Virgin for life

I just signed up for a Sarah Jenks program. She knows a lot about the history of Christianity. That’s not what she is all about. I just have to give her backstory because I can’t find a source for what she said. Sarah said the word virgin meant a woman unto herself. An independent woman. I can relate. 😉 Of course, in recent times, people paint virginity as bad because they are insecure about their own sexuality.

Why can’t I be a virgin and someone else be comfortable with their sexuality? I think we can do both. With women claiming their sexuality or whatever they call it, being a virgin is definitely wrong and weird. I can show the words of so-called enlightened people telling people they need to get laid.  Yeah, these people claimed to be enlightened. In the words of Donald Trump, “sad”!

Anyway, it is so delightful to have someone say something nice about virginity! Even if it was thousands of years ago.  I guess some people don’t think an independent woman or a woman unto herself is good, but I take it as a compliment.

I don’t advertise my virginity in this blog because it isn’t important to me. I rarely think about it unless I’m trying to get out of a pap smear. Lol. But yes it’s true: I’m a virgin, and I never plan on having sex. I’m pretty sure I’m not missing anything. Sex seems like a hassle to me, but I think that about a lot of things people do.

I don’t think I’m staying in Sarah Jenks’ program. I’ve been an admirer of Sarah for years, but this content seems to be geared towards moms. Sarah is a mom of two with one on the way! So it makes sense. It just isn’t my life. I can’t relate to losing oneself by becoming a mom and all that.  I’ll probably cancel next month. I just wanted the $200 worth of free bonuses. Sad, but true. And I love the bonuses! Totally worth it.

I don’t think I would ever fly with my dog. I guess if I were moving to California or somewhere on the west coast, I would have to drive. I don’t know what I would do if I were moving overseas. I felt this way prior to the recent dog’s death on United. How tragic.  I would be outraged if it weren’t too sad to think about. And then there’s the dog United recently sent to Japan by mistake. I would be out of my mind if my dog were in Japan. I would be at the airport, waiting for my dog. I don’t care if they said it will take 3 days. I would be sleeping at the damn airport until my dog came back.

Don’t mess with my pup!

With all that being said, I would still fly United…just not with a pet. I flew United to LA and I didn’t have any major problems. Compared to Vegas, the LA trip was a breeze.

OMG. My lawnmower started immediately! I don’t know what happened last year. It took almost an hour for it to start after last winter. YAY! I will probably have to mow the lawn in about 2 to 3 weeks. Slight bummer, but it is great exercise.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Camila Cabello, Shakira, Kacey Musgraves, Delta Goodrem, Ellie Goulding, Justin Timberlake, Kesha, Taylor Swift

TV of the week: My 600lb life, basketball, RHONYC

So much fun watching March Madness! It is the most wonderful time of the year. Go UVA!! I usually take Thursday and Friday off from work, but I couldn’t this year due to training and other people requested time off before I had the chance. I think this is the first year in about 7 years, I don’t have time off for March Madness. :/

P.S. I do have my birthday off, BUT I will probably have a training related meeting that day. The meetings usually last 2-3 hours so I will have to attend that if there is one. But no work for me otherwise. yay!

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, The Lowe Post, All in With Chris Hayes

Books of the week: I finished reading Bliss More: How to Succeed in Meditation Without Really Trying by Light Watkins. 4 stars for me, but I would say 5 stars to get new meditators to read it. 😉 I’ve been meditating for more than a year now (off and on – mostly on). A lot of the info in the book wasn’t that useful to me because I already knew it or I already do it. But I would definitely recommend it to people who want to start a meditation practice or to people who quit meditation because they grew frustrated.

This book did get me meditating for 10 minutes every morning. I used to only meditate for 5 minutes every morning. I also started meditating first thing in the morning which seems obvious. I used to pray first and then meditate. Now I need to meditate for 10 minutes every afternoon/evening. That would give me 20 minutes a day of meditation, and that is all I feel I need.

Now reading –

I may start The Woman in the Window by AJ Finn this weekend. I’ve been dying to start this book for the past 2 months but holds from the library keep coming in. The books I own always get read last.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book (coming Sunday)

Plans for the Weekend: On Saturday, I’m working a few hours and then I’m going grocery shopping. On Sunday, I’m staying in and taking another test. I made a 92 on my last test. That was a shock. I didn’t even read the whole chapter. Next Sunday I will probably go to my last cycling class. My Groupon will be done after that.

Thanks for reading! Have a splendid weekend. 🙂


Never known love

I love my Mac so far. I don’t understand the bad reviews of the Air. I know Apple hasn’t updated it in a while. But I love the sound, the screen quality (gasp), how fast it is, the battery life, etc. This isn’t an Air thing, but I love how I don’t have to unzip files with a program anymore. That is the best thing about Macs so far. Okay, maybe not the best thing because I’m new to Macs, but I love it.

I had to fix the trackpad settings because I hated how it came. OMG, it was the worst. It took me a day to figure out how to change it. Other than that, the Mac and I are getting along just fine. Well, I still don’t know how to do everything. I think I have duplicates of a few things because I’m not sure how files work on the Mac. Oh yeah, the camera on the Air is horrible. I’m glad I never use FaceTime. The camera on my PC is much better, but I knew that going in.

My HP is still my main computer. I did transfer most of my files to my MacBook. I did it with an external drive, and it didn’t take long at all. I’m going to take my test on my Mac on Sunday morning. I’m using Safari for now because I like it. I probably will eventually download Chrome.

Don’t tell anyone this but I already used iTunes! I listened to a Marianne Williamson talk with it. Please keep this a secret. I wouldn’t want anyone to know I might like iTunes. 😉 However, I’m 95% sure I’m going to use Spotify to listen to music most of the time. That is what I do on my HP.

I’ve been recently judging my mom so bad. I need to do Gabby Bernstein’s Judgment Detox again. I feel so horrible when I think bad things about her…sometimes. But other times, I feel justified. I’ve been listening to Marianne Williamson, and sometimes I see the innocence in my mom. How do you forgive someone when they keep doing the same ‘bad’ things?

I can easily forgive someone who does something once. But I don’t know how to forgive things like excessively lying. I wish I just didn’t care about things like lying, but honesty is one of my core values. Don’t get me wrong. If I’m in trouble, my first thought is can I lie to get out of this? LOL. But I don’t usually lie because I suck at it. I’m not saying I NEVER lie.

At the end of the day, I’m not perfect. I can’t judge anyone. And I know from studying A Course In Miracles and my own life experiences that our bad behavior isn’t really us. When I act out, it is usually because I’m scared or feel inferior. I wish other people wouldn’t judge me for that, but of course, they do!

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Kacey Musgraves, Ed Sheeran, Lea Michele, Janelle Monae, Shania Twain, Delta Goodrem, Britney Spears, Kesha

TV of the week: Alias Grace, My 600lb life, basketball, RHONYC

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Sooo Many White Men, All In With Chris Hayes, What Should I Read Next?, Fresh Air

Books of the week: I finished reading All-American Murder: The Rise and Fall of Aaron Hernandez, the Superstar Whose Life Ended on Murderers’ Row by James Patterson and Alex A. 4 stars. I enjoyed this book. I read Amazon reviews after I finished reading the book to see why it was rated kind of lower than I expected and people pointed out that all this info has been released before. I agree, BUT I don’t have a good memory. I found the book a great refresher. I like that everything I ever wanted to know about Aaron Hernandez is all in one place.

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: Not much. YAY! I’m going to my mom’s house on Saturday. She really wants to see my new computer, and my dog wants to go too. 😉 On Sunday, I’m going to finally take my test. I need to finish this course. I think I have 3 more tests after this weekend.

Next week I have 6 hours off..on two separate days. On Monday, I have 2 hours off to go to the doctor (psychiatrist to get new prescriptions). And then on Tuesday, I have 4 hours off for no real reason. We aren’t supposed to have training that day, so I’m boycotting work. Lol. I’m going to try to start my lawn mower that day. It took me about 45 minutes to start it last Spring. I’m really nervous about it. The mower sounds like it is on its last legs. 😦 It’s not only about buying a new mower, even though I don’t want to. It’s about how do I get a mower to my house? And then I would have to pay someone from Craigslist to put it together for me like I did a few years ago. Sigh. Please work!

Thanks for reading! Have a wonderful weekend. 🙂

Someday I’ll be born

I don’t know whether the people at work are playing games or not. The good news is that it looks like I’m NOT working on Saturday. Can I get an Amen? I can finally take the test for my class this weekend because I’m not going anywhere on Sunday. Hallelujah! Shouldn’t this be in the ‘Plans for the weekend’ section? Lol, I’m just so excited after the craziness of last week and weekend.

UPDATE: *^%$. It now looks like I am working on Saturday. I’ll be helping out another department.  And you wonder why I think someone at work is reading this blog. Hmmmm.

We had a three-day break from training, and I didn’t really enjoy it. I miss being in training every day. No one told us we would have breaks. I’m sure I will wish for a break when we are in training daily in April through June. That test!! OMG. I needed an 85 to pass. I made an 88. I barely made it. That ish was hard. I don’t know how I passed. I could only get 5 answers wrong. I straight up guessed on two questions.

I never did an update on my carpal tunnel syndrome. Well, what people said on the internet about wearing a brace is true. The articles said that wearing a brace can “cure” CTS. I didn’t believe that because I was in so much pain. I didn’t believe something so simple could “cure” it.  I don’t even have to wear my brace every day. Sometimes I even skip a week of wearing it, but that’s probably not wise. Sometimes I  feel pain, and I know I need to wear my brace that day. And I got my braces from Amazon. No custom-made braces and it still worked.

I put cure in quotes because as far as I know, I still have CTS. The brace just helps. I’m pretty sure it’s not a cure. If I went two weeks without a brace, the pain would be back.

I did something nuts. What else is new? I told my mom that I wouldn’t be available from June 15 – June 17, but I didn’t explain why. I’m sure she is going to ask why eventually. Sigh. In case you don’t know, those are the dates of my getaway from DC. Btw, I incorrectly assumed the tiny house/cabin would be in Northern VA. Nah, it is near Shenandoah National Park. It should be really nice. YAY for getaways. 🙂 I’m so cheesy.

I forgot to mention how the work meeting went. I didn’t have to talk! This probably won’t last forever. Everyone else had so many complaints about training, I didn’t have to contribute.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ellie Goulding, Rachel Platten, Justin Timberlake, Mariah Carey, Ella Henderson, Broods, Brandi Carlile, Kesha

I’m in love with the new Ellie Goulding single. I don’t know how anyone can hate this song:

TV of the week: Alias Grace, My 600lb life, basketball

Movie of the week: none

STOP THE MOTHERFUCKING PRESS! How did I not know that my favorite man, Michael B. Jordan is going to be in a movie based on one of my favorite books of all time? Too bad it is on HBO. I’m sure I will be able to watch it eventually. Here is a part of the trailer for Fahrenheit 451.

I’ve loved Michael B. Jordan since I went to the theater to see him in Fruitvale Station. I don’t go to the movies anymore. That’s another entry for another day. Very excited to see this movie in the comfort of my home…one day. I’ll probably get an HBO free trial when the movie comes out.

Podcasts of the week: Joyce Meyer, Fresh Air, The Kate & Mike Show, Pop Shop

Books of the week: Now reading –

I’ve decided I’m going to only read books I’m passionate about for the rest of the year. So there will probably be more 5 star books than usual. I’ve stopped reading so many books these past couple of weeks because I wasn’t captivated. I want passion!!

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: Just chilling. Not really. I wish. I’m going grocery shopping on Saturday if I don’t have to work. It should be a quick trip because I don’t have a lot to get. Then wait for it…I’m going to stay home all day Sunday. I will probably take my test for my course because I’ve been MIA. I don’t want to hear from my instructor. I think she’s given up on me. I’m cool with that.

I hope the Nor’easter won’t hit us too hard. It is supposed to be very windy. But we aren’t getting snow or rain. I already picked my trash can and some trash off the ground due to winds. As long as my house and car are okay, I’m fine.

I’m hoping to stay in all next weekend. I don’t care if I have to work as long as I don’t have to leave my house, I’ll be happy.

Thanks for reading. I really appreciate ya for checking in! Have a great weekend. 🙂

I am an uphill battle


112 days until our (my dog and I) Escape from DC weekend getaway

The Dems really need to stop acting like they care so much about gun control. They had a chance to do something about it in 2009, and they did nothing. They had the 60 votes to pass something. Stop pretending. I’m not buying it. I just got a text from the DNC about supporting their gun crap. Please.

I think I may be going through Abilify withdrawal. 😦 I’m more nauseous than usual. And I have a headache, but I don’t know if it is due to training or the lack of Abilify. Right now I’m only skipping two days between doses. Will I ever be able to stop taking Abilify? Or will I have to deal with being sick? I just hope I don’t get depressed. That’s the most important thing.

Ugh. The nausea and headache definitely have nothing to do with training and everything to do with Abilify. I’m convinced of it now.  I might go back to taking the Abilify every other day. That’s how much I hate feeling nauseous. I just can’t deal with the withdrawal. This really sucks. I wish there were something to take for nausea (another med!), but nothing OTC is strong enough.

This week has been so busy and just nuts. I’m never working this much overtime again. The training is really hard. I’ve only completed one week of training. Well, I’m a day behind right now. I’m glad some of this training is at our own pace. On Monday, I will probably be in training for most of the day. We get to divide our day between work and training. They claim they want us to focus on training, but I feel bad for not getting any work done, so I try to do both each day.

It’s funny when I tell certain people what I do, they think my job is easy. ROFL. My job is so stressful. We cannot make mistakes. That is probably the most stressful part of my job. They also expect us to be highly productive. We get measured daily, weekly, and monthly. If we could work a little slower, then maybe there would be fewer mistakes. So much pressure. Even the managers email us about handling our stress on the job. I think that’s funny because they are the ones pressuring us. But this is a corporate environment. What should I expect? Corporations don’t care about us. That’s the bottom line.

OMG! I just found out that Marie Forleo was at Gabby Bernstein’s talk in Los Angeles! She was one of the 1300 people in the audience. She heard me say I don’t have any friends. There’s no point in freaking out now. It already happened. LOL. I love Marie. Who doesn’t? But I’m so embarrassed. I really didn’t have to know she was there. If I ever were to start my own business (probably will never happen because I’m not interested at all), I would take Marie’s B-School and Gabby’s Spirit Junkie master class.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Brandi Carlile, Rachel Platten, Kesha, Tori Kelly, Camilla Cabello, Maria Mena, Mariah Carey, Lea Michele

TV of the week: Celebrity Big Brother, PLL

Celebrity BB is so entertaining. They are playing HARD. Too bad it ends on Sunday. I hope they do it again next year. It’s hard to find celebs to stay in a house for 3-4 weeks. Plus, CBS doesn’t want to pay the celebs. They say it’s “too expensive.” As if CBS doesn’t have any money.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lively Show, The Rachael Maddow Show, True Crime Garage, Mentally Chill, Pop Shop, All in with Chris Hayes

Books of the week: Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: I just want to stay in bed and read all weekend. I need a break. I’m exhausted. But I agreed to work 5 hours of overtime on Saturday. Blah. And I have to organize my shelves and hang up my clothes. Do I sound like a slob? Lol. I just have to get organized. On Sunday, I’m going to spin class.

Thanks for reading. Have an awesome weekend. 🙂

I want more best days

This has been the best February ever as far as weather is concerned. I have only been going to the park about twice a week because it has been rainy, but the temps have been in the 60s and 70s!  I bitched about the weather in January so much so guess who is so grateful for this weather? My electric bill for January was $290. I kid you not. I thought it would be more than that because it was so cold and my house has not been weatherized. I have to do something different for next winter.

Wednesday at the park was one of the best walks I’ve had in months. I saw a bunch of people on bikes, but no dogs. It was great.

I’m going to start skipping two days of taking Abilify next week. I’m scared. Maybe terrified. I hope I don’t see any side effects. I’ve been taking Abilify every other day for about 3 weeks. I can’t afford to ever go through withdrawal. Who can? If “Abilify withdrawal” were a thing, maybe there would be resources, but there’s nothing. Sigh. I would like to point out that I’m on a very low dose of Abilify and I still can’t just quit it cold turkey.

I shouldn’t talk about work when I suspect someone from work may be reading. But I’m gonna do it anyway. Only 2 people have gone through this training in our department. I was picked in the next group. We are considered the first real group to go to training. She chose me and the 4 other people because we have good reading comprehension. Lol. Thanks! 🙂 We have to do a lot of reading for our job.

I just wish I knew the schedule. Training starts on Monday, and I know next to nothing. I do know that we have to post on a discussion board almost daily. I HATE THAT! And they even have that ‘like’ shit like Facebook. I’m going to be the last person to post every day so people won’t have time to like or even read my posts. What kind of crap is this? Are we back in college or high school? Ick.  The training will take place at home (thank god), but we have 2-3 hour meetings via the phone and internet at least a few days a week. It might be every day. I will probably have a lot more to say about training because soon this will be taking over my life.

Update: I received the training schedule for the next week and a half. Is this how they are going to do things? Training lasts until the end of June, but we only get a week and a half of the schedule?  Well, I won’t be able to plan for things in advance. I have a doctor’s appointment already scheduled for March. I can’t change that. It is very hard to get an appointment with him. I only have 2 hours off that day. Hopefully, it won’t affect my training.

I lost my Fitbit Zip about 2 months ago. It fell off my pants and eventually, my mom found it outside her house. It was ruined by the time she found it. I had that for over 2 years. I miss my Zip. 😦  I finally ordered a Fitbit Flex 2. It is on backorder. It should be here within 2 weeks. I can’t wait to finally have my walking stats again. The only thing I don’t like about it is that I have to sync it with the app to find out my stats. I prefer the Zip because I could tell how many steps I had by just looking at it.

Update!! – My Fitbit shipped. It should be here Wednesday, but I probably won’t pick it up from my mom’s until Sunday. Woohoo! So excited. YAY. 🙂 🙂

Update #2 – MY FITBIT CAME ON A SUNDAY! I totally mean to yell. I have it right now. It is charging. Total yayness!!111!!!

These school shootings are scary. I don’t know what it feels like to send a kid to school and wonder about it. All I know is that my sister is a teacher. And this is some terrifying shit! It could happen anywhere.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8):  Kelly Clarkson, Lissie, Zedd, Anna Nalick, Justin Timberlake, Ben Platt, Kesha, Kendrick Lamar

I forgot how much I love listening to Lissie’s music. I was thinking about going to the 9:30 Club in DC to see her on tour. I forgot that they do general admission for their shows and  I don’t do general admission. Oh well. This is probably for the best. I don’t need any more plans. Her new album comes out March 23. I can’t wait that long! :/

TV of the week: Curling, basketball, PLL, Celebrity BB

I don’t know what to think about Celebrity Big Brother. It’s like regular Big Brother on speed. I want Shannon to win even though she has next to no chance. I still like Meta World Peace, but I’m disappointed because he didn’t bother to watch one episode before agreeing to be on the show. Ugh. Yes, I take BB very seriously. It is definitely one of my favorite shows. I love Grey’s (when I can binge watch it) and Big Brother.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lowe Post, The Lively Show, Open Run, Ryen Russilo Show, All In with Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage

Books of the week: Unfortunately I didn’t finish reading any books this week. Now reading –

I watched the Aaron Hernandez trial live every single day. I don’t know what the book can tell me that I don’t already know. I didn’t follow his NFL career that much because he was a New England Patriot and I hate the Patriots. I’m hoping to learn more about his history in this book. **Possible spoiler** The news of his death hit me HARD. I was shocked and saddened. I remember barely being able to work for an hour after hearing the news. I kept thinking about his girlfriend/wife and their kid. So sad. Plus, he had CTE. And this is exactly why I no longer watch football.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: This is probably the busiest weekend I’ve had in a while. I don’t like busy weekends, but most of these things I’m choosing to do. On Saturday I’m working 3 hours of overtime. Then I’m taking my mom and dad grocery shopping to two stores. (My dad is coming back to the States tomorrow). After that, I’m picking up my taxes. I still don’t know how much I’m getting back, but I do know I have a refund.

On Sunday, I’m going to spin class for an hour and then directly to the sauna. I still have to make a decision on whether I want to spend money on spin class or the sauna. This weekend will have a lot to do with my decision. I may decide to just commit to neither and do drop-ins.

I hate being out all weekend. Sunday is more of a choice and Saturday is just doing things I have to do. I didn’t do any school work this week. I’ll start doing it next week. Maybe. I’m working overtime every day except Monday next week.

Thanks for reading this entry. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Don’t go knockin’ on my door

This guy on Instagram is annoying me. He has been DMing me with heart emojis. He wants to “get to know me better.” Please. Go away. Should I just tell him I’m asexual? That would be the truth.  I’ve been ignoring him. This isn’t the first time this has happened. If this happens to me, I’m sure pretty girls get all kind of advances on social media. That must be irritating.

Yes, I’m on social media. But I have NO DESIRE TO BE SOCIAL. It’s not my fault they call it social media. Stupid name. I just want to share pics once a week. I don’t care about likes or whatever. I’m just sharing. Like I’m sharing here. Is this social media too? Why does everything have to be social? Ugh.

I was supposed to start this entry off with my first sauna experience. It was divine! I was in a private room. All the rooms are private, but you can bring people with you if you want. People said they take their Kindles with them in the sauna, so I thought, “Why not take mine in the sauna with me?” I didn’t need it. I meditated and did breath work for the whole 40 minutes!

I could get used to this. 😉 What do I do? Cycling class or go to the sauna? Cycling is a little cheaper, and I like the feeling of working out. Hmmm. I dunno. Just due to me being able to easily meditate, it makes me want to choose the sauna. I have to use my 2nd sauna session within the next two weeks, or I lose it. I will definitely use it. I found my bathing suit. I had it on completely in the beginning, but it got so hot (it was about 130 degrees!), I took my top off. TMI? LOL.

I might go next time after I go to cycling class. I hear going to a sauna is great after a workout. The woman asked me if I sweated and I said kind of incredulously, “YES!” She said that some people don’t sweat their first time which shocks me. I have never sweated that much not even in cycling class. It’s 130+ degrees. How can people not sweat? Interesting how the body works.

My paycheck is $25 more due to the tax reform bill that recently passed. I’m not convinced that I won’t have to pay more in taxes when my taxes are due in 2019. But I’ll take the extra money for now. I really need it. AND my 401k repayment loan also just ended. So overall, my paycheck is $72 more. Thank God.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Justin Timberlake, Kesha, Shania Twain, Anna Nalick, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, Camilla Cabello, Paramore

TV of the week: Celebrity BB, PLL, Olympics, basketball

Should I boycott the Olympics? How much did they know? Who knew? Did everyone know? If they did, I believe the Olympics should be boycotted. Larry Nassar’s crimes disgusted me. I tried not to keep up with too much of it so now I don’t know whether I should boycott. I need to read more about it. I’m pleading ignorance for now.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Joel Osteen, The Lively Show, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage, Fresh Air

Books of the week: I finished The Four Tendencies: The Indispensable Personality Profiles That Reveal How to Make Your Life Better (and Other People’s Lives Better Too) by Gretchen Rubin. 4 stars. I did NOT finish Fire and Fury: Inside the Trump White House by Micahel Wolff. It was too much talk of his staff and Russia. You know how I feel about Russia.

Now reading –

Recently I’ve been having a hard time focusing on leisurely reading. That’s why I wanted to take my Kindle into the sauna room. I thought I would make a big dent in my reading. I’m going to have to force myself to read before I get tired and I should stop reading in bed. It makes me fall asleep.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren planner –



Plans for the Weekend: I’m dropping off my taxes this weekend. I hope I get a nice refund. Please. 😉 I’m also finally taking my test. And that’s about it. I’m enjoying my 3 days off from work. Training starts on February 19. I wish it were starting next week, but I can’t control that. I’m glad I checked my work emails this morning. If I hadn’t, I would have missed an opportunity to sign up for overtime for this whole month! I said I wasn’t going to check my emails because off from work means no work. Anyway, I was able to sign up, and now I’m working OT almost every day after the 17th. I so need the extra money. I don’t know when I will have part-time work.

Thanks so much for reading. Have a marvelous weekend! 🙂

Learn to let go

I guess I’m weaning myself off Abilify again. I’ve started taking a dosage every other day. It wasn’t planned, but one day I just skipped so I figured why not keep skipping days. After a couple of weeks, I will probably skip two days and then 3 days. I haven’t figured it all out yet.

It looks I got picked for training. :/ I kind of want to go to training just to do something different, but I’ve heard it’s hard. I love a challenge, but not when it comes to working since other things like my livelihood depends on it. However, since I can’t take off time until July or August, I have 3 days off at the end of next week! Yay. Celebrate!! I was so nervous about asking for time off on such short notice. But fuck it. They won’t let me get my birthday vacation so what’s wrong with asking for time off next week? I could have taken the whole week off. I probably should have.

I have to book my Getaway from DC weekend vacay soon. I’m still nervous about not having cell service, and I feel guilty for keeping it a secret. I just have to get over it.

UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just booked the Getaway! I was a nervous wreck the whole time. OMFG. I am going to a cabin/tiny house in the woods on June 15th and I’m returning on June 17th. A weekend getaway. I’m still nervous. WTF did I do? My dog better behave. Ack!

I enjoyed the Grammys this year. It wasn’t great, but I had no expectations, and that’s why I think I enjoyed the show. The performances (for the most part) were good. I don’t care about the awards as much anymore. I used to care because the awards would affect sales and that does matter to the musicians. Well, Kesha’s song, “Praying” went back in the top ten on iTunes, so the Grammys still do affect sales somewhat. To all the people that like “Praying,” you’ll probably like the album so buy that too! 😉

I won’t even comment on the Grammy boss saying that women need to step up. What BS. I listen to mostly female musicians, so I’m not having any of that. Whatever. Ugh.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8):  Kesha, Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Kelly Clarkson, Sam Smith, Taylor Swift, Brintey Spears, Carly Rae Jepsen

Bad reviews are coming in for Justin Timberlake’s album (by music critics). I’m not shocked. His music is very hit or miss. If I don’t like the new album, I’m so glad I’m not seeing him on tour when he comes to DC. I would still probably enjoy myself, but a concert is always better when you like the new music. I’m still excited to watch him at the Superbowl halftime. I don’t watch football anymore because it kills people. #BoycottFootball But I will watch halftime.

I don’t get why people are still so mad over the Janet Jackson prank, yet they aren’t as mad about JT doing a movie with Woody Allen. Don’t get me started on Woody Allen. Gross! (for lack of a better word).

TV of the week: basketball, news, Grey’s Anatomy, PLL

I’m excited about the winter Olympics. I love curling. It is definitely my favorite thing to watch. I’m also thrilled about Celebrity Big Brother. lol.  I want Metta World Peace to win so bad. I heart him. I also like Brandi Glanville. I don’t think Brandi will win. She’s a shit stirrer on purpose. That rarely works, but we’ve never had a Celebrity BB before. So who knows?

Movie of the week: I’m 90% through The King’s Speech. I’ll try to finish it this weekend.

Podcasts of the week: Mentally Chill, The Mental Illness Happy Hour, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage

Books of the week: It’s been a while since I’ve done this section. I’ve finished a few books and started new ones. I finished reading White Like Her: My Family’s Story of Race and Racial Passing by Gail Lukasik (4 stars), My Lovely Wife In the Psych Ward: A Memoir by Mark Lukach (5 stars), and Judgement Detox: Release the Beliefs That Hold You Back From Living a Better Life by Gabrielle Bernstein (5 stars). TWO books with 5 stars in one month?? That never happens.

Now reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book (coming Sunday)

Plans for the Weekend: A spin class on Sunday! I’m excited. Obvs. I’m also going grocery shopping and doing school work. I’m just looking forward to only working two days next week.

I hope to go the park today. I haven’t been since Saturday. It was about 60 on Saturday. Today will be 55 degrees. I got on my treadmill twice in the past 11 days! How sad to be so excited about that. But my dog is the problem. I can’t leave him alone while I’m on the treadmill. He’ll make a big mess. Last Monday he was at the vet being boarded (LA trip). And this Tuesday, I left him outside while I was on the treadmill. Obviously, I can’t leave him out there if it is really cold so that is why I’m glad I signed up for 4 classes of cycling.

Every winter I need to sign for some kind of class since I’m not going to the park every day when it’s cold. I used to go to the park as long as it was over 35 degrees. Now I won’t go unless it is at least 45. Sometimes I feel sick (like I’m getting a cold) when I go to the park when it’s really cold.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂