Be careful what you wish for

My god! I feel great…when compared to how I felt all day on Wednesday and Thursday until 3 PM So much pain. I have never felt cramps like this before. The kind that is constant and reaches down to my leg. I could barely work. In fact, I could only do the easy stuff. My brain was just focused on the pain. My productivity suffered. I wanted to call in sick, but I never do that. I need all the help I can get.

I’m still in pain. I used Instacart and got some groceries delivered. Thank God for them and Amazon Prime Now. I ordered children’s liquid Advil (can’t swallow pills). I also bought some¬†heating pads. I hope this pain doesn’t last for weeks. I know Depo-Provera is the cause of this, so I’m thinking of the worst case scenario.

Off topic: I also ordered gluten free tortillas. The verdict is still out on those since I haven’t tried them. I will probably fix tacos this weekend and I’ll review them.

I was supposed to mow the lawn on Wednesday. I could barely keep still to sit at my computer to work, so that didn’t happen. ūüė¶ I really wanted to mow the lawn while it was somewhat cool (mid-eighties). It will probably go back to being hot soon. Blah.

OOH! I just saw on the news that Monday will be 82 degrees! That sounds like mowing the lawn weather to me. That’s the plan. I hope I’m still not in pain. I bought a lot of medicine, but I don’t know how long it will last if I have to constantly take it.

I had planned to exercise every day this week. I got on my treadmill on Monday. On Tuesday, I did a 15-minute exercise video. The video involves weights and cardio, and I love it. Even though the pain has lessened, I’m scared to exercise. What if the pain comes back full blast? I’m not doing anything until the cramping stops (except mowing the lawn).

I was going to blog about all this other stuff, and all I’m talking about is my pain. Typical, right? Let me do a brief synopsis on what I wanted to mention in this post, before pain fest.

I think Trump tweeting about transgenders in the military wasn’t just for distraction purposes. I think he desperately wanted a WIN with conservatives and he¬†got it. Groups praised him. The end. Oh, it and sucks for people to be kicked out of the armed forces. That affects so many people (not just transgender folks). It hasn’t happened yet, but I think it will in the future.

Melissa Harris Perry wrote an article on “self-care” and what a bunch of BS it is. LOL. I don’t do “self-care”. Well, of course, I do! Almost everyone does. Taking a long bath is self-care. Reading a book, taking a walk, meditating, praying, etc. is self-care. I respect Melissa Harris Perry. But she’s wrong about this. She couldn’t be a good mom to two kids if she didn’t practice self-care.

I don’t call what I do self-care because I was doing it before people started calling it that. But the main things I do these days are napping after work, listening to music daily, and reading on most days. I would yell at my dog a LOT more if I didn’t do these things on a daily basis. ūüėČ

Job(s) update: It’s still very quiet. I haven’t been focusing on it because of the cramping. No word on the PT job or the FT job. I think the PT job will probably start back up next week. Management can’t control when the work comes in. I have a meeting with my manager on Monday at my current FT job. I’m a little nervous about that.

This week I…

Music of the week: Linkin Park, Lana Del Rey, Kelly Clarkson, Lorde, Leona Lewis, Jasmine Thompson, Halsey, Mary J. Blige

Loving the Lana Del Rey. Still loving Lorde. Jillette Johnson’s album comes out tomorrow. Finally! I have been waiting YEARS for this.

TV of the week: Big Brother, Empire

I was going to write about Empire. I’m watching the first season (!!) for the first time. But this entry is already so long. I might get to it later.

Movie of the week: None

Books of the week:¬†I finished reading¬†Option B: Facing Adversity, Building Resilience, and Finding Joy¬†By Sheryl Sandberg and Adam Grant. I gave it 4 stars on Goodreads. I think it is a good book for people dealing with grief. I just read it out of curiosity. I didn’t read Sandberg’s book Lean In because it didn’t seem like it was written for me. I don’t want to Lean In. lol. But I might give the book a chance.

I also finished reading¬†Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body¬†by Roxane Gay. WOW! I wish more people would write while trying to figure stuff out. I don’t like all the books with “I went through that, and now I’m fine.” Um, boring. I could relate to this book so much. Her life is my life. I will probably read this book again. I need to buy it.

Now reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend:¬†I’m going to my mom’s house to pick up a package.
Other than that, I hope to relax, do a little “self-care.” haha. NOT. I will be reading and doing an online course from Iyanla Vanzant. I’m not sure how I feel about the course so far. I hope I like it since I paid for it (got early bird pricing).

Well, this entry is so long. I better go. Thanks for reading if you made it this far. ūüôā Have a nice weekend!

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