I want off this roller coaster

Update to add: I booked my birthday beach vacation. Thank god for credit card points. I still had to pay a bit though. I have to call the hotel to tell them I’m bringing my dog. I keep putting it off. It’s an extra $75. Pics of the hotel coming soon. It looks so awesome and the reviews are great. So excited!!

I need about $10,000 extra a year. If anyone wants to donate…just kidding. It’s funny because my goal at the beginning of 2019 was to make $1,000 in sales this year. NO LONGER. I’m either getting a part-time job and temporarily quitting the side hustle. 😦 OR I’m putting every freaking thing into the biz. Everything I’ve got. I’m working my ass off right now.

A part-time job is kinda hard because most of the part-time jobs are social jobs. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. But I should definitely be looking, right? I am considering looking for full-time jobs starting in April. I would get to train other people at my current job if I stay there. I do like to help others, so that is kind of one reason I want to stay. I like teaching, helping, answering questions etc.

However, my job is so stressful! I’m so glad I didn’t have to work overtime today. I volunteered because I needed the money. They said no. So I booked a study room at the library instead. I could only stay for an hour and a half because I was worried about my car being towed. Everything was fine when the library opened at 9AM. I could always get a spot. Now that it opens at 10, it’s harder to find a spot.

I’m off Wednesday through Friday. Woohoo! I only have plans for Wednesday. I’m talking with a business mentor on the phone in the morning (someone I’ve never talked to before – ahhh!) and then my dog and I are going to the park around 1PM. It is only going to be 55 degrees. Not warm, but it’s nice for February.

I haven’t done a free tarot reading in a while due to the astrology class I’m taking. I probably will volunteer to do one this week since I have extra time. I do have a free astrology reading to do. MY FIRST ASTROLOGY READING. How scary is that? But the person knows I’m a beginner. I told him/her (don’t know the gender) that the reading will be about 500 words. Hopefully, it will be more than 500 words because that is very, very low for an astrology reading. I hope to get it done by March 5th. I’m a little nervous about this.

Lots going on. Feeling overwhelmed. Breathe. I just don’t know what to do. $$$$ issues. Sigh. But I’ve got this?? Universe, where art thou? I’ve been flailing and I think I’m finding my way back. I need to listen and read spiritual stuff again.

This week I…

Music of the week: Rachel Platten, India.Arie, Maggie Rogers, Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, Rozzi, Jussie Smollett, Lake Street Drive

Yeah, still listening to Jussie. I don’t think he’ll be on my list next week. I need a break from him because of all this drama. He didn’t murder anyone or have sex with minors like R. Kelly so…Sorry had to get that get in. I’m a bit conflicted because the album is really good for a modern day R&B album. I’m used to R&B being crap these days so I was pleasantly surprised to hear his debut. Too bad everything is ruined. However, all his dates overseas sold out. Maybe he can still sing for them???

India.Arie’s new album is awesome. She’s coming here and I’m not going. 😦 Sigh. There’s a small chance I might go if there are actual seats (versus general admission). I hate to be in the back, but I LOVE her. Her music has gotten me through so much over the years.

TV of the week: Vanderpump Rules, basketball

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Cold, Online Marketing Made Easy

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Plans for the Weekend:  Well, today is Saturday. I already went to the library. Tomorrow I have live astrology class. I know I’m going to get called on. I hope I don’t sound too stupid. haha. I will probably spend the rest of the weekend studying astrology. I don’t want to get behind.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend! πŸ™‚

You like me in small doses

I wrote this long semi-rant that means nothing because it turned out not to be true. I’ve decided to erase it. I usually don’t erase things, but I felt bad. So here is the rest of the much shorter entry…

Election 2020 talk: Nothing to say. Oh, I don’t like Joe Biden’s stance on criminal justice, BUT if the Democrats really want to win, he is a really safe choice. Safer than Kamala because she is sort of new. Yep, the Dems should go with Biden. Sigh. Not my choice. The first debate is going to be on MSNBC and Telemundo in June! Ahhh! I love debates! Geek Alert. Will Marianne Williamson make it? Only 20 Democrats will be able to debate. And they have to be at 1% in 3 polls. 1% seems low, but it’s hard to get there without much press coverage.

Marianne was on Nightline this week for an extended interview! I haven’t seen it yet. Her pic was also included on MSNBC twice. That’s great, but she is still getting left off most of the time. I would say 90% of the time. Not good. And no one on MSNBC has interviewed her. Bummer. I know people have been tweeting and emailing Rachel Maddow, but Maddow and her people apparently have no interest.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Rozzi, Christina Aguilera, Lake Street Drive, Maggie Rogers, Jussie Smollett, Margo Price

Rachel Platten’s album Waves came out in 2017 and I’m just rediscovering it now. I remember listening to it in 2017 and being disappointed. I thought it was average and not worth listening to. Now all I do is listen to Waves. It is describing exactly where I am in my life right now.

I know about the Jussie Smollett drama. I must say his 2018 album is really good. I can’t explain it. His voice is better than average, IMO. His lyrics are just average. The production is great when compared to most male R&B artists out there. I recommend it unless he faked a hate crime.

Movie of the week: Whitney. Sad for obvious reasons, but so good. A+ Btw, it is a Whitney Houston documentary.

TV of the week:  Celebrity Big Brother, Empire, The Grammys

I saw about 40% of the Grammys. I don’t really feel I can comment on how the show was overall. But I love the parts I saw. I’m so glad Brandi Carlile got to show off. That was awesome. I didn’t do a top albums of 2018 list. Brandi’s album would’ve been #2. Janelle Monae was my #1. I didn’t get much further than that with the list. I’m so glad Tori Kelly finally won a Grammy! She won two! Yay.

Oh, I gasped when Cardi B won the Grammy over Pusha T (AKA the governor of VA – inside joke). Are people just voting by name recognition? Probably, but sometimes obscure artists do win. I don’t hate Cardi B, but I’m sick of the drama surrounding her. I’m not even trying to follow her, but I hear about all this stuff.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Cold, The Rachel Maddow Show

Books of the week: Now reading – 

Plans for the Weekend: I’m working overtime on Saturday morning. Then I’m going grocery shopping on Sunday. Speaking of overtime, I finally looked at my W2 from 2018. I made about $4,500 more than I thought I did! All of it went to rent or electricity, so I didn’t see it or feel it. I would say at least $3,000 of that came from working overtime. It’s hard to calculate because I also got an annual raise and we get bonuses. I hope I make at least that much this year. PLEASE!!!

Not that I’m into money or anything. LOL. Money = freedom so I’m into cash for that reason. Would I rather money didn’t exist? Yes, because that would also mean freedom even though, I would probably have to have something to barter. I would barter my dog for a nice place in the country. That’s a joke. πŸ˜‰

Thanks for visiting and making sure I’m not dead. See, I really do mean it! Not to go on another tangent, but I go to blogs all the time just to see how people are doing. One person hasn’t updated since August. I hope everything is okay. I always assume something bad has happened, but the person is probably fine and just living their life. At least I hope so.

Have a great weekend! πŸ™‚

I got them sharp edges

AHH! What’s going on? Northam did what? OMG. Wow. I didn’t support him until I had to against the Republican. I didn’t vote for him in the primary because I’m smart. I did not want a conservative representing Virginia so I did vote for him in the general election. Geez. Okay, everyone is racist. But um, most people are in denial and nicely try to hide it. &$#^

I voted for Justin Fairfax too (of course). I 100% support him being governer. Too bad a person in Virginia can only have one term as governor. Stupidest rule ever because I don’t want to vote for a governor every 4 years. Anyway, if he is governor because Northam resigns, does that mean he can’t run again??! NOT FAIR.

Update: I just found out on Rachel Maddow that Fairfax would be allowed to run again if Northam resigns. That’s fair. yay! woohoo!

Let’s talk more about politics. Gosh, Kamala is a moderate Democrat if there ever was one. She even supports MORE prisons. Don’t get me started on that. However, she is safe. Isn’t it weird to say that a black female is a safe option for president? Thanks to Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama for that, I guess. Btw, it doesn’t matter her racial background. Americans see her as black.

Kamala is safe. I will not vote for her in the primary because she doesn’t stand for what I stand for. But I think she can win. I don’t want her to win, but most Americans are fine with moderate BS. So they can have her. She can win. Good for her.

I said months ago that I didn’t want Cory Booker to run for president and *sigh*. Well, I think he is a better choice than Kamala…so far. I’m not sure where he stands on campaign financing. It’s easy to find out, but I don’t care. I don’t think he is going to beat Kamala. Unfortunately.

Go, Marianne Williamson! I don’t agree with everything she says. But I would love for her to become president. She finally received some press coverage. Her pic was on MSNBC next to Kamala Harris, Julian Castro, and others! YAY. Woohoo. I know that doesn’t mean she will win, but anything’s possible.

Oh, what else is going on? Nothing much. Same as last week. My weight loss is really stalling. Bummer. 😦 But I would be gaining if I weren’t on Nutrisystem. I did exercise today. I danced for 20 minutes. I need to get on the treadmill at least twice a week. Whatevs.

Still no update on my dog. I’ll find out more when I take him to the vet on Friday (the 8th). They will probably get the labs back on Saturday or Monday. Then I’ll know for sure.

I explored my hotel options for my birthday beach vacay. I know I shouldn’t be spending money on that especially with the vet bills. But I really, really, really want to go. I haven’t had a real beach vacation in at least 5 years. That’s a long time for me because there was a stretch when I went every summer.

With my credit card points, I would have to pay $466 or $627. I don’t get it either. I’m scared to click on “add to my itinerary” because what if they CHARGE me right then and I’m not sure yet. Which is it? $466 or $627. That’s sort of a big difference. Normally I would pay $466 for the hotel with no points. I usually stay on the beach in a nice inexpensive hotel. But I want a pet-friendly hotel so I have to pay big bucks. I’m planning to stay at the Hyatt House. So expensive. ick.

Speaking of class, I got called on twice this week! This will be normal from here until the end of the class in March. We have class every Sunday and we had a lab this past Tuesday night. I was so nervous. Fuck. Sorry, I’m reliving my anxiety. Whew.

There’s so much to learn in astrology 101. I assumed that some of what we are learning now would be learned in 102. I’m so glad I’m not going during the Spring. I still haven’t decided on whether I’m going back at all. To get a certificate, all I need is 3 classes. There is a TON of info in those 3 classes. I don’t need more. Hmmm. I just hate that participation is 40% of our grade. I hate it. I don’t think I want to take 12 classes and get a diploma. That’s a lot of worrying about participating. I don’t mind being called on. I don’t like having to be fake* online by responding to other’s comments. If I have something to say, I’ll say it, but I’m the worst fake person ever.

*Yes there is the word fake again. Superficial. Fake. Whatever. Hate it. Can’t do it. I’m a Taurus. We don’t act. We just are.

Oh shit. I’m watching MSNBC and Cory Booker has a lot of issues. Good luck. He’s going to need it. He tried to privatize water. Not good. There’s a school voucher issue that I don’t care about. #sorryNotSorry And he got millions from Facebook. Damn. Okay, what’s wrong with Julian Castro? Just tell me. Once again, I don’t care enough to look it up. I know he doesn’t have a ton of experience. Hmmm, that’s probably why there’s not much to say about him.

I could talk politics forever. That’s the Gemini Moon in me. How do you think I’ve managed to blog for over 15 years? Gemini. However, I can’t talk clearly. Why? Pisces rising. ROFL. So I’m a Gemini moon who loves to talk to myself. πŸ™‚ But I often don’t speak clearly because uh, Pisces rising. I want to do Instagram Live, but I can barely do Instagram stories. Sigh. I love being Pisces rising though. That means good intuition. As a tarot reader, that’s a good thing.

And I didn’t even get a chance to talk about Howard Schultz. Maybe next week unless someone else dresses in a KKK outfit or in blackface. Who knows? I’m still in disbelief. But I kind of feel bad for Northam which sickens me a little. I always saw him as a good guy but NOT governor material. This sucks.

It’s funny. Democrats are getting on my nerves way more than Republicans right now. (Not the voters, the politicians).

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Taylor Swift, Maggie Rogers, Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, Backstreet Boys, Kesha, Lissie

TV of the week:  Conversations with a Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes, Celebrity Big Brother

I haven’t watched Rent Live yet. I have it recorded. I might watch it this weekend. I hope it’s good. I love Rent. I’ve seen it off Broadway and the movie and loved both so I’m not hard to please.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, All In with Chris Hayes, The Astrology Podcast, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Meaningful Conversations with Maria Shriver, Cold

Books of the week: Now reading –

Plans for the Weekend: Freedom, baby! In 2 weeks when I’m not working overtime, I will be yearning for it. Anyway, I’m working on astrology school for 70% of the time and 30% of the time I’m working on my online biz. I have a feeling it will end up being 50/50. I really need to focus on class. In fact, I wasn’t going to blog tonight but the Northam thing happen and the Gemini in me had to blog about it.

Thanks for reading my political babble. I’ll talk about other stuff next week. Hopefully, it will be good stuff. Have a great weekend! πŸ™‚

Thought I was gonna break

I’m blogging today because I may not feel like blogging later. Tomorrow I take my dog to the vet for Xrays. $$$ Sorry, yes I care about his health, but I feel like X-rays won’t solve the problem. I feel like he has kidney failure. 😦 There isn’t a cure for that. But being optimistic – they will do x-rays while he is sedated and then they’ll do surgery on another day if he needs it.

I’m thinking there will be no surgery because of what I said above. I’m working for one hour and then dropping him off. I should have just asked to go to work at 8:30. Oh well. I HOPE HE NEEDS SURGERY! That is a cure. No one wants their dog to go under anesthesia, but the other alternative is unthinkable. Well, I think about it a lot.

UPDATE: I updated Instagram, but forgot to blog here. Basically, I won’t know anything for 2 weeks. He doesn’t have kidney stones, so no surgery is needed. Like I said above, I would rather him have kidney stones because that’s curable. Kidney failure IS NOT. Anyway, the total cost was $460 for x-rays that proved nothing. Just like I thought. Sigh. I have to give him expensive food for the next two weeks and some medication. Then I guess they will check his urine again. Hoping for the best, but still extremely worried. :/

I won’t go back to the park we used to go to if he is no longer here. It will hurt too much. Will I get another dog? I’ve had dogs since I was 17. I’ve only had two dogs. My last dog lived for 17 years. My current dog is 4 1/2 years old. He says “almost 5”. πŸ˜‰ Anyway, I probably will get another dog one day. I can’t imagine a life without a dog.

I’ve cried enough over this and something else. No more tears until tomorrow. LOL.

Astrology class is kicking my ass this week. This is where I got stuck when I tried to study on my own. I’m a little frustrated that I’m getting stuck in an online class, BUT we haven’t had our meeting yet. That occurs on Sunday. If I still don’t get it after Sunday, I’m going to be exasperated. And people think astrology is easy. Ha!

I’m bummed I don’t get it because I’m excited about next week’s homework. I wanted to be ahead and do it tonight. We get to choose a celebrity couple and analyze a small part of their chart. I’m thinking about choosing Bill and Hillary. How original, right? I’ve never studied Bill’s chart and I only looked briefly at Hillary’s. I don’t know who else I’m that interested in…If someone else chooses them first (we have to post it on the discussion board), I’ll choose someone else. I wish I could choose Amelia Earhart, but she wasn’t in a famous couple. I was obsessed with Amelia for years.

Nutrisystem update: I’ve lost a total of 10 pounds in about 25 days. I guess the weight loss is stalling now. I want to lose at least another 10 pounds.

I got a horary astrology reading. I wanted to know if I would become a successful astrologer, but that question doesn’t work because one year I might be successful and then the next year, not so successful. So I asked if I would make $1,000 in revenue within the next year (not counting expenses). Basically, the answer was I do great work, but I need better marketing and branding. And it will be tough to make a thousand dollars this year. I knew that prior to asking the question. I think it’s interesting he picked up on the branding/marketing issue just from looking at a chart!

He also told me it is hard to make a middle class living being an astrologer. I forget that sometimes because all the astrologers I know probably make at least $50,000 a year. They teach, write books, and give speeches. That’s how they make money NOT by doing readings. I know I’m not going to make much doing tarot and astrology. However, I’m not money hungry. I don’t need to make the most to feel successful. Money doesn’t motivate me. I wish it did! But I do want to travel a little, so I can’t be broke…

Anyway, my plan for 2019 is to create at least one course about tarot or astrology. Leaning towards very, very basic astrology. That can be passive income if I can market myself right and do a great job. Marketing. Hate that word. :/

WORK. Sigh. I can’t say much because I do believe one of them (which means all of them) may be reading. I don’t understand why people make a big deal out of little things that mean nothing. There are so many problems in the world. I used to say I wish these people had problems so they wouldn’t nitpick, but I know they have problems! That’s just that person’s personality. Nothing to do with me.

Election 2020. No, I don’t feel like I’m being too hard on Kamala Harris. Don’t call yourself a progressive Democrat when you aren’t. Simple as that. Now she says she’s against the death penalty. Whatever. She’s better than the current president. I’ll give her that. woofreakinghoo! I’m not saying the candidate has to be perfect but don’t paint yourself as a progressive when you’re really not. I take offense to that and so do other people.

She pushed for programs that helped people find jobs instead of putting them in prison, but also fought to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent. She refused to pursue the death penalty against a man who killed a police officer, but also defended California’s death penalty system in court. She implemented training programs to address police officers’ racial biases, but also resisted calls to get her office to investigate certain police shootings


Fighting to keep people in prison even after they were proved innocent is typical “justice system” BS. I will not vote for her. Enough of bashing her. Should I move on to the other fake progressives in the Democratic party? No. I don’t have enough time. Maybe later. πŸ˜‰ All these “progressives” running around. Interesting. It’s cool to be progressive now. Good to know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rogers, Rozzi, Kesha, Lissie, Rachel Platten, Lake Street Drive, Ariana Grande, Taylor Swift

TV of the week:  basketball, You

I’m 10 minutes into episode one of Conversations with a Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes. I read the Ted Bundy book by Ann Rule years ago – Stranger Beside Me. I’ve forgotten a lot so this should be interesting. I love true crime.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, The Astrology Podcast, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Tarot for the Wild Soul (sooo good!), Generation Why

Books of the week: 

I’m surprised I’ve never read a book on crystals. But now I know why! It makes me want more. In fact, I ordered about 6 crystals today. Oops. One was to replace a lost one and one got wet in the rain and got cracked. Right now I have 14 crystals. Can’t wait to add the new ones to my collection. I did go about 8 months without buying a crystal so, c’mon it was time. πŸ˜‰

Plans for the Weekend: Well, it depends on whether my dog needs surgery. I have a feeling it won’t happen this weekend. So I’m working overtime, doing a free tarot reading and school work.

I feel like this entry is crap. I feel a little down about not only my dog. Other crap is going on too. I’ll probably post an update at the top of this entry when I find out something about my dog.

As always, thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. πŸ™‚

Hurts like hell

It sucks to write about this. I think my dog is in the beginning stages of kidney failure. He is only 4 1/2 years old. I thought we had at least a DECADE more together. 😦 I’m taking him to the vet on Monday. I will probably know for sure on Wednesday or Thursday once the lab results come back. I yell at him a lot, but he is my only friend.

Speaking of yelling at my dog. UGH! He ate my Nutrisystem chicken breast tonight!! &$%^ I am still pissed. I usually put my main dinner on one plate and have a plate for my salad, but tonight I had it all on one plate, so I had to throw my awesome looking salad away. And I only had two bites of my chicken breast. ARGH! Yes, I screamed at him. :/

I’ve lost a total of 7 to 8 pounds in seventeen days. Not bad considering I’m not exercising because I hate winter. πŸ˜‰

I had my first hardcore cravings on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week. I wanted to cheat so bad. What did I want? On Wednesday, I would have eaten anything bad. On Tuesday, I wanted pork. I wanted to order from the Jimmy Dean restaurant. I would have ordered sausages and pancakes. Yum! I didn’t cheat because of money. How foolish would it be to spend so much on Nutrisystem and then ruin it by eating out? That was about 90% of it. The other 10% was about me feeling like a failure. I didn’t want to cheat and feel like shit afterward.

I hope I can keep my cravings at bay. I didn’t crave anything “bad” today. Sometimes I think it has to do with the stress of work plus being hungry. That’s what happened on Tuesday. I was so frustrated about work. Then Jimmy Dean sausages sounded so good. Okay, I’ll stop.

I have the week of my birthday off. So far it looks like I’m going to the beach for 4 days and 3 nights. Well, I really don’t know. I want to pay by February 20, but it depends on money. I have a lot of points from Capital One so the hotel bill won’t be that high. Thank Buddha! But the hotel is still expensive since I’m booking one that allows dogs. I’m so glad I have points. I’ll post pics of the suite after I book. It’s really nice. Full kitchen. I could stay on Nutrisystem while I’m there, but that’s probably not happening.

Astrology class. What can I say? I hate that discussion is 40% of our grade. If anything stops me from continuing there, it might be that. As of right now, I’m definitely skipping spring semester. I’m thinking about going during the summer. I LOVE THIS STUFF. I want to know everything…now! I would love to get a diploma* from their school, but the discussion in class and online might kill the fun.

*They used to offer a Bachelor’s in Astrology, but some uneducated snobs decided astrology wasn’t worth a degree, so their program ended about a decade ago. They are a “real” college that has all kind of degrees, but I can only get a certificate or diploma in astrology. As long as I learn something, it is worth it.

Election 2020 talk. Kamala Harris…NOPE! I knew she was a prosecutor. That doesn’t automatically make her a bad person. LOL. But she denied a look into police behavior while she was a prosecutor. I’m done with her. I’m so sick of all these fakes running around calling themselves progressives. Fuck that. I’m not voting for these people!!! I will stay home on primary day if all I have to choose from are LIARS. Yes, I’m pissed.

Marianne Williamson seems bothered by the lack of press coverage. 😦 I feel bad for her, but she’s not giving up. She knows she has a long road ahead. Damn, I feel like I don’t have many options. What are the chances I will get to vote for someone that believes in 85% of what I believe? The last time that happened was when I voted for Howard Dean. I knew he wouldn’t win by that point, but I still voted for him in the primary.

Too bad Beto O’Rourke is untrustworthy, and Bernie is well, Bernie. Sigh. No one for me. I’ll guess I’ll be stuck with whatever fake ass Democrat half of America selects. I hate fakeness if that’s not obvious. I keep forgetting about Elizabeth Warren. I guess I’ll vote for her in the primary if Marianne isn’t on the ballot. Oh, I have to mention that I don’t know enough about Julian Castro to even mention him. That’ll change by next week. πŸ˜‰

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Kari Jobe, Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Kacey Musgraves, Lissie, Maggie Rose, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  basketball, You, Nashville

I’m so excited for Duke vs. UVA this Saturday. I have it written down in my planner. I’m a fan of both schools, but needless to say I’m rooting for UVA this weekend. You is a creepy show on Netflix. I don’t know whether I like it yet. I’m only on episode 2. I only started watching because I’m a Penn Badgley fan.

Update: Oh YouΒ was on Lifetime and it didn’t do well. I can see why. It seems very Netflix-ish. I wonder what that means for a season 2 if season 1 didn’t do well. It’s doing great on Netflix. I think I love the show now that I’m on episode three. So creepy. I love stuff like this. Give me slow horror.

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America, All In with Chris Hayes, The Bill Simmons Podcast

Books of the week: I’m mostly focusing on astrology books. I’m doing a list of the top astrology books for beginners soon for my other website. The book I’m reading now is awesome but not for beginners. It’s called How to Co-Create using the Secret Language of the Universe : Using Astrology for your Empowerment by Pam Gregory. The Kindle version (which is what I have) is on sale for $3.99. Insane value for that price. Also reading:

Planner Spread for the week: I didn’t do a full bullet journal spread this week. I just used my regular planner. However, I do have my spread from last week:

Plans for the Weekend: I’m working overtime on Saturday. My paycheck will look decent next week. I worked more OT than usual. woohoo! I have to go grocery shopping on Sunday.

The most important thing is SCHOOL. I’ve been doing well. I’m ahead of schedule, but today I blogged here and worked on my tarot and astrology website instead of doing homework. Lame. But I feel like I have to work on my business. I can’t just sit here and do nothing. Since I’m not advanced enough yet, I’m thinking about getting an astrologer to tell me WHEN and IF it is a good time for me to start a business. If he or she says ‘never’. Fine. I will just do tarot and astrology for fun. I really, really, really, want to be an astrologer so I will be disappointed if that’s not on my path. I don’t want to force it. I have a lot of interests. That doesn’t mean all my hobbies should be a business.

I already started the tarot and astrology thing so…oh well. If it’s not meant to be. I’ll do it for free and spend a whole lot less time dedicated to it. In addition to law and accounting, my chart also says I should be a teacher (nice – there are lots of ways to teach) and an interior decorator. I love looking at nice spaces. Love it, but doing it is so not me. One day I will do a ‘report’ on exactly what my birth chart says. 95% of it is accurate. That’s why I believe in astrology.

Well, I have to go now. I’ve rambled long enough. I have my homework done for the discussion board, but I’m scared to post it. It’s not due until Tuesday. Hmmm. I will probably post of it over the weekend. Why am I still rambling?!

Thanks for reading! Have an excellent weekend. πŸ™‚

Won’t stop grooving

My quarter one goals are pretty much doomed. Once I started astrology class and Nutrisystem, well everything changed. Good news: I started NS on December 31, and I’ve lost 5 pounds! (as of yesterday morning) I could’ve lost at least 10 pounds if I exercised more. But I don’t exercise during the winter. I just don’t.

I hope to stay on NS for a year. Can I stand the dinners for a year, though? LOL. Seriously, the real issue is: do I want to pay for it for that long? It is more expensive than my usual groceries, BUT I did waste money on eating out, so it isn’t that much more. Hmmm. All I know is that as long as I don’t cheat (not counting my birthday vacay week), I would like to stay on it. If I cheat, than staying on NS is a waste of money and I’ll just quit.

Still celebrating my first online tarot reading sale! Okay, not really. But it was pretty exciting. She did not email me back. YAY! I hope she didn’t hate it. At least I didn’t have to deal with an upset customer. I spent 2 hours (not counting taking pics and other stuff) on her reading. That is way too long. I have to be quicker.

I need to advertise my astrology offers more on IG stories. I’m not offering anything in depth when it comes to astrology because I’m a beginner when it comes to that. When it comes to tarot, I feel like I’ve been doing it for so long. I don’t feel like a beginner and that is why I’m raising my prices on January 21 – The Full Moon (and MLK day).

Astrology class. I’m scared to jump into the discussion. I’m posting tonight. I’m SHOCKED there are so many Taureans there. I have to introduce myself. That’s sort of easy. But responding isn’t. I’m probably going to say something like “Hey, I’m a Taurus too”. I think there are at least 4 other Taureans so far and everyone is surprised there are so many of us. LOL. 18 people are in the class. I guess Taureans are not known to be astrologers.

Orientation went okay. I’ve been watching webinars by my teacher so seeing/hearing her live was kind of nice. I’m a geek. My main concerns are participation, how hard the class will be*, and how much homework we have to do. I can do school and work. Been there, done that. However, doing school, work, and trying to get an online business off the ground??? HELP! I have a free reading to do this weekend. I have a new strategy and goal. I will not spend over an hour on a free reading.

*Astrology 101, hard? Hell, yes. ROFL. I thought it wouldn’t get hard until 102. Geez. We have to start reading charts in week 3 or 4! WTF? I can read my own chart. Barely. I really want to dissect Hillary Clinton’s chart for class, but I don’t think we get a choice. They chose Clint Eastwood for week one. Ugh! I haven’t even glanced at his chart yet. I guess I should put that on my to-do list…if I want to pass the class.

Just found out my dad is going back overseas on Sunday. That is excellent news for my dog. He’ll have more freedom. I’ll have more freedom too, but it also means my mom will go back to being loud. :/ I have to accept that people can be jerks because of their own issues. It’s not about me! I can’t take it personally. I’ve been taking it personally for years. What a waste of time and a life.

I have to keep repeating that to myself when people are being mean. It’s that person and their issues. And when I’m making a face, for example, while my dog is outside, IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU. It was cold and I wanted him to use the bathroom. Don’t get offended and think shit is about you when it isn’t. I hate that too. My god. People are really something. They think everything is about them.

I don’t really have time to get into it, but I’m over Beto O’Rourke. I don’t trust him. I tried to give him a break because he’s from Texas, but some things are inexcusable. I’m okay with Elizabeth Warren. I would like to hear more from Kamala Harris. I don’t want Biden to run (he’s horrible on criminal justice). Not sure on Sanders. I’m not a big fan but was willing to give him a chance this time around. However, his answer to the sexual harassment issue was horrid. I think he is out of touch when it comes to some issues. I really want people to give Marianne Williamson a chance. I know this is irrational, but I’m so annoyed with the media for not even mentioning her. She started an exploratory committee BEFORE Elizabeth Warren. She went to Iowa way before Warren. Whatever.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Alessia Cara, Rachel Platten, Brandi Carlile, MaMuse, Rachel Kerr, Camila Cabello

I’m making a playlist of Taylor Swift songs called “The only Taylor Swift songs I really like”. πŸ™‚ I have about 30 songs on it and I’m not near finished. If it weren’t for school, I would have finished this by now because music is my life. Anyway, her best album hands down is her 2010 album Speak Now. She never has to make another album and I would appreciate her for that forever. She hasn’t topped that album, but she doesn’t have to.

TV of the week:  The Innocent Man, Nashville

I’ve been bad about watching basketball recently. I need to keep my TV off the news and remember to watch sports. I always have my TV muted and 95% of the time it’s on MSNBC.

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: True Crime Garage, Pod Save America

Books of the week: Now reading:

Planner Spread for the week: I started a bullet journal! I never thought I would. Why spend time creating a planner, when you can buy one? It does take time, but I love mine. I will probably post my spreads here weekly if I take a pic for Insta. Here’s my weekly spread from last week –

Plans for the Weekend: Busy weekend. I’m working overtime tomorrow. I have to finish my eBook this weekend. It is 80% done. I just want to rework some things and I might add a few pages. I’m releasing it on January 17th. I’m NOT doing an eBook next month even though I promised a book every month. I’m just going to do a blog instead. I can’t do work, school, and business.

Tonight I’m going to do one of the online discussion assignments for class – the introduction. Then I’m going to work more on school work. I have a free tarot reading to do by Sunday. I feel like I have to keep doing free readings or I’ll stop forever. I’ll be ‘too busy.’ Of course, if my biz were doing great, I wouldn’t do free readings.

I hope it doesn’t snow. We might get 6 inches. :/ I have to go work on astrology class. I’m so nervous about posting. Wish me luck. πŸ˜‰ Thanks for reading. Have an excellent weekend! πŸ™‚

I don’t trust nobody

I was supposed to write this entry tomorrow…but my schedule has changed and I have news!

I am a professional tarot reader. I got my first sale. Whatever. I’ve done 65+ free email readings so I already considered myself somewhat professional. πŸ˜‰

OH FUCK NO! She just emailed me and wants to know where her reading is? WTF? This probably won’t end well. If she asks for a refund, she can have it. If someone is already pissed, then they aren’t going to be happy with the reading. SHIT. Now I’m scared to check my email. I emailed her back and told her she’ll have her reading by Sunday night.

People. Sigh. I was going to start her reading tomorrow and then send it on Sunday morning. I’m swamped this weekend. I have her reading to do PLUS a free reading. And I’m working overtime, taking my mom grocery shopping, and school starts this weekend. It’s just orientation, but I want to get started on week 1 since the assignments are already posted.

I’ll check my email after I finish this post to see if there is an update. Geez. There goes any excitement. Yes, I state on my website that it takes 3 days. It used to say five days. Lol. I work for a living. I don’t do tarot full-time. Oh well. At least I made a sale…even if it doesn’t work out. ???? Just trying to look on the bright side.

Oh, I’m now a member of the American Federation of Astrologers. I just paid a somewhat low fee. To get certified, I think it’s $25 and an EIGHT HOUR TEST. Are they nuts? But am I going to go after it? Probably. They are based in Arizona (Why are 90% of American astrologers on the west coast?) They can’t promise a testing place where I live. But I’m willing to bet I can take the test in DC. They say they will work with you. I’m fine with that. Or I’m willing to go to Maryland, North Carolina, or Pennsylvania.

I was going to try to get certified in less than 2 years, but with money issues. Nah. I have the $25 to take the test, but I need more knowledge to pass the test. I would like to take at least 3 astrology classes at the college before I try to get certified. I’m going this winter. I’m 95% sure I’m not going this spring. I am considering taking my second class this summer. But I’m not sure. I will be very disappointed if I can’t take a class next winter. I would like to be able to take at least one class a year.

I just checked my email. My first (irate?) customer hasn’t emailed me back yet. I’m still scared. But it is a lot off my back if she asks for a refund. So I’m fine either way. I just don’t want her to ask for a refund AFTER I do the reading. My mentor and I talked about that, and she says I shouldn’t give the money back after I spent time on the reading. I agree, but I would also feel bad if she hated the reading. Double sigh.

Quick Nutrisystem update: I started on Monday. Today is Friday. I’ve lost 1-2 pounds. I guess that’s not bad. But the commercial promises more weight loss during the first week. Haha. Last time I started I was on vacation at a state park (I kid you not) so I walked A LOT. I think I lost at least 4-5 pounds that first week. I can’t remember. This week, I’ve only exercised once. Lame, I know. I just want to lose 15 pounds in 3 months. But I would be happy with 10. I’m not overweight, but I’m close to being overweight.

There is so much more I wanted to say, but this post is so long. So before I do “weekly”, I’ll just add a quick reminder about Bank Boost. I think it will sell out over the weekend, but it has NOT sold out yet. It’s a great course for the price ($35), plus Sarah is a great teacher. She’s awesome. Love her content.

Join to get ideas on ways to earn extra money. You’ll get ideas from Sarah and I also got a bunch of ideas from the group.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Lake Street Drive, Taylor Swift, Alessia Cara, Sam Smith, Camilla Cabello, Rachel Kerr, Ariana Grande, Missy Higgins

I watched half of Taylor Swift’s concert special on Netflix. I plan to finish it soon. I applaud her for singing live unlike others *coughBEYONCEcough* even though she isn’t a great singer. She was off key sometimes, but she was real. I’m not the biggest Swift fan (only because I think a couple of her albums are just plain bad), but she puts on a great show. Others could learn from her.

TV of the week:  The Innocent Man, Vanderpump Rules

I wanted to blog more about The Innocence Project. After watching 4 episodes The Innocent Man, I decided to pledge to donate to The Innocence Project every month. I have it recurring. I’m not giving a lot. Just $12.50 a month. It’s time to put my money where my passion/anger is. Our “justice” system is sickening. I will blog about this more. Trust me. πŸ˜‰ If you believe in DNA testing so guilty people can go to jail and innocent people can go free, please consider supporting The Innocence Project. They do such good work.

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week:  All in With Chris Hayes, The Astrology Podcast, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Generation Why, Where Should We Begin?

Books of the week: Now reading:

None of these are school books. LOL. So I’m probably going to give up reading all but one when I have to read my textbook. I’m almost done with Moonology. I want to do vocational astrology when I become a professional astrologer. I want to do tarot career readings and help people find which jobs they are most suited for when it comes to astrology. Not just suited for, they have to like it. I’m supposed to be in law or an accountant. Uh, I tried with accounting. I suck at those kinds of details. I learned that in college. I think I would do okay in law, but I would have to have a job where a ton of talking isn’t involved. Besides, lawyers scare me. I’m intimidated by them so I couldn’t even be a paralegal.

Plans for the Weekend: I already listed what I have to do this weekend. Since I don’t have to buy much food, I’m going to try to find a way to maximize my time while my mom is grocery shopping. I will probably take my textbook with me.

School kind of starts Sunday. I’m a little confused by the schedule so I don’t know when the first assignments are due. I was going to blog about how much participation we have to do. Shit. Aren’t the assignments hard enough? Nope, participation is a lot of the grade. I will probably spend more time trying to come up with something to say than writing essays and doing the quizzes. bummer. :/

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. πŸ™‚