because my partner wasn’t there, I get extra time to speak on the next coaching call. AS IF I WANT THAT!!!! Lol. She’ll probably call on me first. 😦

Work. I barely made the productivity goal for April. I’m just hoping May will be better.

I’m feeling a little bitter over the way the part-time job company let me go. No email. Nothing. I just got an email from IT for their laptop. I knew it was coming. I said it here on the blog.

I almost forgot to mention my dog’s birthday. It was fun, but as soon as we got to the part of the river I wanted to visit, there was a bridge! My mom was too scared to cross, so I crossed with my dog. We didn’t stay long. The good thing is now I know where to park, and we can go there by ourselves. We have to go back (my dog and I).

No overtime for me today and it’s going to be nice. 80 degrees. I hope to go to the park today after I get off work. Gotta go. Bye!

I thought I was flying

I would start this entry off with a breaking news alert, but I already knew this was coming. The part-time people “let me go”…a long time ago probably. LOL. I knew it, but no one said anything. Then I got an email on Tuesday about them not getting my laptop. You didn’t get my laptop because you never asked for it.  I received no reason which is fine. I would rather not really know the real reason. Okay, I know why they got rid of me. All I got is a UPS label for their laptop.

Maybe the Tarot reading I got was referring to me losing my part-time job? I dunno. Losing that is NOTHING compared to losing my full-time job. It doesn’t even compare. I don’t want to be in that field anymore. (The field my PT job is in). If I’m not good at something, I have no desire to do it. If I suck at Tarot, I’m not going to do it just because I invested in it. It’s okay to change your mind. I don’t want to do that anymore.

With that being said, I will keep my 2 certifications for at least 3 years. Unfortunately, I have to pay dues and get CEUs every year to keep the certifications. It isn’t cheap, but it isn’t too expensive. I hate to let my certifications go, but I’m not going to be chained to something I no longer want to do. I might need it to fall back on. That is the only reason why I’m not completely cutting the cord.

UPDATE: I just received some news about my full-time job that leads me to believe my position could possibly be gone in a year or two so I will not be completely cutting the cord. It’s possible I could find another job within my company, but then I may not work from home. So…sigh. Anyway, I will probably keep my certifications for at least 5 years.

The part-time people hired me with NO job experience. So…whatevs. I’m over it. I hadn’t worked since December. It doesn’t sting like the temp jobs I mentioned a couple of entries ago.

Live and learn and never regret it.

I decided to do a few goals for the new moon year. I’m not posting all of them here because I would like to keep some things private. This list isn’t even complete. I haven’t had time to really think about what I would like to accomplish in the next 365 days. But I will list the few things I came up with. When I set my mind to something, I usually do it. 90% of the time.

Goals I would like to accomplish prior to April 17, 2019

  • Buy a domain through Squarespace by November.
  • Learn the Tarot thoroughly.
  • Do readings for my mom. (first one in May 2018 – next month!) 
  • Learn my Oracle cards.
  • Finish A Course In Miracles lessons by September. 
  • Have a place in my home to do Tarot readings by October.
  • Have my website up by January 15.
  • Get back on my treadmill weekly.
  • Buy a storm door by October 1.
  • Have a website drawn out by September.
  • Offer a stranger a free reading in exchange for something by February.

Yes, I moved the purchase of my website back because I don’t see the point of purchasing a domain if I’m not going to work on the site. I feel like that’s wasting money. The domain name will be there in November. I also don’t want people visiting the site until it is the way I truly want it to be. Is that perfectionism or just smart?

I’ve been saying I want a storm door for the past 3 years. Money has stopped me (lame excuse), and I have to figure out how to get it installed and delivered. I want it all to happen in one day. They want to deliver it and then come by two days later to install it. Not going to work. I also have to figure out measurements. Sigh. I just don’t want to do the work, but I need a storm door. I’m not going to tell anyone about this goal because I might flake out again. 😉

Update: My mom took an online Enneagram test. She’s a 6 (and a 5)! Like I said in my last entry, if she wasn’t a 2, she’s definitely a 6. She’s a 6 because she’s paranoid and she depends on others for everything. I’m independent, so that drives me a little nuts. I will blog more about this next week. If I had read the basic fears of a 6, I would have pegged her for that over a 2.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): First Aid Kit, Florence + The Machine, Pink, Camilla Cabello, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Justin Timberlake, Cardi B

Ariana Grande has new music coming out tomorrow! I hope she releases a good album. She has never released a good, cohesive album. I usually love 4-5 songs on each of her releases. Her last album is probably her best, but it still isn’t great.  I think that is what separates her from other big stars in pop music. But then again, I don’t think Beyonce has released a good album…ever. And people love her. She’s on my mind because she was at Coachella.

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  Survivor, How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lively Show, Fresh Air, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: I finished reading This Messy Magnificent Life by Geneen Roth. Great book and I don’t usually like essay books. I can relate to this book so much. I can say that for all her books. 4 stars.

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: Working, returning my laptop to the UPS store, going to the post office, getting gas for the lawnmower. Fun stuff, I know. That is all happening on Saturday. On Sunday, I hope to just chill and read.

I’m very nervous right now. In less than 2 hours, I have my meet and greet with the Advanced Tarot Class. I haven’t written out what I plan to say when I introduce myself. As soon as I hit publish on this post, that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to keep it very short. What a shocker!

Um, I just found out she’s using Zoom and we’re going to be on camera!! Oh god, now I have to get dressed. 😦 I was dressed to take my dog to the park. I get right back in my comfy PJs whenever I get the chance. I have to use my Mac because guess what? I can’t get on the internet on my PC. I’m glad I have the Mac. Btw, I hope to be able to fix my PC laptop. I haven’t tried everything yet. Now I’m much more nervous! AHHHHHHHH!

UPDATE: This class is serious. OMG! I went second (by chance) in the meet and greet. And people probably could tell I was reading a little. I didn’t read it word for word. But I had pointers. FUCK! In the coaching calls, we are going to be paired with another person and doing READINGS. Double fuck! Our cameras are on the whole time. How can I do a reading when my dog is right beside me? My “office” space is small. More on this later. I thought I would do an update when I’m freaking out. Why not? LOL. OMG. I’m going to bed now.

Have a wonderful weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂