Head in the clouds

WARNING: Radical opinion alert

I think people who want to become parents should have to have a home study or become certified. That would lower the birth rate. No doubt. People act like it is their right to have kids. Where does that come from? Parenting is serious shit and people just do it like it’s nothing. Does this not blow anyone else’s mind?

Do people not read about child abuse cases? I read them almost every single day. What about the recent case where the toddler thought her name was “idiot” because that’s what her mom’s boyfriend called her? And what about cases where the kid dies? And people think EVERYONE should have kids. Dumb opinion. Yeah, I said it.

I’m not only talking about extreme situations. I know lots of people who should have never had kids. A home study or certification would have taken care of that. I was going to say I wouldn’t have been born if strict laws were in place, but my parents probably would have passed. You can’t catch everything.

What was wrong with one of my parents (won’t say which one – I feel bad), probably wouldn’t have been caught. But today this parent fully admits to doing things that he or she knows would ruin my life. This person is beyond clueless. I’m trying to be nice. 😉  This person is selfish when it comes to money…and I’ll stop. No need to list everything this person has done, but it’s bad.

I had to get this out. I’m sick of human beings acting like they are entitled to have kids. We aren’t entitled to jobs or health care, but entitled to kids? HUH? They do it without even THINKING about it. I think everyone knows someone who has said, “I didn’t think about it (having kids), I just did it.” I know people who have said that to me and I don’t talk to a lot of people.

That’s scary. Buddha or whoever, please help people. Obviously, this makes me angry. I shouldn’t blog about it, but I see so much ignorance on this topic. People are saying everyone should have kids when they know that’s not true.

Forget changing the ‘justice’ system. If I could change one thing, I might change the way we do parenting in the United States. But I know this will never happen because of people’s entitlement issues regarding parenting.

I got most of it out. Every few years, I have to blast parents.Nothing is changing. It might be getting worse, and I feel like no one is doing anything. I’m not really expecting laws to be put in place. That’s absurd. But if people could at least think about parenting in a different way, I think the world would be a better place for our kids.

I wanted to do another rant about Obama and his drone strikes, but this doesn’t feel like the place or time for it. I need to have a more informed opinion about it. All I know is that he approves drone strikes, and that’s bad. Horrible. Hillary and Trump would probably continue the drone strikes. Ugh! And I’m going off on a tangent…

Three posts in 3 days. Go me. I’m on a roll. Pissing people off…one post at a time. Um, that’s not my intention. I just have strange opinions. Apparently.

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may never be what you assume

I got the apprenticeship removed from my title! Finally! I haven’t been this happy in weeks. 🙂 All of that work and money counted for something. I can erase that “A” off my resume.

I’m sick of talking to people who have NO CLUE how to get a job. They don’t understand that experience is required most of the time. And when experience isn’t required, they get hundreds of applicants.

Don’t know someone? Harder to get a job.

Have social anxiety? Harder to get a job.

I could go on…

DON’T PRETEND LIKE THIS SHIT IS EASY. How lucky are these people who have no idea how hard it is to get a job? Do they know how lucky they are? Geez. Count your blessings and stop telling ME how to get a job. It isn’t the same. Go back to la la land where everything is easy.

Sorry. I’m ranting again, but I swear I’m happy about finally getting someone to listen about how I met the requirements for my certification. Yes! They kept telling me I wasn’t qualified. I wanted to read their website to them.

I spent a couple of hours this afternoon working on my cover letter/resume for a temp agency (for part-time work). I have never done a cover letter for a temp agency. I think my letter could be better, but I really want to get this out tomorrow. Hopefully, I will get a call back by Friday.

Oh god. This morning I had $19.44 in my bank account. Good times. I have to get a PT job. Sigh. I’m going to read and watch the Olympics* before heading to bed. Or I might have a dance party. I’ve been doing a lot of dancing lately.

*Go Michael Phelps (Baltimore, baby!!)

I have to go to the bank tomorrow, and then I have a therapy appointment. My therapist is one of those people who is so CLUELESS when it comes to looking for a job. I would kill to be that clueless.

People who need people

I hate people. I like people who get that statement. Those are my people. I donate to human charities (although last year I probably donated to animal charities more). I care about people. Is that not obvious? Probably not. LOL. I care about people in general. I just don’t want anything to do with them on a daily basis. Once again, my peeps get this.

I don’t go around with hate in my heart. I hope I’m making sense, but some people will never get it.

PEOPLE SUCK!

Telling me that the whole family got together and didn’t invite me doesn’t hurt me*. I’m not that kind of person. There are other ways to hurt me, of course. But being around other people is my hell. A person bragging about their dating life and expecting me to be jealous?? ROFL. They don’t know me. Having a roommate? Sounds like hell to me. Marriage? Sounds like hell to me.

*That did happen. A gathering? Fucking hell!!

When I want to go somewhere, and I don’t have transportation, I call an Uber or use public transportation. I don’t expect Joe to pick me up. When I want things done, I do it myself, OR more often I pay someone to do it. Since I’m not rich, that means a lot of things don’t get done. But I pride myself on not bugging other people.  I wish this were everybody’s definition of pride. That would be nice.

Entitled jerks.

I don’t care what people do when it comes to most things UNLESS it is bothering other people. The neighbor vacuuming at 2 AM? Burn in hell! That happened too. This is part of the reason why I can’t live in apartments anymore.  People suck. This is what I mean. UGH.

/end rant

I should be in a good mood. I’m only working three days (2 more to go) this week. March Madness is here. I’m going to the park with my dog for the first time in months on Thursday. etc. But people won’t leave me the hell alone. Other than that, things are okay. 😉 P.S. I’m going to document my day at the park on Snapchat (username Kat3x5). I might post some pics on Instagram too, but not as many (same username).

I’m going to have a productive and somewhat healthy week (still eating ramen noodles).

I’ve done all my duties, so I’m going to relax and read. I’m reading a 600-page book and it just got interesting on page 90. I don’t think I will be able to finish it before the due date. I hate when that happens. Slow reads.

Some days you gotta dance

What happened to poor Rubio during the debate last night? I guess Chris Christie was right about him. He blew it. I was rooting for him to come in second in New Hampshire. Now that probably won’t happen. I think Christie rattled him. I like Christie (say what??!), but he can be a bully.

The local news is making all this fuss about how Monday is the last day to register to vote in the primary. I heard this at about midnight, so I’m freaking out. Duh! Of course, I’m already registered. I voted last year and the year before that. Etc. I’m fine. I have no idea when a voter has to register again unless the person moves. Anyway, the point is that I’m fine to vote on Super Tuesday. Whew.

Let’s talk race. CONTROVERSIAL. I’m breaking rules here.

It is annoying how now people are saying drug abuse is a disease. ROFL. Now that heroin is affecting so many white people; we must do something to help. WTF? How can people not see how racist that response is? It’s so blatant. Throw the black people in jail for cocaine use. But whites should go to treatment centers. This blows my mind. I know I shouldn’t be shocked. This is the world we live in.

For the record, I have always believed that drug abusers should go to treatment centers and not jails. That’s so obvious; I shouldn’t even have to say it.

When HIV was mostly affecting white males, it was an epidemic. Now that it is mostly affecting black people, nobody talks about it. It’s a damn shame.

But there aren’t any race issues in America. Barack Obama is president! America is color blind. 😉 Ugh, why can’t I find that quote MLK Jr. said about America being a racist nation? It’s like it doesn’t exist, but he did say it. I have a book with that quote in it, but it is a paper book and it would take me forever to find it. People don’t like to acknowledge he said that. They would rather quote other things. Nice things. The whitewashing of MLK Jr. (No, she didn’t!)

/end rant

Who else should I offend? I’ve got stuff for days. There is stuff I want to say about a book club reading Roxane Gay’s Bad Feminist, but it feels like gossip so I won’t go there.

Speaking of books…I’ve never been so excited about starting a fiction book! I just got And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie from the library. I can’t wait to start it this afternoon. I have a feeling I will go on an Agatha Christie bender if I really like this book. I have other stuff to do too. Sigh. I’ve got to work on my practicum and cook. Fun stuff.

I’m getting off the internet for the rest of the day. I don’t want to follow all the SuperBowl talk. #BoycottFootball

Gotta go. I’m enjoying politics more than sports right now. Politics can get tiring, but it is oh, so fun! Nerd alert. I’m really going now.

 

I should be more cynical

The next time someone says, “I don’t have time for that” in a condescending way, I’m just going to say “Yeah, that is why I don’t wear makeup” or “that is why I don’t have kids”. It’s true. I have no interest in those things and I would rather spend my time doing something else. They can do whatever with their time. I don’t care.

This is silly, but there are people who say “I don’t have time for ‘pretty planning’. Btw, I don’t consider what I do pretty planning because it isn’t that pretty. I use my planner to keep me organized. I write down my to-dos first and then on the weekend, I’ll take 30 minutes and decorate the page. 30 whole minutes! Anyway, these same people spend god knows how long putting on makeup or doing (fill in the blank), yet they claim they don’t have time for something.

Please. It’s all about priorities. I prioritize fun stuff. I could take the time to put on makeup, but I don’t care about it. Makeup is probably fun for some people. I have to do something fun everyday to destress.  (More than one thing whenever possible). I don’t even think about it or plan it. It is necessary.

Anyway, decorating my planner is fun and very relaxing. It’s called a hobby. HOBBY. What a concept! People do stuff they like for fun? WOW. If it ever stops being fun, I’ll stop. Obvs.

Oops. I think that was a rant? Is that allowed? Damn, I keep breaking the rules. 😉

Looks like I’m also working on Xmas. None of this overtime is written in stone. So I shouldn’t celebrate too much. But I am a little excited. With any extra money, I’m going to get my car fixed and I might go to Asheville for my vacation in May. That is still up in the air.

Looking forward to my cheat day on Thursday. I’m buying food in advance tomorrow. 🙂

This week I…

Music of the week:  Ellie Goulding, Justin Bieber, Alessia Cara, Sam Smith, Alanis Morissette, A Great Big World, Borns, The Weeknd

song of the week: Alessia Cara – I’m Yours

TV of the week:  Lost (season 6), basketball, news as usual

I have to stop leaving my TV on cable news before going to sleep. I keep doing it. I wake up to breaking news at 3AM.

Movies of the week:  none.

Books of the week:  I finished reading I Feel Like Going On: Life, Game & Glory by Ray Lewis and Daniel Paisner. Good book. Not too much football talk for nonfans. Quick read. It was nice reliving the football seasons. It made me miss football. #BoycottFootball because it kills people. Anyhow, I’m a huge Ray Lewis fan. (Baltimore, baby!)

Working on finishing these 3 library books:

Planner update:  

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I’m going to eat dinner, work late and then watch college basketball. Tonight won’t be a late night like most Friday nights. Gotta work in the morning.

 

going back to my old ways?

I can’t believe I did it. I wasn’t even hungry. A pizza order from my neighbor came to my house by mistake* and I got ideas. I was bored and it was Halloween. Lame and a damn shame. I just had a cheat day on October 9 and I’ve been so good, but I broke. I was determined to watch the whole Washington Wizards game and I knew one way to do that was to order some food.

*(I did direct him to the right house).

I will not have cheat days more than once a month. I will not eat when I’m “bored”. Fuck. I will go to the gym.

With all that being said, I am going to have a cheat day on Thanksgiving. 😉 I was going to have a cheat day that Thursday and Friday but that is now cancelled. Just one cheat day.

I had been eating less than 1,200 calories a day (minus cheat days once a month). Ugh. Woe is me. We all have slip ups. That is what I will tell myself to make myself feel better. Not a big deal. Won’t happen again. Whew. I would banish cheat days…so not happening. Not realistic.

The food was tasty, yo! Gotta say that.

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There are people out there who wish they could bitch and moan in their blogs, but they see what people say about people like me. ROFL. So they say nothing. They give a damn what other people think. I guess because they care what people think, they think I should too. I don’t know what to make of that. I don’t care what they say about me or my blog. I know what they say. I know what they think. Typical thoughts. Nothing special.

Just an observation. Also, they seem to forget (or not know or simply just don’t care) that I don’t have friends to vent to so this is my way of not keeping it all in. Keeping it in is toxic for me. It doesn’t matter if no one reads or one person reads. I just have to get it out.

I know one reason why they don’t need to vent online is because they vent to their friends. I get it. They do the exact same thing I do online to their friends yet they talk shit about me doing it. Does that make sense? I don’t get that. People have to consider circumstances before they judge. Oh! Right they don’t think before they judge. Silly me. People. sigh.

Was I just ranting? That’s not allowed! lol

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Speaking of keeping it in…I don’t even know where to begin. I have so much going on right now. For some reason, I’ve decided that I will start a bunch of stuff in November. Ahhh! Overwhelm. I’m committed to NaNoWriMo, watching as many Wizards game as possible, writing down every dollar I spend, doing a budget, sticking to a gym schedule, really focusing on my word for the year (focus) and more. It’s like what most people do for New Year’s except I decided to do it starting in November.

I know watching basketball games may seem like a frivolous thing to do, but it was a huge hobby and I don’t want to just let it get away. One sign of depression is not doing things you used to enjoy doing. I want to get back to my hobbies. I don’t want to be too tired to read or watch a basketball game.

Novel update: I have 242 words written so far after I scrapped everything. Awesome. (<–sarcasm)

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I can’t believe Tuesday is election day. Wahhhhh. I don’t wanna leave my house. I don’t care who is on the school board etc. I don’t have anything too important to vote for like some other people in the state. But I’m going to vote anyway. Fun times.

I finished reading Redefining Realness: My Path to Womanhood, Identity, Love & So Much More by Janet Mock. I’ll have more to say about this book on Friday. Hint: I agree with what bell hooks said.

Gotta cook cabbage and write.

No false hope

UNPOPULAR OPINION ALERT: I know how much people love these (sarcasm). I feel bad for Rachel Dolezal. To be the #1 trend on social media for something bad…I just feel for her. I don’t know much about the story. I just know she was passing for black but she’s apparently white. I know race is a social construct. Thankyouverymuch. But tell that to the people that live with racism daily. I’m not going on a tangent about that. At least it doesn’t seem like she is going to lose her job UNLESS she gets charged with a crime. I hate hearing about people losing a job.

She must have known that this would come out eventually. She had to know. Was she scared about it? I would have been living in paralyzing fear. I know she put herself in this position but people don’t have to be so mean about it. And please stop with the #TransRacial stuff. It isn’t funny. Oh, I must add that I know the “blackface” thing isn’t right but the women clearly has issues. I have issues too so I’ll pass on judging her. Another thing, some media outlets are reporting she got into Howard University because they thought she was black. Well, NBC news said she went as a white person. Newsflash: White people go to HBCU’s so it is possible. Anyone can apply to a HBCU. You don’t have to be black.

/end rant

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I’ve hit a weight loss plateau. I’m between 134 and 135. It has been that way for a week. I don’t feel as if I’m going to lose anymore. That might sound dramatic but what if my body’s feel good weight is 135? I don’t want to believe that is true because even with the meds I’m on, I was 125 pounds about 2 years ago. (? – I can’t remember exactly when). I don’t know. I may drink more water, see if that helps.

Nutrisystem is not a good diet for people trying to avoid carbs, btw. I feel like I have to mention that. NS is high in fiber which is good. But you have to watch the carbs. I happen to love carbs 😉 so I love NS.

I went to the free gym today. I only walked a mile on the treadmill. I was trying to get home quick.

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I was going to place an ad in the newspaper about my upcoming yard sale but it costs almost $30! What if it rains? I’ve been thinking about it and there is no way I can have the sale if it rains. My porch has a tiny cover but I have way too much stuff. It won’t fit on my porch.  So I’m just going to stick to free advertising for now. When I look for yard sales, I always look at the free options. I never think about the newspaper. I’m not posting signs because I don’t want neighbors to find out that way. They’ll find out when they see cars in the yard and I’m okay with them coming over.

I didn’t have to go anywhere after work all week. I stayed in Monday through Friday. Those are my kind of days! Love it. The next few weeks will not be like that so I’m enjoying it while I can. I’m off next Friday. There are probably billions of things I should do but I think I’m just taking my dog to the park. I hope he will sit still enough so I can get some reading in.

Speaking of reading…I got another library card today! Woohoo. Now I have 3  (legal – LOL) library cards in 3 different counties/cities. I love having access to so many books. To see what I’m reading now, scroll below.

This week I…

Music of the week:  Mariah Carey, Florence + The Machine, Indigo Girls, Lissie, Sara Jackson-Holman, Imagine Dragons, Kelly Clarkson, Kina Grannis

Thanks to Florence + The Machine and Indigo Girls for making me believe in the music of 2015. This has been a bad year so far (compared to last year).

Watched: NBA Finals, PLL, James Holmes trial

Hmmm, I don’t care who wins the NBA championship. I just want seven good games. So far, so good. I’ve been staying up late for these games though. #EastCoast

Movie of the week: Hot Girls Wanted  I expected this documentary on the porn industry to be better. I appreciated that it focused on younger girls (over 18!)  just getting into the industry but um, that is all there was. Average movie.

Books of the week: I’m juggling quite a few books right now. I brought Vanity Fair (the book) from Amazon. It is 755 pages so I don’t know where that fits in. I would like to read it this summer. Here goes…

books
books

Everyday I fight by Stuart Scott on page 147

I Am That Girl by the Alexis Jones (23% through) I might put this one on the back burner to read library books.

Eyes on You: A novel of suspense by Kate White on page 200. I’m trying to get back into reading fiction after mostly reading nonfiction for the past decade. This book is okay. So far, it seems predictable. If you think you would like a grown up version of Pretty Little Liars, check this book out.  Drama, oh my! 🙂

And here are two library books I haven’t started yet:

Not Fade Away: A Memoir of Senses Lost and Found by Rebecca Alexander

But Enough About Me…A Jersey’s Girl’s Unlikely Adventures Among the Absurdly Famous by Jancee Dunn

I hope I can keep the library books for 6 weeks otherwise, they probably won’t get read. Too many books. Not enough time. My fault.

Planner:

plans of the week
plans of the week