My interview is supposed to take place tomorrow, but I’m not sure it is. She emailed me and took off for the holiday weekend. How strange. So I have no confirmation and no idea whether I’m having my interview and I’m not clear on the time.
But this isn’t why I’m posting today. I wanted to share this quote:
But no one wants to listen to our sad stories unless they are smoothed over with a joke or nice melody. And even then, not always. No one wants to hear a woman talking or writing about pain in a way that suggests that it doesn’t end. Without a pat solution, silver lining, or happy ending we’re just complainers – downers who don’t realize how good we actually have it.
…So while my refusal to keep laughing or making you comfortable may seem like a real fucking downer, the truth is that this is what optimism looks like. Naming what is happening to us, telling the truth about it – as ugly and uncomfortable as it can be – means that we want it to change. That we know it is not inevitable.
I know a lot of people who think this way. I hear it all the time. I love the line about “making you comfortable”. FUCK THAT. Why must we do that? I don’t have to and I won’t.
I’m reading Jessica Valenti’s Sex Object. Obvs. I had to stop at that quote to post it.
I just printed out my notes for the interview. I have a lot covered, but not everything. I just want to know when the interview will take place.
I don’t know how I feel about it. I think they might think I have more experience than I actually do. That is not good. And the references are also an issue. So this is definitely far, far, from a sure thing. But I would love a chance to have a work at home job that pays more then I’m making now. Some people doing this get paid $60,000 a year. Of course, that won’t be me. I wish! Not that money is everything. I would rather have a job I like than making big bucks doing something I hated. But if I could get my foot in the door, that could be me.And I think I might like it.