I don’t belong in these parts

I’m thinking about taking a 2-hour meditation class. It is next Saturday at 3PM. It costs $38. I need to get serious about meditation. I used to do a 12-minute meditation every morning, and then I changed my work schedule. To meditate, pray and do A Course in Miracles every morning I would have to get up at least 10 minutes earlier.  I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but I already get up at 4:50 AM.

I need to stop reading The Washington Post when I first get up, looking at the news, checking twitter for news, etc. Most of the time nothing is going on, so it takes about 5 minutes to check everything. However, some days there are big news stories overnight, and that leads me to read over what’s going on, and I go down the rabbit trail.

I’m getting frustrated easily especially when it comes to my part-time job. I just think (know?) meditation would help. I guess if I really believed in meditation, I would do it. I would dedicate myself to a practice. I could be working right now, but I’m so frustrated. &*$%.

I think the meditation class is just what I need. It will take place at a yoga studio. I have only been there once. I just don’t want to spend money on it which is silly. I’m sure it is worth the money. It could change everything. I’m sure I will be serious about my meditation practice from there on out. Hmmm. Still thinking about it.

For the first time, I’m really nervous about the Virginia governor race. I have to remove myself from the results. I just can’t get too emotionally involved. I thought Northam would win for sure about 2 weeks ago. Now I think Gillespie will win. 😦 Major bummer. Everyone is watching this race. This is the most important election on election day and blah, blah, blah. Virginia, you are blue or maybe purple. You are not red. Don’t go back due to scary racist commercials.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Pink, Demi Lovato, Joan Osborne, Aretha Franklin, Lea Michele, Coldplay, Ke$ha, Kelly Clarkson

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, basketball

The NBA is back!! College basketball will be back soon. Yay!

Movie of the week: Nocturnal Animals. I’m not sure how I feel about this movie. It is supposed to be a thriller. I don’t think I enjoyed it as much as everyone else did. I’m not a big Jake Gyllenhaal fan. I like Amy Adams, but not in this. Blah. It was average, I guess.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, The Lively Show

I need to listen to more podcasts during the day. I listen at night and then fall asleep during the episode, and I have to listen all over again.

Books of the week: It should say ‘book’ of the week. I’m really focused on finishing The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood. I’m not sure what I’m going to read next. I have a few books on hold from the library.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren (coming on Sunday)

Plans for the Weekend: Grocery shopping, working, and school work. Do I sound like a broken record or what? This is what I do on most weekends. Gabby Bernstein is doing a webinar at 10AM on spirituality and food. I am arranging my whole Sunday around that. I asked two questions. I hope at least one question gets answered. I’m sure they will get answered somehow because my questions were pretty generic. I would just love for Gabby to say my name. haha.

It’s going to be nice this weekend. That should be a good thing, but that means more dogs at the park. Last weekend, the same unleashed dog came up to me and my dog 3 times!! It is illegal to have an unleashed dog at this park, btw. Anyway…I’m kind of looking forward to it getting cool so fewer people will be there. Only the park would make me say that.

So I can miss Mr. Stalker*, and due to seeing fewer people at the park, I now go to the park during my lunch break. I don’t like it because I can’t linger when the park is almost empty or on a nice day. I have to get back to work, so it feels almost like a chore. It’s not as fun. But I do feel blessed to live so close to the park. I would never drive to the park every day…not even for my dog. lol.

*The stalker hasn’t been stalking me recently. But I think I have seen him coincidently.

Thanks for reading. Have a marvelous weekend. 😉


not lonely, just alone

A pic of my dog from one of our daily visits to the park. It wasn’t this week because this week was rainy. (We still went to the park every damn day, though. ha!)


He hates having his pic taken which makes it hard to get good pics, but oh well.

I just finished splitting a few of my Abilify pills in half. I do it in advance, so I don’t have to do it daily. I guess that means I won’t be quitting within the next two weeks. I feel this undercurrent of depression in me. I’m scared as hell to stop Abilify right now. I would rather stop when I’m not feeling any kind of sadness or overwhelmed.

I’ve been going on and on about Harvey Weinstein in this blog. I was a big fan of Miramax and The Weinstein Company, so this is a huge story to me. I’ve always known he was a jerk, but I didn’t know about the harassment. I just want to say that I know he isn’t the only one in Hollywood sexually harassing people. Also, I know it happens in other industries.

Quick Depo-Provera update: I haven’t bled as of 10/11/17. I hope that doesn’t change.

Quick stalker update: I haven’t seen him on his moped all week. That is probably because I was able to go to the park at 11:30 instead of after I got off from work. The week isn’t over…

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Demi Lovato, Shania Twain, Jasmine Thompson, Jillette Johnson, Lana Del Rey, Sam Smith, Justin Timberlake, Broods

I didn’t expect to like the new Shania. I must admit that I thought she was over once her ex-husband stopped writing with her. (How sexist!) But her new album is decent.

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, Big Little Lies

Big Little Lies is so good! Reese Witherspoon kills it. Everyone is good. Don’t watch season one of BLL and think the book is good. It’s not. Don’t bother. I might be a little bitter because I spent $8 on the Kindle edition of the book. Ugh. What a waste. Anyhow, I can’t wait for season 2. I don’t have HBO, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to see it. I might get the digital version or DVD. So good (when compared to the book).

Movie of the week: I saw Hidden Figures. Very good movie. It’s based on a true story. Janelle Monae is really something. Once again, everyone was good in it. I would recommend this movie to everyone. It was better than Big Little Lies. lol.

Podcast of the week: True Crime Garage. Love that podcast. I usually listen to at least two different podcasts a week. I will start listing those in this section. I’m obsessed with true crime. I can’t get enough of it. I went through a period where I only read true crime.

Books of the week: Ugh, I’m so disappointed. There’s no way I can finish the Vietnam book in less than 2 weeks. 😦 I will still probably read it over the weekend, but then I’ll stop because it is just wasting time to try to read a book I know I’m not going to finish. I hope they put the PBS special the book is based on on Netflix, or maybe I can catch it on PBS. I think it was on over the weekend. I would just buy the book, but at last check, it was $25. I’m not spending that much on a Kindle book.

Currently reading:

I have more library books I could read, but now I’m just trying to finish The Handmaid’s Tale. I always get a bunch of library books at one time. ugh. Too many books, not enough time.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: Staying in for the most part. I have to mail one thing. I don’t even have to go inside the post office. yay. I rarely get to stay in all weekend. I’m going to work at my part-time job and work on my school course.

This week off was pretty good. Only one bad thing happened: I lost power for almost 5 hours on Wednesday morning. I could’ve worked at my part-time job. I lost 5 whole hours! I would like to think I’m over it now, but I dunno. 😉 I had everything all planned out and then that happened.

Have an amazing weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

I’ll be fine

Hallelujah! I’m off from my full-time job all next week. Party time! 🙂 Yes, I still have part-time work and school work, but I will have more time to focus on those things. YAY!

People would often allude to horrible things about Harvey Weinstein. I wanted it to be his personality. A lot of people in Hollywood are difficult. But sexual harassment? Too bad. He does good work for social causes PLUS I love his movies. I guess I shouldn’t watch his movies anymore. Sigh. Almost all the movies I would even consider watching are Weinstein movies, so that leaves me with nothing. So far, I haven’t read the NY Times piece because I know it would disgust me further. All I need to know is that he has sexually harassed many women. Got it. I will probably read the article over the weekend.

And WTF was Cam Newton thinking laughing at a female reporter’s question? Dannon dropped him, and I’m not surprised. Who mostly buys yogurt? WOMEN. Geez.

Enough about everything else, let’s talk about me. 😉 Um. Someone is trying to harass me. I don’t feel harassed, but I believe that is his intention. I don’t want to call him a neighbor. People use that term loosely. Too me a neighbor lives very close. He lives more than 120 yards from me. That’s bigger than a football field. I consider him a person that lives in the neighborhood but not a neighbor.

Anyway, he has been following me to the park on his moped, or whatever that thing is. And one day last week he parked his moped in front of my house when he knew I was walking back from the park. On Tuesday, he was on his way home in his truck as I was walking to the park with my dog. He saw me, went home, changed clothes and got on his moped, and we were on the same pathway at the park. He is basically stalking me.

I don’t like it and I do kind of feel stalked. I don’t believe he would do anything to hurt me (like kill or rape me). I don’t want to change my schedule because my park schedule works with my work and my dog. I like him to go to the park in the afternoon to relieve himself. I could do a quick walk at lunchtime, but that would be very rushed. However, I am considering doing that on some days.

I am very thankful to be off from work next week because now I can change up my schedule a lot. I can walk my dog after lunch with no rush. I can walk him at 10 AM if I want. We can explore the park. I assume Mr. Stalker won’t be there because he won’t see me going to the park. I’m glad he can’t see when I leave. That would bother me much more. He can only see me when he happens to be driving home when I’m walking to the park.

I haven’t done anything to this man. My mom’s scared he is going to do something to me. I had to tell her just in case something does happen even though I’m 99% sure nothing will.

I found out one of my high school classmates passed away in April. 😦 He was an army vet. I would think about him all the time, so I was shocked to hear his name on the local news. Shocked and saddened But now I believe he is in a much better place. I don’t believe in heaven, but I do know he isn’t suffering anymore. He had PTSD according to his mother. And he was also mostly paralyzed, but not from the war. I’m so glad he is out of his hell.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Demi Lovato, Shania Twain, Lady Antebellum, Miley Cyrus, JoJo, Justin Timberlake, Ellie Goulding, Cheat Codes

Not really feeling the new Miley. However, I am loving the new Demi album:

Demi Lovato – Tell Me You Love Me (live)

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, RHONJ

Movie of the week: I finally saw La La Land. I hated the ending!! Overall, the movie was just okay. I liked the old school vibe. I went into this movie totally blind. I had no idea it was a semi-musical. I hate jazz. Sorry. I know that statement is blasphemous to some people. Anyway, I’m glad Moonlight won best picture over this movie.

I also watched Gaga: Five Foot Two. I’m not a big Lady Gaga fan but I love music docs. It was authentic. It made me see her as a real person. One reason I wasn’t a fan was because of her antics. Her latest album is raw and just her. Anyway, I enjoyed it.

Books of the week: Now reading:

My dad fought in Vietnam. I would love to know his take on all of it. But war is not something I would just bring up. Especially Vietnam. So many people died. Some of his friends died. From what I know of the war, I am disgusted by what happened. However, I am reading this book to hear from ALL sides. I want to know everything.

From the book:

Nothing, certainly not our film or book, can make the tragedy of the Vietnam War all right. But we can, and we must honor the courage, heroism, and sacrifice of those who served, those who died, and those who participated in the war against the war.


Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: Woohoo! I’m celebrating on Friday afternoon. No more full-time work for 9 days straight. Okay, I’m not really celebrating. On Friday evening, I’ll be working at my part-time job and cleaning my living room. Another fun Friday night.

This weekend will be normal. I’m going grocery shopping, doing school work and working. I have a lot of reading for class to do and I really, really, want to finish the Vietnam book before it is due at the library. The book is over 600 pages, and I only have a few weeks to read it. I’m reading 3 library books at once, so I don’t know if I’ll be able to finish all three.

I’m not doing anything special on my week off. Besides going to the park daily, I’m only going out to get the Depo injection. Fun times. Well, I gotta go. I’m getting ready to read in bed. No more work tonight.

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂

I’m in my zone

It’s not bonus time, but my boss gave me an extra $100 for doing good work at my full-time job.  Awesome. I wasn’t counting on that. Over the years, I would hear of others getting rewards, and I thought, “That’s never going to be me.”  Surprise! 🙂

Wow!! After I gushed over Justin Timberlake, he might be performing at the Super Bowl! Let everyone else be mad, but I’m so excited. I will not watch the football game since I’m still boycotting football because it kills people, BUT I will watch the halftime show if JT performs.

I really miss watching football. My weekends used to be planned around it. Maybe they will find a cure for CTE and even then, I’m not sure I’ll watch it. The NFL knew about CTE and didn’t tell the players or anyone. I should boycott the NFL forever because this is never going to change even if they find a cure. I have dreams of watching football (college and pro) 10 years from now after it doesn’t kill people. That isn’t realistic, though. The facts won’t ever change. People knew what it was doing to players, and they said nothing. Just keep making money while people are dying for sport.


One more controversial thing: I guess people hate it when they realize most football players are black. Ha! Better not to think about it.

After one more week of work, I’m off from my full-time job for a full week. YAY! I usually only take off 3 days in October every year, so a full week sounds divine.

Depo-Provera update: And on the 21st day, I bled. $#@%! But it was light and only lasted one morning. However, that makes me think my period isn’t gone forever. I went 20 days without any bleeding which is the longest I’ve gone in about 6-8 months. I get my fourth Depo shot on October 10. I wish it didn’t have to be an ongoing thing. After a year of shots, I wish that would be it.

I should’ve gotten an IUD, but I’m scared of the pain of having it inserted.

On Tuesday we (my dog and I) went to the park and we saw NO ONE. It was glorious to have the whole park to ourselves. Actually this whole week we haven’t seen a ton of people. Weird. I’m not looking forward to this weekend. People will be back and dogs will be back. Bummer.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Justin Timberlake, Ke$ha, Demi Lovato, JoJo, Emeli Sande, India.Arie, *NSYNC, Bethany Dillion

TV of the week: I’ve been mostly binge-watching the Zach Adams trial. It’s gruesome and sad.

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week: I finished reading The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo: A Novel by Taylor Jenkins Reid. I would never have read this without Jen from YouTube recommending it. I’m glad I gave it a chance, but I probably wouldn’t recommend it to someone unless they love fiction. I gave it four stars on Goodreads. I may read Reid’s other books. Right now my “to read” list is too long so maybe next year I will get to her.

I’m now reading What Remains: A Memoir of Fate, Friendship, and Love by Carole Radziwill.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: I’m planning on working and taking my test for chapter 4. Chapter 4 is so arduous. It’s boring, so that makes me not want to take the test because I know it will take forever.  I made an 88 on my last test, and it only took 22 minutes. This test will probably take 2 hours. I’m not looking forward to it.

I hope I have part-time work all weekend. I know I have work for tonight. Working on a Friday night is super fun! No sarcasm. 😉 Friday nights aren’t that special to me. I was considering going to see the Washington Wizards practice tonight. I went last year and didn’t work at my part-time job. But this year, I’m choosing work. It’s the end of the month, and I need the money. We get paid on October 15th for the work we did this month.

Maybe I’ll see the Wizards next year.

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Love on repeat

I’m so sad to hear about the earthquakes in Mexico. The one that happened two weeks ago affected Oaxaca badly. I keep thinking about the people there and the buildings. Oaxaca is such a wonderful place. I hope to go back one day. I can’t even look at pictures of the damage.  I pray they don’t have any more earthquakes. 😦

And poor Puerto Rico. No power on the whole island?? That’s when you know things are bad.

Guess who is going to boot camp on Saturday morning? I’m so scared. I have never been to a boot camp, and other people will be there (!!). It’s free, and it’s not ongoing. It will be at a park. There will be a different free exercise activity in parks around the city for the next 6 weeks. I might skip hiking. That is too social for me. I have a feeling people would want to talk, and I would appear standoffish. I would love to go hiking alone, but with other people around? Ack!

Boot camp? What if it’s hard? What if I can’t keep up? What if I look foolish? I have to go, right? lol. I have only been to this park once and nowhere near where the boot camp will be. The map online isn’t helpful at all.  I’m going to have to get there early to find out where it is.

Forget Depo-Provera. I think I didn’t start gaining weight until I started Abilify. Another strike, but it is still worth it. Unfortunately, I can’t operate without it. AND the price was lowered to less than $1 a pill. Amazing! So what do I do? I honestly don’t feel like I have much of a choice. Some people would say go gluten-free and exercise more or something like that. But I know that would take me a while and I don’t believe it will work for me, so I have to be on something in the interim.

Do people not get it? When I’m depressed, I can’t exercise. I’m in bed. Gluten-free? Who gives a shit? I just want to die. Abilify can be evil, but it works for me. I know it doesn’t work for everyone.

I won’t see my shrink again until December. I have that long to think about it. Maybe I will ask him about TMS since there isn’t an alternative to Abilify (for me). I have a feeling he will not go for TMS. As I see it, my options are to stay on Abilify or get a new shrink. My shrink is okay, but I don’t feel like I can talk to him easily. That’s probably 100% on me. I won’t blame him.

Hopefully, I won’t keep posting about Abilify. I just need to make a tough decision. The price going down by $200 really complicates things.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Nelly Furtado, Jem, Jillette Johnson, Julia Michaels, John Mayer, JoJo, Britney Spears, Shawn Mendes

TV of the week: Big Brother, The Kalief Browder Story

I followed Kalief Browder since I first heard of his story a while ago. I think he was in Rikers at the time. I remember thinking, “This shows how messed up the ‘justice’ system is.” I wish he could have beaten his demons. I was so glad when he was released, but prison messes with your head…especially Rikers! How tragic. 😦

I honestly don’t see how anyone believes we have a fair justice system. Some people aren’t paying attention.

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week: Currently reading –

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo: A Novel by Taylor Jenkins Reid (fun book)

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: Boot camp!!! I’m so anxious. Have I mentioned that? I hope enough people show up. More than 10, but less than 30 would be good. I want the people who put this together to be successful, but too many people might terrify me.

I will also go grocery shopping, work, mow the front yard and study.

Have a fabulous weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Don’t sell me no pipe dream

WTF? I felt like I went to the doctor for a cold and you know I don’t do that. I felt stupid, lame, and shocked after leaving the surgeon’s office. Both visits (to the shrink and the orthopedic surgeon) were a waste of time. The shrink visit was a waste due to my fault. More on that later. I’m more upset about the surgeon because it cost more and I was expecting an x-ray or something.

I do have carpal tunnel syndrome. No shit. All the doctor recommended I do is keep wearing the braces I bought from Amazon (!!) and sleep with my arms straight down.* Um, thanks. I waited over an hour for that. I didn’t mind the wait. I got a lot of reading done. Anyway, he did offer me a cortisone shot, but I said no because it isn’t affecting my sleep much. If at all.

*Sleeping with my arms straight down does help, but it is hard to do. Who can do that all night? Plus it is uncomfortable.

He also told me to come back if it got worse, so that is what I will do. I hope the braces help. So far they have been helping, but that isn’t a cure. He didn’t seem as concerned about the pain as the tingling. So I guess the tingling is a bigger deal. Well, I have a lot of that.

Um. Whatever? Next.

The shrink was a waste of time because I didn’t mention I wanted to get off Abilify because of the impulsive behavior. I just mentioned the cost. My fault. So I’m still on Abilify for now. According to my doctor, there is no generic Abilify substitute except for Wellbutrin and Effexor and I can’t take either one of those. I have enough Abilify to last until 2018. Blah.

GOOD NEWS: I finally got my Keurig coffee maker!!!111!!  I followed it on the internet from California on a FedEx truck. Isn’t it absurd that my coffee maker had to be driven 3,000 miles on a truck to get to me?  Maybe it’s just me.  Why don’t they have a distribution center in the middle of America? Most companies I deal with ship 2-day priority mail or they have something near the east coast.

Oh, what about the coffee maker? I’ve only used it once. I used a Starbucks pod (medium roast) for my first cup of coffee this morning. In the future, if I do buy pods, I will buy a type of dark roast. I drink my coffee black 95% of the time. Back to the coffee maker – I don’t like that it doesn’t keep the coffee in the mug warm after it brews. My $40 coffee maker kept it warm. It also doesn’t have a clock so I can program it to brew, but I rarely used that on my old coffee maker.

I’ve only had it for a day so I don’t really have a strong opinion on it yet. I just hope it was worth the money.

Depo-Provera update: No bleeding 9 days in a row! This is a miracle. Please let my period be over forever.

This week I…

Music of the week: Nelly Furtado, Shawn Mendes, Natalie Merchant, Demi Lovato, Joan Osborne, Kelly Clarkson, Miranda Lambert, Sam Smith

TV of the week: Big Brother, The Real Housewives of Orange County

They are doing a celebrity version of Big Brother this winter! I am going to watch it, but it worries me. Usually, when a reality show starts featuring celebrities, the “regular” show goes away. I don’t want my summer full of BB and normal people to go away.

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week: I finished reading Dead Man Walking: The Eyewitness Account Of The Death Penalty That Sparked a National Debate by Helen Prejean. 5 stars. I can’t believe the death penalty is still legal in THIRTY TWO states. Isn’t that fucked up? The death penalty disgusts me. The book is so glum. Great writing though.

Now reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: Cleaning, working a little, school work and grocery shopping.  I made an 84 on test #2. Not my best work. It was harder than I thought it was going to be. I’m taking test #3 on Sunday morning. I’m not sure how much I’ll be working this weekend.

There’s going to be a pro-confederate rally 10 minutes from my house this weekend. Other than that, nothing is going on. Seriously I hope no one is hurt and I already feel bad for all the people living in that neighborhood. I would be worried about vandalism, noise and leaving my house.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂

Fun to play the devil

OMG! Dying. There is a chance I might go the Charlottesville benefit concert! I put my request in and I’ll find out by Tuesday if I get a ticket. Dave Matthews Band, Ariana Grande, Justin Timberlake, The Roots, Pharrell, and Chris Stapleton are among the people who will be there. HOLY SHIT! I wanna go so bad. The only downside is that it is general admission. I have never done GA. I’m not getting there early.  So I probably won’t have a good seat.

I will blog about this more if I actually get a ticket. I only asked for 1 ticket so that might up my chances of getting one. But a lot of people may only ask for one since the limit is two. Who knows? Anyway, it will probably be live streamed since it is a benefit concert. Either way, I hope to see it.

Instead of going to the doctor for my carpal tunnel, I have decided to try braces for now. I ordered two braces (one for each hand) from Amazon. I just got them on Wednesday. Unfortunately, it is slowing down my work. I can’t wait to get used to them. I need to be able to write and type for my job.

I’m practically wearing the braces 24/7. Yes, I sleep in them. I didn’t know that was common, but a lot of people with CTS have problems sleeping due to the tingling and pain. For me, it wasn’t that much of a problem. I would feel the tingling, but it didn’t affect my sleep.

UPDATE: I’m going to see an orthopedic surgeon next Thursday. No, I’m not planning on having surgery. I don’t want to pay for it, and I can’t afford that much time off from work to recover. Bitch gotta work. 😉 I hope he can give me a splint or something. The braces are okay, but they aren’t custom made of course.  Hopefully, this won’t cost a lot. I know seeing the specialist will cost me $45, but there are more costs involve. (Like the splint or whatever meds they might want to give me).

He just better not suggest rest. I can’t rest my hands. I didn’t work on Labor Day at either job, and my hands did feel better after that rest so I know rest would be great. I just can’t do it.

This week I…

Music of the week: Joan Osborne, Paula Cole, Demi Lovato, Jillette Johnson, Lea Michele, Taylor Swift, Britney Spears, Halsey

TV of the week: Big Brother, The Real Housewives of NYC, US Open

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren


Plans for the Weekend: I’m taking test #2 on Saturday. I will also work at my part-time job on Saturday. I may not have any work on Sunday. Other than that, errands. I might go to the store. Some people are saying prepare for Hurricane Irma so I might buy a few canned items in case the electricity goes out. I hope we don’t get any part of it. I feel bad for Florida because it looks like it will hit parts of them. I’m hoping it doesn’t hurt anyone else. It already destroyed parts of the Caribbean (and killed people).

Hurricanes suck. Weird note to end on, but it’s true.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

P.S. I should be working at my PT job right now, but this ish is hard. I spent 2 and half hours working on one thing so I’m done for tonight. I’m going to watch the US Open and read Dead Man Walking. I’m so naughty.