If I’m scared, I’ll go in scared

Support for the military isn’t a Republican or Democrat thing. I don’t hear people bashing the military. It bothers me when people make the military political, or they say that support for the police is political. Maybe most people who serve in the military are Republican (not my dad – LOL). Not sure. However, they have family and friends who are NOT Republican. People in America support the military.

I know the police thing is a little divisive. But that ain’t a Republican versus Democrat thing last I checked. Also, don’t spread LIES and say policemen and women die every day. I keep up with it. Yes, their lives are in danger every day. But there isn’t a report of a death every day. 92 law enforcement people have died in the line of duty so far in 2018. Does that sound like DAILY to you? I didn’t think so. Of that 92, 10 were heart attacks, one was accidental and 1 drowned. And some sadly died this year from effects from 9/11. They are in the statistics too.

Stop with the spreading lies BS. People are so damn dramatic when it comes to fighting against something that isn’t a thing. People in law enforcement do not die every day. Americans don’t hate the military. How about that for the truth? Shocking. I know.

/end telling the straight up FACTS.

I need money now. Tarot is a long-term thing. I’m thinking about starting a course on how I passed my certification exams the first time. That’s sort of like passing the bar exam on the first try except it’s not that hard. But people are impressed by that. I passed two exams on the first try. So why not sell a course on it? How YOU can pass the exam on the first try.

I’ll tell you why I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to make the course. *whine* 😉 I like tarot more than what I got my certification in. It would also be a lot of work. But I know I could sell it. I need to come up with a curriculum. I’m not saying for sure I’m doing it. But I will at least do an outline this weekend.

I would probably charge $30 for the course. Cheap, but I’m a newbie. No videos. Just PDFs. No Facebook group. Access to me? Hmmm, maybe for extra money. I don’t want to invest in this AT ALL. That’s part of the problem. I don’t have the latest books. I would probably have to buy those. *double whine* I really have to think about this. Since I’m not working part-time anymore and I’m doing only 3 tarot readings a week, I could do an online course.

I need the money. Yeah, I know I’ve already said this, but I REALLY need it. So I have to do something. I would buy a WordPress site and pay for it monthly so I can cancel at any time. My tarot site is on Squarespace, and I pay annually. WordPress is a little cheaper. I’ve also heard it’s harder to work with, but whatever. I can figure it out.

So I guess thinking about this is what I’ll be doing this weekend. It has to be top notch if I do it. Yeah, it won’t initially be expensive, but I want this to be worth $100. If I were doing videos and/or modules, it would be a $300-$500 course. But it is just going to be a bunch of documents. I can’t charge a ton for that. People like videos and I might consider doing that later on. I would want this course up by the end of September.

I love only doing 3 free tarot readings a week. I just did my 25th tarot reading yesterday and got great feedback on it. I was so nervous about that reading because she wanted to know specifically who she would fall in love with and when. Uh, I’m not psychic. I wish I were. Do you know how much money I could make if I were psychic or a medium? A lot. Anyway, 25 tarot readings done. I’ve learned a lot. I haven’t perfected my skill. I think I need at least 25 more free/practice readings to feel confident about charging people what an email reading is really worth.

Something is very wrong with my left wrist. Is the carpal tunnel back? This doesn’t feel like carpal tunnel. I am going to start wearing my brace again…once I find it. I can barely pick things up with my left hand only.

I was so sick today. I want to thank my essential oils for making it better. And maybe Clarispray helped a little too. 🙂 I used eucalyptus and frankincense. I put A LOT in my diffuser, and I felt better within 30 minutes to an hour. It wasn’t just the Clarispray. The allergy medicine takes 4 hours to work. I hate being “sick” for 4 hours especially when I’m trying to work. Yay, for essential oils.

One more random thing: I ordered crab linguini alfredo from Red Lobster. Um, the pasta was good, but I hated the crab! I’m from Maryland. We like crab! LOL. Next time I’m either getting salmon or tilapia. No more crab in pasta for me. Ugh.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Camilla Cabello, Demi Lovato, Florence + the Machine, The Wailin Jennys, Elephant Revival, Linkin Park, Alessia Cara, Kesha

TV of the week:  Big Brother, I’m a Killer, The Bachelorette

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Why is This Happening?, Generation Why, Joyce Meyer, A Course in Miracles, Castle Rock, Tara Brach, Online Marketing Made Easy

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Um, nothing much. Yeah! No day job work as of right now. I will do two tarot readings this weekend. Like I said above, I will be working on doing an outline for a possible online course. I will work on my astrology course and read. I might mow the lawn. It keeps raining! ARGH. I mowed the side of my yard on Tuesday, and it looks like I didn’t mow it because I mowed it when it was slightly damp. But the grass is always damp because it keeps raining! Sigh. I just need two days in a row with no rain.

UPDATE: I’m now working overtime tomorrow. Um. Yeah, I need the money (for the 25th time). Yay??

PSA: I’m telling everyone about this course (including on my tarot site). I will blog about it here too.

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Whew! Long entry. Thanks for reading! Have a wonderful weekend. 🙂


I’m going to dance all night

Ahh, my vacation from work has been great! It was very much needed. I’m nervous about returning on Monday because they will be tracking what we are doing. Sigh. I’m thinking about taking another week off in November. I want the week of election day off.  I would like to vote without a line, and I have to get my car inspected. If I don’t get a week off, I will ask for 3 days off.

On Wednesday, I did nothing related to work – tarot or day job. Well, I kind of did some Instagram and Facebook stuff at 7 PM. So I did do a little something, but most of the day I spent on my astrology course which was so nice. I’m logging my hours for that self-study course because I might want the certificate. To get a certificate, we have to log all of the hours we spend on the course, take several pictures of the notebook/journal we create, and write a few paragraphs on what we learned. If I get the certificate, I can put that on my tarot/astrology website and say hey, I am serious about astrology. I finished this hard ass course! 😉

I didn’t get a manicure. I just decided to paint my own nails black. I might get one one day. As of this entry, I have recorded and uploaded 8 YouTube videos. Terrifying!  I mention this here because I was only considering getting a manicure due to that. Now I have 4 more videos to go for August. Some of the videos I don’t like, and the other ones are so-so. Whatever. I’m new to this. I have to get something up.

I did get one lovely comment on one of my videos. Thank you!! (I did respond to the person).  I wish YT would email me each time I get a comment because I’m moderating comments. I had no idea anyone left a comment. I just saw it by mistake while looking for something else! Argh. I might stop moderating comments IF I can delete anything extremely negative. I don’t want to keep manually checking for comments. No way. I can’t believe they won’t email me when I get a comment. Isn’t that bizarre? How am I supposed to know? Yes, I have my settings set up so YT can email me. I don’t get it.

I started off doing 5 free tarot readings a week. That was fine for a while. Now I’m down to 4. I’m thinking about going down to 3 a week. I’m not sure. I got a 3-star rating yesterday. I’m 100% sure this was due to a language barrier. I read his request several times, and I never got what he mentioned in his feedback. Sigh. He’s from Nicaragua and English isn’t his first language. (I want to move to Nicaragua. I guess I won’t be moving in with him because he gave me 3 stars. LOL). I think doing 3 a week is good for practice. Some people don’t seem to get that this is a free service. Whatevs.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention I got great feedback on one reading. She wants to maybe work together again in the future. But I’m not sure I can give her my website. I have to see if that is against the rules. I don’t want to get banned.

I stopped therapy. She wasn’t for me. I’m never going to therapy for social anxiety again. I have other issues that are more important. Yet, all they want to focus on is that. NEVER AGAIN. If I feel like I really need therapy, I will not mention anything about anxiety. Besides, I feel like my social anxiety is better these days. Or is it just different? I still can’t talk to 95% of my family. However, I can talk to “strangers” on Skype. I can also talk a little when we have work meetings. I’m uploading YouTube videos. Etc. etc.  I still can’t say hi to strangers unless they speak to me first. So I guess I do still have SA, I just don’t think it is my main problem.

YAY, the Pope came out against the death penalty in ALL cases. Um, not that that will solve the issue in the near future. He doesn’t have that much power.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): First Aid Kit, Kacey Musgraves, La’Porsha Renae, Pink, Janelle Monae, Taylor Swift, Kelly Clarkson, Linkin Park

Best news ever: Robyn has a new album coming out! Finally. I love the first single, but I’ve only listened to it a couple of times.

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Castle Rock

Castle Rock is good. It’s very Stephen King. Obvs. I love him. My top two favorite fiction books are Stephen King books: The Long Walk and Salem’s Lot.

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Why is This Happening?,  Tarot Bytes, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lively Show,

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again and preparing to go back to work. I have two tarot readings to do.  I have to finish up recording my YouTube videos. I’m glad the videos are under 2 minutes long. If they were longer, it would take me forever to record them. I record each video about 3 times and then pick the best take. I hope I can spend some time on my astrology course this weekend.

I have to go to the library today. I also have my 5th meeting with my mentor this afternoon. We have a lot to cover in only 90 minutes. I’m going to miss talking to her when our 12 sessions are over. 😦 Maybe we can be friends. I’ll see. But it won’t be the same. We won’t be on Skype and talking. It won’t be that kind of friendship. LOL. I’m already missing her and it’s not over yet.

Have a great weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

Rather be broken than empty


1 day until my week-long vacation from work

Really today is my last day before my vacay. I’m only working 2-3 hours of overtime tomorrow.

I don’t know where to begin. How about some TMI? My period only lasted for two freaking days. If that! OMG. Hallelujah. Birth control rocks. Yes, I gained weight, but I’m happier with a shorter period. It would be great if it just disappeared. I have hopes that will happen one day soon. Depo Provera didn’t work. In fact, it was a nightmare. But what I’m on now (Blisovi-Fe) works wonders. It also clears up acne. That’s not my top concern though. I just want my period to be gone because I hate it.

Work is impossible. I mean it. Yeah, I’m off next week which is kind of great. But kind of not because they might go over stuff to help us. “Us” being the people that just got out of training. I am calling into two work meetings next week. The meetings are only an hour each so no big deal. I don’t like that they are at 8AM, but I can rarely sleep in. I’m used to getting up at 4:50 AM. Sleeping in for me is 6 AM.

Anyway, I barely got anything done today. All I had were questions. I got a lot of answers which was helpful, but I didn’t get much actual work done. When I get back to work on August 6, I am expected to be productive. They will be watching what we do. Closely. I’m trying not to worry about it.

My staycation plan might be kind of messed up. It is supposed to rain every single day. Boo. Not a huge deal. As long as it isn’t heavy rain all day. I don’t mind going to the local park when it is just drizzling. In fact, it is really nice when it’s a little rainy because no one else is there. Speaking of the park, I went today after work (rare for a Friday). I barely saw anyone. It was very nice. My dog only went nuts when we saw the one dog. So embarrassing. Ick.

Back to my staycation plans:

Monday: doctor, manicure (!!),  tarot readings, recording YouTube videos, mentor meeting

Tuesday: visit the river with my dog, tarot readings, YT videos, catch up on training material for my day job

Wednesday: NO WORK ALLOWED. NO tarot. NO day job. Catch up on reading, local park, working through Benebell Wen’s astrology course, sleep!

Thursday: YT videos (if not done), miscellaneous tarot stuff, local park

Friday: miscellaneous tarot stuff, astrology course,

Yep, I’m thinking about getting a manicure. I have NEVER gotten one before. I don’t wear makeup. I wear fingernail polish once a year. But for my YouTube videos, I will be holding up Tarot cards so I want my nails done.  That is the only reason why I’m doing it. It will not be a normal thing. After this, I will paint my own nails. I just thought getting a manicure would be nice. What color will I get? I’m thinking purple or black. I’m going to try to get a gel polish manicure on my natural nails. The place I want to go to is near my house, and I have to call them tomorrow to find out whether an appointment is necessary. I hope not. I just want to go right after I’m done at the doctor.

My schedule is not set in stone. As you can see, I barely have much going on. I mostly want to focus on Tarot and leisure reading since I barely have time for that when I’m working my day job. And weather permitting, I would like to go to a park every day.

One more thing: I do consider Tarot work because it is. But I enjoy it. It is only considered “work” because it takes up a lot of time.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Christina Aguilera, Sugarland, Demi Lovato, Ellie Goulding, Janelle Monae, Ariana Grande, Britney Spears, Paula Cole

TV of the week:  Big Brother, The Bachelorette, The Bold Type

I take back what I said about The Bold Type last week. The show isn’t horrible. However, it does remind me that I’m definitely not a lesbian. That’s for sure. 😉 I’m asexual. 100%

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Fresh Air, Online Marketing Made Easy, Generation Why

Books of the week: Now reading:

Hope to get a ton of reading done this week. That’s what vacations are for!

Plans for the weekend: I’m working for a few hours on Saturday. I’m going grocery shopping on Sunday. I have tarot readings to do. Not much exciting stuff going on. I’m more excited about my weekdays than my weekend.

My overall goal is to make the most of the next week. I want to have extended dance parties and maybe sleep more, but I also want to get a lot of tarot stuff done. Now is the time.

Have a magnificent weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Gotta be wrong before it’s right


8 days before my week-long vacation

UPDATE: Yes, I have an update at the beginning of this entry. This blog post bothers me because it is so negative. Talking about jealousy is negative. I’m going to come right out and say where the following entry comes from. It comes from work. A couple of people want to talk about jealousy at a meeting when we are STRESSED the hell out. Hello? Why jealousy? What does that have to do with work? 90% of us work from home. I don’t think jealousy is bothering us as much as stress. It’s not bothering me at all.  I know others are stressed out. This job is no joke. Sigh. I just wanted to explain this overly negative entry because it kind of has been bugging me. Not that I’m Positive Polly, but…still.

Okay, here’s the entry with no edits:

When I hear people talk about others being jealous of them, my first thought is “Who the fuck are they?”  Then I think the person is paranoid. Yep, that’s my second thought. Why do people think people are jealous of them? I ask once again; WHO THE FUCK IS SHE? Yes, in this case, I can use the pronoun she because I’m talking about a paranoid group of women. I cannot mention how I know about this group. Even though it is pretty obvious.

I don’t assume people are jealous of me and I’m not jealous of other people because I know other people have problems too. I know a LOT of people don’t like me. Are they jealous? I would hope not! LOL. That would be so sad.

If someone doesn’t like a person, it may be his or her attitude they don’t like. Or maybe the person doesn’t hate that person at all. Stop making assumptions! I know a lot of people think I don’t like them when that could be the furthermost thing from the truth. First, I’m not thinking about them. Second, I think ALL people suck. People just fucking suck. Okay? I would love to live on a private island. So if a person takes that personally, that’s on THEM.

There was one woman I was jealous of years ago. She worked from home. She didn’t have kids (at that time – not sure about now). She had the life, IMO. 3 years after she started working from home, I started working from home. I honestly believe all my jealousy manifested me from working from home. So jealously does have some benefits even though it can be hateful or ugly.

But now I know better. I’m not saying I never get jealous of situations. When I see a nice, big bathroom, I drool. I want that. One day, I will have that. I’m not jealous of people making more money than me because my mental health is more important than money. I’m not money hungry. At all. I would rather have peace of mind. If the person has both, then good for them.

The people at work that make more money than me? You know what they have? MORE STRESS. Um, my job is stressful enough already. I don’t need that. They work more hours than me (and sometimes I work a LOT). They don’t get lunch on most days. Etc. I would rather have my life than theirs.

Thanks to the specific people I won’t mention who think people are jealous of them. You gave me something to go off on. I haven’t done that in a while. 😉 Oh, and if Kylie Jenner or Gabrielle Bernstein thinks someone is jealous of them, it’s probably true. Famous people are in a different camp. For the record, I have never heard Gabby say people are jealous of her because she has a different mindset. That is the kind of person I want to be. Not a person who goes around assuming people are jealous of them. WTF?

Also, people who are so focused on people being jealous of them…I should probably be jealous of them because that’s their main problem? Cry me a river.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Carrie Underwood, Beyonce, Florence + The Machine, Janelle Monae, Joss Stone, Demi Lovato, Alessia Cara

TV of the week:  Big Brother, The Bachelorette, The Bold Type

The Bold Type is not a great show. I don’t know why I’m watching it. I guess I’m trying to see why others like it? Do people like it? I have no idea. It’s still on TV. I’m watching the first season.

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: So You Wanna Be a Witch, Over It and On With It, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, True Crime Garage, Unsolved Murders

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: I’m not going anywhere! I hope no one asks me to take them to the store. I’m exhausted! This has been the longest week ever. I got up at 4:50 AM and got off at 4:30 3 days this week. TIRED. I’m so done. But I won’t be working like this next week. YAY! I will be doing some overtime, but it won’t be that bad.  Next week is my last week before my week long’s vacation. Woohoo! It’s going to be a staycation.

I might take my dog to the park on Sunday. He kind of deserves it. We only went to the park on Thursday of this week.

I have at least one free tarot reading to do. I will probably get 2 more to do this weekend. So far I’ve been getting 5 stars since I started telling people which cards I pulled so thanks for the feedback Ms. 3 stars. LOL. This afternoon I have a meeting with my mentor. I hope we can discuss money. I need to talk about finances. I also want to explain to her that I’m not expecting to make any major money in the first 5 years. Maybe I can quit my full-time job in 7 years? Hmmm. #goals

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Is it just part of the process?


17 days until I’m off from work for a full week

I’ve been working 24/7. I finally have at least 10 minutes to catch my breath. It’s my fault. I need to be more structured when it comes to the tarot biz. However, I only have a mentor for 3 months so I’m trying to get in as much as I can while she’s around. I go from working my day job to working the tarot. I can’t wait to be off from work for a week, but that time will probably be 95% tarot and 5% doctor appointments. It would be nice just to have one day off of not doing any work. I’m going to try to do that. As of right now, I’m going with the Wednesday of that week.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

We started working on the new system at work. So far, I am really slow at it. It took me 5+ years to really get used to the old system and now, they change it. I hope it doesn’t take me too long to get used to the new system. We started training in March. I have forgotten so much. I have to look up almost every single thing. That is why I’m so slow.

Enough about that work. Now let’s talk about tarot work. I joined a tarot community that assigns people free email readings to do. How awesome. There are drawbacks, of course. But the best thing is that I don’t have to ask people do they want a free reading. I was shocked I got picked. I thought they would never pick me, but I got a free reading request the first night I signed up! The question is pretty detailed. She wants a little of everything covered. Uh, I don’t usually do that in readings. I might talk it over with my mentor tomorrow. But how much can I tell her? I don’t want to cross any boundaries.

(UPDATE: I just got a request for another free reading. Ummmm, I haven’t even done the first one yet. I’m grateful for the opportunity. But I’m shaking at the same time. This one is 100% relationship based. Oh dear.)

UPDATE pt 2: I now have 4 readings to do. There goes working on my intro video.

Another good thing is the feedback. On Facebook, I didn’t always get feedback. Now I get feedback PLUS I get rated from 1 star to 5 stars. LOL. Oh, God. This could really suck! I’m doing the reading on Saturday. I’m anxious about it. Please give me at least 4 stars!

FUCK MY THERAPIST! Okay, this time we actually had a decent session. She even took notes!! But she didn’t know I don’t have any friends. How many times do I have to say it? This time she typed it into her notes, so I think she got it. Why fuck my therapist? Because she wants me to talk to my dad. NOT HAPPENING!!!1111!!!!!

Should I lie? Nah. Should I tell her I just didn’t want to do it? I will probably do something like that. After I told her he lives mostly in {insert country name}, she asked whether he spoke English. ROFL. Uh, yes. Very well.  He was born in Maryland and lived most of his life here. Anyway, my appointment is on Tuesday, right after work. I might see my dad on Sunday. But I’m not saying a thing besides “hi.”

Oh, and the main reason I don’t talk to my dad is social anxiety. Simple as that. I admire my dad. He is a Vietnam Vet. He is smart. I don’t agree with him when it comes to everything. For example, he doesn’t think the football players should kneel. FYI, not all veterans agree with him. Some think they fought for the right of the football players to have freedom of speech. What a novel concept! So there’s that. I think the whole thing is stupid. Stop playing the National Anthem at football games. Whatevs. I don’t watch football anymore because it kills people. Not because of some kneeling BS.

(Not that the football players are kneeling for BS. Just wanted to state I know they are kneeling for important stuff they believe in. I think the “controversy” is BS).

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Dave Matthews Band, James Bay, Janelle Monae, Florence + the Machine, Sugarland, Demi Lovato, Amy Winehouse, Hailee Steinfield

TV of the week:  Big Brother, The Handmaid’s Tale, The Bachelorette (judge away)

I watched The Bachelorette because they visited my hometown. It’s so sad that I’ve only been to one of the places they visited. It’s not like they went to touristy places. They just went to everyday places. I’ve wanted to go to one of the places they visited for the longest time. I just keep going to the same places. Anyway, I like Becca (the bachelorette), so I’m going to keep watching until the end of this season. I’ve never watched the show before, but I know the concept. I don’t watch it live, so I hope no one spoils the ending. I have to stay off social media… especially Twitter.

Oh and one of the guys called where I live “country”. Okay, Mr. Elitist or should I just call him ignorant? I’m sure tons of people living in the city were laughing at that. The country is at least an hour away from here, dude. Thanks for stopping by. I love the country, btw. I’m trying to move there. I want to own a house there. It’s just so far out. I don’t want to spend a ton on gas just to get places, but it’s probably worth it.

Movie of the week: I watched two comedy specials last week. I can’t believe I’m watching comedy like I used to back in the day. So weird. I watched Kamau Bell’s latest (soo good!) and Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette. I enjoyed both. Nanette was more serious and so necessary. If you want serious comedy, watch that. If you want to laugh at the ridiculousness, this country has become watch Kamau’s special. Can’t go wrong with either option. Should I watch David Chappelle next? I probably won’t because I haven’t heard great things about any of his recent specials.

Podcasts of the week: Fresh Air, Online Marketing Made Easy, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, The Mind Your Business Podcast, True Crime Garage, Unsolved Murders, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Tarot, tarot, tarot. What else is there to do? I’m working OT on Saturday. I also have to do that free reading. I hope I do a good job. On Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping.

I also want to record another video for my tarot website. I’m not sure I’m going to get it done this weekend, but I want to try. This one I want to be more professional. I’m going to attempt to use iMovie for the first time ever! Ugh, this might take some time. There goes my weekend! I hope I can make it good. Oh, and I also started a biz Twitter account. I’m not sure how long I’m staying on there. I don’t like having two Twitter accounts. One for fake business shit and one for real stuff I care about. It doesn’t sit right with me. I feel like I’m fake on the biz Twitter because I probably won’t tweet anything bad about Trump or politics at all. I do follow NPR on that account though. LOL.

Anyway, I’m glad I made time to do this entry because I don’t want this blog to die just yet. Thanks for stopping by. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Have I ever made a sound?

My website is going okay. I haven’t been changing things daily anymore. D barely visited.  I didn’t expect her to go there at all. She’s self-centered and doesn’t give a shit about something that isn’t her thing.  Yes, I am judging her for only looking at my “about me” page. LOL. She’s the person I judge the most. Since I started ACIM and Gabby Bernstein’s course/book, I’ve been good at not wanting to judge people in general, but her…I have a hard time not judging her.

H didn’t visit at all. I think it is because she doesn’t get the Tarot which is fine. She’s a Christian, and she might think the tarot is wrong so I can’t be mad at that, right? Even though I know the tarot is not fortune telling, others don’t necessarily know that. She believes it’s not okay to have a Jehovah Witness Bible in your house!  (Sorry I don’t know the correct term for that particular Bible. I do have that Bible in my house).

That’s why I haven’t told my dad about my tarot biz. If he searched a ton on Facebook, he could probably find it. But I don’t think he even knows that I have a website. I just have a feeling he wouldn’t get it. Plus, he’s a Christian too. I know not all Christians are against the tarot. In fact, some tarot readers are Christian.

I started my biz YouTube channel!! I just uploaded a video for Facebook and YouTube. If you have my website address, you can find the link to the video there. I just wish I could add the video to Instagram stories. 😦 But I think it’s too long. It’s 34 seconds. Argh. I don’t want to do the new Insta thing they have, so that sucks. Boo!  I had decent hair (lol), perfect lighting and I’m not doing it again. With me, the first time is almost always best. I just get worse over time. Always go with the first try even if it’s not perfect. That’s my unsolicited advice. Btw, this is coming from a semi-perfectionist. I’m trying to be freer as in who gives a fuck? Upload the damn video.

P.S. I turned off the comments and likes for my intro video because it is just an intro. When I start doing career readings on YT, then I’ll leave the comments on because people like to engage, and sometimes they leave mean comments.

I don’t think I’m doing Twitter. I LOVE twitter for my news. It is probably my main source of news these days. But I don’t like some things about it. Hmmm. I might join later. I dunno. I might snag the name just to have it for the future. Doing Instagram kind of sucks with a crappy camera. But I already started. I have followers, and I’m not stopping. Now I have to engage with others. HOW SCARY IS THAT? At least, that is what my mentor told me. LOL. I’ll start tomorrow by either leaving comments or participate in a tarot challenge.

I just got off Zoom with my tarot mentor. We had a 90-minute meeting. It went well. She is trying to force me to get out of my cocoon. Of course, I need to do that.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Janelle Monae, Lykke Li, Kelly Clarkson, Florence + the Machine, Linkin Park, Camilla Cabello, Justin Timberlake

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Wimbledon

Movie of the week: Not really a movie, but I started watching a comedy special – Nanette.  I used to love comedy when I was young and naive. Now I hate comedy that makes fun of people. I refuse to watch it. I don’t think it’s funny to make fun of people. Yes, I’m standing on my soapbox. Anyway, Nanette is nothing like that. I love it so far. I’ll blog more about it when I’m done. She’s gay, so I’ll probably have a lot to say. 😉 Sorry if that is wrong to say. Not. Haha.

Podcasts of the week: New Books in Gender Studies, But That’s Another Story, The Russillo Show, The Lowe Post, Unsolved Murders,

Books of the week: Now reading:

Leaving off all the tarot and astrology books unless I get something new because I’m constantly going back to them.

Plans for the weekend: Nothing much. YAY! I’m working 3 or 4 hours on Saturday. Then on Sunday, I will probably do two free tarot card readings. I have to go to the library on Sunday to return two books (one on tarot and one on astrology). They won’t let me renew them anymore. 😦 I’m also going to take my dog to the park on Sunday. We haven’t been since Monday. Long story.

So when I say I’m doing “nothing much” what I mean is that I’m working on tarot, tarot, tarot all weekend. So glad I recorded the video tonight even though it wasn’t perfect, so I don’t have to worry about that.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂


I really want some comfort

Yay for Ben Jealous winning the Maryland primary for governor! And good for Oscario-Cortez for winning her primary. I hope they win in November. The good news ends there. 😉 I have to blog about Kennedy retiring. I already tweeted what I thought. Okay, maybe it’s not the end of the world. Maybe. I’m mostly concerned about the death penalty and gay rights.  I know most people are concerned with Roe v. Wade. Of course, other things will come up. Oh well. The people voted OR they didn’t vote, and they get what they deserve. Ouch, that’s harsh!

Yeah, most people voted for Hillary, but whatevs. Who cares about the popular vote? Who cares about voting at all? We should make it impossible for people to vote. Wait, are people already trying to do that? Gotta love America. Don’t forget there was no difference between Trump and Hillary.

/end political rant

Ugh. I shouldn’t be bitching about my “friend”. She’s a Facebook “friend”. We don’t know each other AT ALL. Anyway, she is addicted to online tarot readings.  Um, that would be great if she were paying people, but she is getting a bunch of free readings to help with a decision. I told her I would do one for her tomorrow because today has been really busy. I had a therapy appointment and an appointment with my tarot mentor. Plus, I have this thing called work.

Yeah, I feel kind of used (KIND OF??!) because she isn’t just getting free readings from me. She is getting them from a couple of other people too. I would recommend she learn Tarot for herself because it can be so helpful, but her life is hectic right now. It is NOT the time to recommend that. Not that I don’t still get readings from others. I always think someone may be more intuitive than me.

WOW. I just got off Zoom (just like Skype) with my tarot mentor. She is fucking fantastic! She is my role model. Can I be her? The conversation didn’t flow 100% perfectly because I’m me. But she was wonderful. That has to be the best money I have ever spent in my life. Her services are not cheap.

She’s going to email me the 90-minute video recording tomorrow. I can’t wait. If I had taken notes, it would have been pages and pages. I hope she wasn’t offended that I wasn’t taking a ton of notes. I knew she was going to send the recording to me and I am planning on taking notes on everything then.

We got through a lot for our first meeting. Thankfully I wrote down things I wanted to discuss ahead of time. One thing that scares me is that she says I can email her anytime during the 12 weeks. Um, I hate being a bother. I know I’m paying her, but I don’t like emailing people. I have to get over that if I want this to work better.

The only “bad” thing she mentioned is that I should start posting on my business Instagram. UGH. Double UGH. The thing is that I know next to nothing about advertising on Instagram. All I have on my business Instagram is a link to my biz site. LOL. I hope this doesn’t take all weekend. I had my weekend planned out…I guess things have changed. This is probably a good thing. I don’t know why I’m complaining. I just don’t have a lot of time to play around with Insta. I’m not that familiar with it. I just kind of know how to post pics. I’ll figure it out.

But YAY for the mentor meeting going great!!! I almost said her name by mistake. Eventually, her name will be on my biz website. She will be listed as my mentor when we are done. Oh, she also says I write so well. I can laugh, but you can’t. 😉 Wait until she sees my blog on my tarot website. That isn’t written so well. I’m struggling over there.

I’ll have more to say about therapy later. It’s not going great. :/

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Demi Lovato, Alanis Morissette, Halsey, Janelle Monae, Florence + The Machine, Christina Aguilera, Kacey Musgraves, The Bird and the Bee

TV of the week:  This is Us, Big Brother

What a tear jerker the second season of This is Us is. I find myself crying whenever someone faces racism on the show…especailly the young kids. Maybe I have some issues there. Big Brother is okay so far. Loved the first show, wasn’t crazy about the second night. I like Sam. Unfortunately, the rest of the house doesn’t love her so she might not last. 😦

Movie of the week: none.

Podcasts of the week: Missing  & Murdered: Finding Cleo, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, The Lowe Post, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: I finished reading What the Truth Sounds Like: Robert. F Kennedy, James Baldwin, and Our Unfinished Conversation About Race in America by Michael Eric Dyson. Good book. Started off great with the history lesson. But I thought he talked about Cornel West too much. Maybe that’s my bias because I don’t care about the Dyson/West beef. Let it go.

Now reading (too many books to mention, but I will list a few) –

Plans for the weekend: Working, working, and other shit I don’t really want to do. LOL. On Saturday, I’m working 5 hours of OT, paying bills, cooking for the week, doing my July budget, and I will probably work on learning the tarot through notecards. Oh, I already forgot that I have to do that reading for my Facebook “friend.”  It’ll take less than an hour because she has already taken up a lot of my time. I don’t usually call people vampires (okay, I NEVER do), but she’s draining me. I hope she resolves whatever is going on, so I don’t have to deal with her constantly asking for free readings.

On Sunday, I’m taking my dog to the park first thing in the morning; then I’m taking my dad grocery shopping. I might offer to do 1 or 2 free readings. I feel like the weekends are the only time I have to practice. When I’m off the week of July 30th, I may do a lot of free readings, or I may redo my website. Who knows where things will be then?

Those are my exciting weekend plans. It’s going to be so hot this weekend. I have this small patch of lawn I haven’t mowed yet. It would only take 20 minutes or less, but it’s too damn hot. It doesn’t look like it will cool off. I’m probably going to mow it Monday during my lunch break.

Have a great weekend. Thanks so much for reading! Stay cool. 🙂