Feeling that turns me on

Countdown:

3 days until I’m off from one for one day (but ugh, I might go to one meeting)

14 days until I’m off for a full week (!!!)

??? days until I move (wish I knew!)

I had my last meeting with my mentor. It was one of the best sessions ever! We overhauled my website in one hour. She’s freaking awesome! Of course, now I have to do the edits. I’m about 40% done. I could have stayed up all night and just worked on the site. But I do have a day job.  I’ll probably link to my site here and leave it up for a week or so once I’m done. I don’t link it from here because I have a picture of myself on there and links to all my biz social media.

Anyway, I love working on this stuff. It makes my heart sing. I don’t want to design websites for others. I don’t like it that much. 😉 I’m also doing a special PDF. It was my mentor’s idea of course. It is all about astrology and careers. It’s free to the people who subscribe to my email newsletter. I’m so excited about making this! I want to start tonight, but I’ve gotta work on my website.

I’m glad to report that the search engines (Google and Bing) recognize that I exist. Maybe in 3 months, I can begin seeing more hits from them? I know a little about SEO, but not much. I’ll put that on the list of things I’ve got to become an expert on.

Sorry, all I can talk about is tarot biz, but I don’t want to talk about things I’m too down about. At least not right now. I’m also working on an Instagram editorial calendar. I used to post every day. Now I’m thinking about posting 3 or 4 days a week. I do video weekly mini career readings on IG every Sunday. Now I just have to come up with 2 to 3 days more of content. I know I’m supposed to post personal shit with my photos, but I don’t think I can come up with something once a week. Plus, I don’t have that many pictures of myself. I am posting a bio with a pic I took of myself at the park this weekend.

What else is going on? Work isn’t going great. My living situation isn’t going great. I’m moving, and I’m not sure that’s going to be great. My health is up in the air. More on all this later.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Jess Glynne, Matt Nathanson, Carrie Underwood, Tori Kelly, Joan Osborne, Ariana Grande, Demi Lovato

TV of the week:  Nashville, The Sinner, basketball

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Dirty John, Dr. Death, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Sword and Scale, The Lowe Post, True Crime Garge, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: 

Now reading –

Plans for the Weekend: Grocery shopping, packing, and working on tarot stuff. I’ve been too sick with allergies to really pack. I kept sneezing in my bedroom so I did the best I could. This weekend, I think I’m going to just start putting stuff in boxes and not worry about needing it. I’m not going to tape the boxes up right now, but I’ll pack it.

Right now, I’m about to listen to some music or maybe an audiobook while working on my website. I could stay up all night doing this. I will have to force myself to go to bed.

Thanks for reading! Have a wonderful weekend. 🙂

Wish I hated everyone

I didn’t end up going to the psychic festival. 😦 I was so sick with allergies. Now I’m taking Zyrtec every day. Because I can’t swallow pills, I have to take the dissolvable kind which is ridiculously so much more expensive than the regular tablets. Grr!

Anyway, I don’t know what I’m allergic to. It could be the house, or it could be my dog. I adopted my dog about 8 months after I moved here. So I don’t know which is causing the allergies. I don’t see anything in the house that could cause it. My mom is convinced it is “invisible mold” because when my sister and I were young, we lived in a house where it took a while for the mold to show. My sister was always sick, but they couldn’t figure out why. So I guess it could be “invisible mold” or it could be my dog.

Whatever. If it is the house, I’m moving in less than 2 months and if it’s my dog…oh well. I’m stuck with him. 😉 Speaking of medical things, I’m getting my first flu shot EVER on Tuesday. I better not get sick. I’ve never had the flu. I’m only getting one because I signed up by mistake through work. I meant to just sign up for the checkup so I can save money on my health insurance. I might see if I can get out of it once I get to the appointment.

Let’s talk about more medical things because that’s exciting, right? I ordered more Abilify. I didn’t want to pay the $75 copay (between my dog and me, our meds are expensive!). However, I can’t stop taking Abilify right now. For the past two years, I have stopped around Christmas. I’m not into Xmas or anything. In fact, I hate it, but that’s not the point. I’m getting ready to move and I don’t want to go through the winter depressed and nauseous. I’m already depressed because winter SUCKS. I hate winter! I’m seriously thinking about moving somewhere where there aren’t winters. It won’t be LA because it was cold when I was there. lol.

Anyway, I’m going to TRY to stop taking Abilify in June of 2019. I’m going to the beach for my birthday in May* and then I will try to stop the Abilify. I’m on the lowest possible dose. I only take it 5 days a week. Maybe I should try to take it 4 days a week and see what happens? I think I will start that next week.

*Unfortunately this will be a semi-expensive beach trip. None of the hotels on the beach that I love will accept dogs. 😦 So I will have to get some really fancy place, even though I could care less. I don’t want to leave him at the vet. Besides the money I would spend on boarding almost equal what I’ll end up paying at the expensive hotel. My mom is coming too so I hope I can find a suite. In the cheaper hotel, we always got a suite. But the pet-friendly hotels, already cost too much so I will probably just get a room with 2 queen beds. As long, as the room has a balcony (A MUST!!), I’ll be fine.

Should I talk about moving? Noooooo! I think I’m in denial. I start packing next weekend. I still don’t have a move date. I’m still terrified of notifying my landlord. It doesn’t really matter when I move, I’m still paying for rent and electricity (so the pipes won’t freeze) until at least December 31. But I want to move to my mom’s by Thanksgiving. In case I haven’t mentioned it, I don’t have a lease. I haven’t had a lease in 5 years. Weird, I know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Maggie Rose, Janet Jackson, Christina Aguilera, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Joan Osborne, Pistol Annies,

TV of the week:  Nashville

I will probably start watching basketball soon. Of course, I’m watching the news since they stopped talking so much about Russia.

Movie of the week: I might watch the RBG documentary on Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I don’t know much about her. All I know is that she is on the Supreme Court.

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Online Marketing Made Easy, True Crime Garage, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lowe Post, The Rachel Maddow Show, Why is This Happening, What Should I Read Next?

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again. I’m so fun! I want to spend time working on my tarot biz. This is quarter 4. I need to get busy. I need to put myself out there and start making money. I don’t expect a ton of customers. But I will be strategizing this weekend. I already know I’m going to offer 50% off every reading from maybe mid-October to November. Or maybe I should offer it through December. Oooh, what should I do for Black Friday??! I forgot about that. I have to think about it. Anyway, some of my readings are only $5.00 so 50% off is a bargain. I’m going to do a short Youtube video explaining my services and giving away the coupon for 50% off.

I haven’t mentioned this, but I’m also taking two online courses to make a big move during this time of year since this time is the busiest time for all businesses. One is a group mentorship. We meet LIVE on video once a week. I have to blog about that. LOL. I just had my first meeting on Tuesday. Scary!! And one is a productivity type class. I was doing my homework for that until I got the urge to blog.

Like I said, next weekend I’m focusing on packing. It would be great to make a big dent with that. I don’t have a lot of big things. I have a lot of little things. A lot of it will be going in the trash, but some things I want to keep.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! 🙂

Happy & sad at the same time

Oh dear. I’m watching Anita Hill’s testimony from 1991. I can’t believe the questions Arlen Spector asked her. Wow. I’m only on the 56th minute of day 1. I’m watching the CSPAN version. I have a long way to go. I haven’t watched Clarence Thomas’ testimony. I should say rewatch. I was very young when all this happened. I was on Anita Hill’s side just because she was a woman. Hey, I said I was young. 😉 Speaking of young, it is strange seeing a young Joe Biden, and a few people have passed.

Anyway, I cried during most of Dr. Ford’s testimony. I didn’t get to watch all of Judge Kavanaugh live. I watched it later on YouTube. I did tear up a little when he got emotional. FWIW. Sigh. Next subject.

Oooh! There’s going to be a psychic fair this weekend! I wanna go so bad. But I have YouTube videos to record. Blah, blah. I didn’t know about it happening until today. A psychic fair is usually a fair with psychics (duh), Reiki practitioners, tarot readers, energy healers, astrologers, etc. ALL the money is being donated to a charity for children in Kenya. These people are volunteering their time. My mentor does psychic fairs for charity. I always thought it sounded cool and now I have an opportunity to go to one. Hmmm.

I’ve always wanted Reiki done. I don’t know much about it, but I know I could use it. But since I have to pay for these services, I would probably get one service. A psychic would be okay because I’ve never seen a psychic. I have never had a tarot reading in person. I’ve had one on the phone and a few by audio and email. I think everything will be $20 for a 15-minute session. I can definitely get a decent tarot reading during that time. I’m not sure about Reiki since I almost know nothing about it. From personal experience, I know it is hard to give a good astrology reading in 15 minutes, so I wouldn’t even bother. Plus I know a little astrology, so I really don’t need it.

I might attempt to drag my mom to the fair. I don’t think she’ll want to pay the $20 because she doesn’t have it. But I know she would love a reading from a psychic or tarot reader. I feel like if I take her, I will end up paying for her. I know it goes to charity, but I don’t have a lot of money. I just paid a bunch of money to get trees trimmed and to a plumber. I’m not done yet. I forgot I have to pay the movers. Pout.

If I go, I’ll have lots of details in a blog post next week. One more thing: I know I often rant about tarot readers not being psychic, but I do believe in psychics. I know they exist. I was in an online video class with a few this spring.  So I’m 100% a believer. I just don’t like when people associate tarot readers with being psychic. Psychics don’t NEED tarot cards. We use tarot cards because we aren’t psychic. LOL.

OMG. The Anita Hill testimony. Someone just asked her, “Are you a woman scorned”? WTF? And then he said, “Are you militant?” Okay, I’ll stop listing the questions. Geez. What happened in 1991? And some of these questions are by Democrats! What was in the water? Unbelievable. Or is it really? I could see this happening in 2018. Anything goes these days.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Tori Kelly, Maggie Rose, Nashville Cast, Jason Mraz, Lauren Daigle, Carrie Underwood, Ariana Grande, Pistol Annies

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Nashville

I knew Tyler wouldn’t win Big Brother. He should have. I hate when people like Kaycee say they won by their “social game.” It sounds like using people just to win. I know Big Brother is a game. Tyler was robbed!!!1!!! My mom just started watching this year. She is 19 years late. Yes, the show has been on for 20 years, and I’ve watched EVERY summer. It feels good to call someone else late. I’m usually the late one. (See: Anita Hill comments).

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Rachel Maddow Show, Online Marketing Made Easy, So You Wanna be a Witch, The Bill Simmons Podcast, Serial, All In with Chris Hayes, The Lively Show, True Crime Garage,

I know it seems like I listen to a lot of podcasts. But I “listen” to most of them as I fall asleep. Or sometimes I will wake up at 4AM and know I won’t go back to sleep, and then I  will really listen to the podcast.

Books of the week: I finished reading Unnecessary Roughness: Inside the Trial and Final Days of Aaron Hernandez by Jose Baez I’m not the biggest Jose Baez fan. However, I’m so glad he wrote this book. This is the 3rd book I’ve read on Hernandez plus I watched all of his first trail. This book made me feel like I finally got to know him. I feel so bad for his fiance and daughter. I guess I have to say I feel sad for the victims (even though I strongly believe Aaron is innocent in one of the cases). Yes, I feel for them too, but I didn’t know of them.

Now reading – 

  • Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice Nope, I’ve never read this book. Yes, I’m extremely late. Haven’t seen the movie either. There is a movie, right? I LOVE VAMPIRES. Sorry, for the outburst.

Plans for the weekend: Maybe going to the psychic fair? I can only hope. I have no idea whether I’m going as of right now. I’m not working at my day job this weekend. I am doing a bunch of tarot stuff. I’m recording 12 YouTube videos. Sounds fun, right? That will be time-consuming. I’m going grocery shopping. I will enjoy the park while the weather is nice and while I’m still living very close to the park.

I’m going now. I will probably go to sleep watching the Clarence Thomas Hearing. Have a fun weekend. Thanks so much for reading! 🙂

I made it through the heartache

I feel like I’ve been so busy this week. I can’t explain why. I was off from work on Monday, and that was the only day I feel like I got anything done. Anyway, I finally have time to breathe.

Hurricane Florence mostly missed us, but on Monday there were tornadoes from the hurricane. Two people died, and buildings and cars were destroyed. I can’t help but wonder if I’m being robbed by having some trees trimmed and cut down at this time. HE IS CHARGING ME $500!! Yes, I’m yelling because this sucks. 😦 I’m putting it on my credit card, of course. My trees have nothing to do with the hurricane. Bad timing. I know people who trim trees are probably charging more because people are desperate to get their yards clean. This is not my situation at all. Sigh.

I don’t know why men think it’s still okay to tell women to smile. Fuck off is my first reaction. Well, really I’m wondering why you’re contacting me in the first place. I get flirtatious messages on Instagram and Facebook way too often. I can’t imagine what pretty women get. It must be overwhelming. I haven’t responded to the last guy. 80% of the time I don’t respond. He said I was pretty and that I should smile in my photos. Ick!

I’m not interested in making friends. I’m definitely not interested in a romantic relationship. So why should I respond at all? Hmm. I’m only on Facebook because of my dad (at first) and now because of my business page. I don’t like ignoring people but if you only want to flirt and I have no interest in that, why should I respond? Some people are relentless.

If Kavanaugh doesn’t get approved, Trump will only appoint someone worse. I don’t really care about Kavanaugh either way.* I guess if the Democrats win control after the midterms, they won’t approve anyone? LOL. No freaking way. Dems have no spine. This whole thing is absurd.

*I do care if he attempted to rape someone. His age doesn’t matter. BTW, 17 is not that young. Rape is serious to me. Should this disqualify him if he did it? Yes.  There was a witness, but he’s Kavanaugh’s friend, so that’s like having no proof. I still can’t believe people wonder why people don’t come forward. I haven’t had anything happen to me since I was maybe around 9 years old but I don’t think I would report a rape or sexual harassment. I don’t report all kind of things that happen to me so I can’t see me reporting something that serious. I have an unhealthy fear of retaliation, and I would probably feel shame. Plus, I’m shy.

I just created an email list for my tarot website. I feel legit now. Haha. I’m offering a free meditation for tarot readers to all the people that sign up. I worked on the meditation a little tonight. I hope to have it finished by Sunday. I haven’t advertised my email list yet. I won’t advertise until I have at least one free meditation. I plan on making two. Oh, and I’m very nervous about creating an email list because I don’t have much to say. What a shocker! I will send out an email at least once a month. I think I can do that.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Carrie Underwood, Tori Kelly, Aretha Franklin, Lauren Daigle, Ariana Grande, BeBe Rexha, Mariah Carey, George Micahel

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Nashville

Tyler is playing the best game. I’m not a fan of his. But I can acknowledge he is the only player that played the whole game! For anyone else to win…I can’t imagine. I don’t think he will win. I think Kaycee will win. I don’t like that one bit. She didn’t start playing until the end of the game. That is a no-no in Big Brother. You can’t just float for weeks and start playing the game. Ugh. BTW, my favorite houseguest is Sam.

Movie of the week: I started watching Black Panther. I think I made it about 45 minutes through. Not sure if I will finish. I don’t like action adventure movies. I see them as movies made for 12-year-old boys. I just can’t. Is there more depth there? I wouldn’t know because I don’t really care. I might finish it this weekend. I just don’t get all that violence UNLESS it is a horror movie. I’m down for crappy horror movies. 😉 I like dramas, documentaries, and horror movies.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage, The Lively Show, The Mind Your Business Podcast,

I can’t wait to listen to Serial. I will probably start it tomorrow. It is about the unjust “justice” system this season. It will be interesting to see how well received it is. Because some people believe the justice system is fair. ROFL.

Books of the week: Now reading

Plans for the weekend:  I’m working overtime at my day job for half a day on Saturday. I’m not going anywhere this weekend. I need to focus on my tarot biz. I have about 7 blog posts to get done by October 1. I also have to film 12 videos for YouTube. I also have a free tarot reading to do tomorrow.  I may start packing. As of right now, I’m still moving out by Thanksgiving. More on that later.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂

It doesn’t even faze me

After the last two entries, should we start with some positivity? 🙂

PICTURE time!! I’m going to be so sad when the flowers stop blooming soon. Bummer. Anyhow, here are two pictures of beautiful flowers. I’m thinking of making a flower essence out of the first one over the weekend.

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I love purple flowers!

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Now back to life. The tree branches are still down in my yard. The power line is still down, but it is just hanging down. It isn’t loose. I hope that makes sense. Even if the power line weren’t down, the branches would be impossible to get up without help. I think they may be still attached to the tree so I would need a saw. Blah, blah, blah. That isn’t my priority right now.

What is my priority? PLUMBING. I still haven’t gotten it fixed since I last posted but the plumber is coming out tomorrow. I know this may cost a ton. This is partly my fault for letting the problem get so bad. However, the plumbing was bad before I moved in. I didn’t know that of course.

One day I was walking my dog, and a man stopped his car to talk. I was annoyed because my dog was barking/growling and trying to attack the man even though he was in the car. He said, “I used to live here.” I smiled and asked, “really?” He said, “Yeah. Is the plumbing any good?” ROFL. So this is a longstanding problem. It was fine for maybe the first year. Sigh.

Well, it is my responsibility now. I will take the blame. This is fair. I hope the price is reasonable.  Well, I just hope the plumber can even fix the problem! I don’t even know if that is an option. Double sigh.

I was falling out of love with tarot two weeks ago. I was really down about it. I wanted to give up. But now I’m back. Watch out! 😉 I think it may have been not receiving feedback for the free readings I was doing and reading another person’s readings. They are so much better than mine. So much better! That person probably has YEARS of experience so of course, their stuff will be better than mine.

I am now using that person for inspiration. My blog on my tarot website will be better next month. And I’ve been in the zone this week while doing readings. I love doing tarot readings. This week I’ve realized that doing tarot is like creating a story. I love it. Have I said that enough? I’m in the vortex, yo!

I took one unplanned evening off this week. It felt so great even though I was feeling a little sick. I use my evenings to work on my tarot biz and the online course I’m creating. From now on, I will schedule an evening off every week. I got into bed at 6:30. It was wonderful. I only did it because I was not feeling well. I’m still not feeling great. I don’t know whether it is depression (hope not!) or something else. I’m eating less which isn’t a horrible thing. 😉

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Aretha Franklin, Ariana Grande, Amos Lee, Christina Aguilera, Jason Mraz, Lauren Daigle, Carrie Underwood, Demi Lovato

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Castle Rock, WNBA Finals

Go Washington Mystics!!!1!!1!! I love Sue Bird like everyone else, and I’m glad Seattle has some type of basketball team since they took the Supersonics away. But I’m rooting for Washington DC, of course. I’ve followed Sue Bird since she was playing in college. I wish she were on our team. I know I’m not supposed to say that.

Movie of the week: I’m either watching Black Panther this weekend or next weekend. I’m thinking about saving it for next weekend because I’ll have a strawberry daiquiri. I had one last weekend. That is barely alcohol, but technically it is. Whatever. I going to drink 2 a month. I’m so wild. GIRL GONE WILD! I might need alcohol to enjoy Black Panther because it isn’t my favorite genre of movie. But I’m willing to give it a chance. I might love it.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, All In With Chris Hayes, The Lively Show, Up and Vanished

Books of the week: Now reading

Plans for the weekend: As of right now, I’m just planning on working on creating content. I have at least one tarot reading to do. It will probably turn into two.  I’m not working overtime as far as I know.

I hope the plumbing work can somehow be done this weekend. I have a call with my mentor after work on Monday so it can’t happen at all on that day. Last time I had work done, it took 2-3 days. I just hope they can fix it!

Have a great weekend! Thanks so much for reading. 🙂

Can’t control my mind

I started uploading my course to Thinkrific. It looks so good. Okay, I haven’t uploaded anything major, but I sort of,  kinda have a course! 😉 Thinkrific doesn’t have the best layout, and I hate that I have to advertise on my own (what a concept!), but I think I’m sticking with them since my course is just a small course.

I think I’m going to look for 5 to 10 volunteers to take the course for free. I need feedback. I am working overtime on Labor Day, but I’m off this weekend. So I should have a lot of time to work on this course.

I have to correct myself. I said I was at my job for 14 years. Nope. My 13-year anniversary was this week. I can never keep up with time.

Can I rant a little? Just a tiny rant? I’m so sick of these Positive Pollys. Lol. I’m thinking of a few people in particular, but I won’t name names. Everything is your fault if your life sucks. Oh, do you have options? Because some people have nothing to fall back on. NO ONE in my family has money. My dad is doing okay since he has veteran benefits and has retired and my uncle was doing fine (middle class) before he died from colon cancer. My mom is broke because she gave up EVERYTHING to take care of her sick mother. I’m broke. Yes, I work full-time, and due to mental health issues and other things I will never get into, I’m officially broke. I can’t rely on anyone. I can’t borrow money from anyone.

I’m just sick of people with resources whether it be a spouse, good looks, good genes, or parents, telling other people with no resources what to do. Just shut the fuck up! You don’t know what you’re talking about and that is why people call you privileged. (Not talking about white privilege, btw). But you don’t seem to get it. I’m sick of people saying, all I had to do was ask my parents for money, but I felt bad. WTF??! You have resources. Go use them and STFU. These people have no clue what it’s like to come from NOTHING. No clue. Leave us alone and stop trying to give us advice. We are looking at you like, “Uh, you’re clueless.” It’s all bullshit.

I don’t fit into your Positive Polly narrative, so you just leave it out, right?

/end rant

If I were to really unload on how my future is looking…wow. It looks pretty bad. Allow me to state the truth. Yes, I’m working on things because I have to. I don’t have a partner or good job prospects. I have physical and mental health issues (that will get worse – especially the physical stuff). I don’t have a rich mommy or daddy. All I have is myself. I don’t mean to keep ranting. 🙂 I just want to mention that the future looks bleak, but I do have a little Positive Polly in me, and that is how I keep pushing.

Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I wonder why I bother. It only lasts for less than 5% of my day. Thank the Universe. However, I’m worried that everything will get worse and that 5% will turn to 25%.

I just wish people would get it. Not the Positive Pollys I mentioned above, but people like my mentor. I’ve told you I’m in debt. Why do you think I have money?? Do I have to really break it down for you? You ask, and I’ll tell you everything, but you won’t ask. Better for you to believe life is fair.

Oh, screw it. Who cares. They never will get it. They don’t have to get it. Lucky them. They claim to understand shit, but they aren’t deep.

So there it is….part of my truth because I won’t reveal all my physical health issues.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Mariah Carey, Miranda Lambert, Lissie, First Aid Kit, Jason Mraz, Tori Kelly, Shania Twain

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Nashville

I need a serious intervention. I’ve been watching police interrogations on YouTube. The ones from Canada are the best. Well, the ones from Canada are great because I know the least about the cases. I keep up with American crimes.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Fresh Air, True Crime Garage, The Lively Show, A Course In Miracles, Serial Killers

Books of the week: Now reading –

Plans for the weekend: This is grocery shopping weekend. I’ve recorded 6 YouTube videos so far. I have 6 more to go. I plan to have them uploaded to YT by Saturday afternoon. My dog appears in one of the videos so if you have the link, look for him.  I’m working on Labor Day for half a day. Working and creating content is what I’ll be doing this weekend. I hope to make a significant dent when it comes to my course.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

I’m picking it up

I have no idea what’s going on. The end. I’m starting this post on Thursday night and will post it on Friday. I’m scared to type anything because I never know when shit is going to hit the fan.

Today at work sucked. Some of it was my fault. I’ll take the blame for 35%. I can’t help that the system sucks. Not my fault. I won’t take the blame for that. I can only work with what I have. All week wasn’t bad. Sigh. Whatever.

I probably shouldn’t say anything about work. I know one of them is reading. And if one is reading, that means others are reading. Social people. Sigh. All I can say is that I get frustrated when people don’t LISTEN. I never talk. I dunno. It would be nice if when I did say something people would fucking LISTEN.

Okay, I need to forgive. I forgive them or her or whoever. I know they don’t like me, but it doesn’t matter. I forgive them. That’s what I need to do. That’s my part.

I need to focus on the online course I want to create. I have the outline. I started the slides. I still have a lot of work to do if I want it out by the end of September. I’m hoping to get a lot done this weekend. However, I have to record YouTube videos this weekend for my tarot biz. That could take forever. I’m so glad my videos aren’t long.

I’m trying to work for myself, so yes, I have to do this stuff. If I want my tarot biz to succeed, I have to do 12 blog posts a month, record 12 videos and post on Instagram at least 20 days a month. And I have to do as many free tarot readings as I can. My mentor asked, “You are going to continue doing your 12 blog posts for September, right?” All I could think is of how busy I am. I wanted to say I don’t know. But I just said, “yes.”

Speaking of tarot readings, I have not heard back from the company where I applied to be an email reader. I submitted my 500-word tarot reading on Monday night. Have they read it? Did they hate it? Did they laugh? I must admit I sounded like an amateur. That’s because I am! LOL. I look at my readings from a month ago, and I can’t believe I even wrote that crap. I’m growing every day. Practice, practice, practice.

What did I do that was fun this week? I went to the park. I took many pictures of flowers:

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I made 5 flower essences this week. I made rose, lavender, black-eyed susan, sunflower, and dandelion flower essences. I don’t know if I believe they work. I go back and forth with it. They are so easy and fun to make. This all started with my mentor sending me a mix of flower essences. I take it two to 3 times a day. Now it is fun to make my own. I have two flower essences outside under the moon right now. I prefer the sun, so I’m leaving it out overnight and during the day. Who knew something so simple could be so fun? Most people mix theirs with alcohol, but I’m using apple cider vinegar instead.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Aretha Franklin, Lauren Daigle, Christina Aguilera, Ellie Goulding, Demi Lovato, Kelly Clarkson, Britney Spears

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Castle Rock

Movie of the week: To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before I read this book about 2 years ago and hated it. Okay, I didn’t read the whole book. I got to about page 60 before I knew the book wasn’t for me. But the movie was okay. I felt like the movie was a little rushed. It’s very light and fluffy. Not much there. I guess it is for the young folks. 😉

Podcasts of the week: Tarot for the Wild Soul, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Lively Show

Books of the week: Now reading –

Plans for the weekend: Hopefully I’m working overtime. Then I’m working on my own shit. I hope to have some fun too. Not that my crap isn’t fun, but making YouTube videos is not my idea of fun. It’s stressful, and I hate the outcomes. It’s also time-consuming. Should I work on my course so I can have it ready ASAP? Maybe, but I can’t just let my tarot stuff slide. I just started and to slack off on being consistent now?? Not happening.

Oh, weekend plans? I’m also mowing the lawn. This weekend is supposed to be nice. Not too hot. Yay! I will probably make more flower essences. I’m kind of going nuts with the flower thing because the flowers will stop blooming soon. Then I will have to wait for next spring to make more. That’s a long time from now.

Thanks for reading. Have a great weekend! 🙂