I don’t even know what to say

The store just emailed me about scheduling an interview! AHHH! Scary. I can’t even think about that right now. I haven’t had power since Thursday night. We had a bad storm. Today is Sunday and I’m at my mom’s house because game 7 of the NBA finals are on. I couldn’t miss the game.

Even though I’ve been napping a lot (and reading), I’m still tired. The tree in my front yard split. I’m very lucky that it didn’t hit my car. It did hit the house, but the damage isn’t a big deal. It just tore the screen of the window.

Here is how the tree split:

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My front yard:

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The damage to the house:

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I called the landlord and he was very nice, but he doesn’t seem interested in cleaning up the yard. So I’m not that interested. It’s not my house and if he doesn’t care. Whatevs.

I have to go. I will probably call the store tomorrow to set up an interview. I haven’t had an interview in about 2 years. I’m very rusty and I probably won’t do much to prepare. Just being honest. If it were a full-time job, I would be much more stressed. I just want electricity.

 

used to cry bout some crazy shit

I got my first week of Nutrisystem food. The first week is the hardest. NO SNACKS. None. I’m used to snacking. NS started me with the whole it’s okay to snack thing and now I can’t for seven days. Then after that, I get dessert (mostly ice cream for me)  and other snacks (like crackers and almonds).

My official starting weight is 129.6. I’ll just say I’m starting at 130 pounds. I want to get down to 120. But will I maintain that? I know I can maintain 125 without NS because I’ve done it before, but 120??! I feel like I need to start thinking differently if I want to maintain 120. I have to be serious.

Anyway, today was my first day back on NS. I don’t think I’m supposed to exercise the first week since I’m eating so little, but I got on the treadmill for a little while and plan to do that for the remainder of the week. I’m feeling dizzy. I forgot how much the first week sucks. I WANT SNACKS. 🙂 I can see myself breaking before seven days like I did last time. I was feeling dizzy from lack of food today. That happened last time too. The first week sucks.

Edited to add: I broke and had a night time snack. I had biscotti. It is only about 130 calories so not a horrible snack option. I will probably have a snack for the remainder of the week.


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Mom took some pics of me using her new camera. What do you think? I hate having my picture taken, but mom used the zoom, so it didn’t feel as intrusive. I hate that she posts these pics all over the internet. What about my privacy? But you have to admit; I look pretty handsome.

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I went ahead and did it. I ordered my first Erin Condren Life Planner on launch day! Well, I did buy one semi-used off of eBay a while ago. But that doesn’t count. It was used.

I got the fancy purple Luxe vegan cover. Yes, it cost quite a bit ($80), but Erin Condren ain’t cheap. I will have pics of it very soon. The planner starts in July. I have already gotten rid of my personal planner. I’m replacing my personal with Erin Condren. All I have in my personal sized planner is note paper. I will probably add some budget pages, but I’m over planning in it.

Guess what will be back? Weekly planner layouts in this blog. I know no one cares about this, but I will post it here every week. I stopped using Instagram months ago so I won’t post there. I hate how cliquey it is and how the people with DSLRs ruined it for normal Nancies like me.

I will be unboxing all that and more on Snapchat. (kat3x5) Had to get that in. In fact, I just unboxed the best. thing. ever. Move over Erin Condren. I used my Amazon points to buy this jewelry organizer:

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I hate jewelry boxes, so I was looking for something else I could do with my jewelry. I found this jewelry organizer dress on Amazon for about $14. It is the. best. thing. EVER. I love it. They even send the dress with a cute velvet hanger. OMG. **dies**. I don’t know if the picture does it justice. It is very dark in the room, and I used the flash for the first time on my camera. Anyway, now I can finally see all my jewelry. Yay.


This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Fifth Harmony, Vanessa Carlton, Prince, Little Mix, Beyonce, Niykee Heaton

I love reading good reviews of Ellie Goulding in the US. Some crowds and critics do get her. I can’t wait to see her live on June 10!

TV of the week:  Bloodline, Pretty Little Liars, basketball

Movie of the week: I’m hoping to catch the remake of Roots this weekend. They will repeat it, right? I know cable usually repeats things. I couldn’t watch it when it first aired because a LIVE basketball game is more important than a movie (to me).

Books of the week:  I finished  Until I Say Good-Bye: A Book About Living by Susan Spencer-Wendel. It is a true story about a woman living with ALS. I didn’t like it. I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. I expected something different. I thought it was going to be more about teaching others how to live, and it wasn’t. It was more about how she traveled during her last years alive and found things out about her family.

Now reading  The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte (page 44) and Brilliant Madness: Living With Manic-Depressive Illness by Patty Duke (page 35).

Planner update:  Coming in July! hahaha. I crack myself up.

Plans for the weekend: As of right now, I’m going to a hair salon for the first time in years. I’m just getting my hair washed and maybe trimmed. There is still a chance I may cancel, but I doubt it. Other than that I will be attempting to stay on Nutrisystem. I have to clean my living room. My life is so exciting!

May was pretty good. I took a lot of time away from work during May, and it felt great. During the summer, I don’t have as much time off.  I’m taking a 3-day vacay in October. Yes, I have to wait until October. LOL. But this is normal for me. I don’t mind working during the summer when everyone else is at the beach, and everything is overcrowded. I like empty places during spring and fall. Not that I have plans for the fall. I’m 99% sure I’m not going anywhere, but anything could happen.

Have an awesome weekend!

I’ve been doing stupid things

I’m still mystified by so-called enlightened people calling people crazy for making different life choices. I guess I have to do an entry on it.

I would say I’m glad I checked my spam folder, but now I’m not so sure. The temp agency I went to a long time ago, emailed me about a decent position. It is definitely a step up from what I’m doing now. But I don’t want to leave my job (at this moment) for an unsure temporary job. It could lead to being permanent and include a better title and probably more money. I just don’t want a temp job. Not right now.

It’s probably not a good decision. But whatever.

Isn’t it funny how liars always think others are lying? I’m the opposite. I always expect people to be truthful because I am. I’m sick of dealing with other people’s crap. Sometimes I wish it was just my dog and me, but even he gets on my nerves sometimes.

I picked up my new camera from my mom’s yesterday. I’m not pleased with it. It looks like a professional camera. WTF! It’s huge! It looks like a DSLR. I thought the lens might go back in. Why would they make it like that? I hope I can get into the Ellie Goulding concert with this camera (and future concerts). I should send it back for something else, but I never send anything back. blah. Here are some of the first pics I took with it (without really knowing how to use the camera).

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My Hello Kitty mini lunch box

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My dog. He hates having his pic taken

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my coloring book

I hope to get better once I actually know how to use the camera. These pictures are horrid! Btw, I know I can’t color. Someone else already pointed it out. (I KID YOU NOT! – PEOPLE SUCK. This is the same person who considers herself a nice person. Yeah, a nice bitch). I color for relaxation. Recently I couldn’t sleep, and I got up before work and colored to get my mind off the fact that I should be sleeping. Anyhow, hopefully, I can learn to use this camera before June 10th: the Ellie Goulding concert.


Hillary Clinton is in big trouble (not because of the latest email stuff). Things can change before November, but I’m going back to my first statement: Trump will be president. Oh, g-d. I don’t think Bernie would be a better choice either. I know what the polls say, but the Republicans haven’t even started on him. “Socialist, socialist, socialist.” That is all they have to say. That will scare half of the country. Plus he is too liberal. Unfortunately.


This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Vanessa Carlton, Beyonce, Corinne Bailey Rae, Little Mix, Ellie Goulding, Jewel, Kanye West

Ariana’s latest is a B-. She finally found her sound (sort of). My favorites are Bad Decisions, Sometimes, I Don’t Care, and Everyday. That means none of those will be released as singles. haha. None of the songs on the album are #1 single material, but that’s okay. I care more about the music than the charts. But of course, I would like her to be successful. Maybe succeeding for her is putting out an album she can be proud of and not a #1 single. If that’s the case, then she succeeded.

I used to let some people tell me how to live and what to be/But if I can’t be me, then fuck’s the point?

Sing it, Ari!

TV of the week:  Pretty Little Liars, basketball

I’m going to start the second season Bloodline this weekend. Exciting times.

Books of the week: Still reading  Until I Say Good-Bye: A Book About Living by Susan Spencer-Wendel (on page 187) and  A Cure for Madness by Jodi McIssac (page 68). I also started The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte (page 22). I just checked out Brilliant Madness: Living With Manic-Depressive Illness by Patty Duke.

Plans for the weekend: I wanted to mow the lawn today but my (new) allergies are acting up, and I don’t have any more allergy medication at home. I’m going to the store for groceries on Saturday. Surely my grass can wait until then. Ugh. Or maybe I better suck it up and try mowing it tomorrow after work. This weekend I’m going to mow the lawn, go grocery shopping, get a ton of reading done, relax outside and clean up. Nothing too exciting.

Edited to add: I just watched a vlog about no excuses and I decided to mow my front lawn this evening! I was sneezing every minute, but I still finished. I will mow the back later this weekend (after I get some medicine). Who knew vlogs could be very helpful? 😉

In honor of Memorial Day, I would like to thank all the veterans who serve our country. Have a great weekend! 🙂

can’t pretend to be perfect

 

It was 82 degrees on Wednesday. On Sunday, it might snow. It will be light snow, probably mixed with rain, but it is still snow. Sob. What is going on? Why can’t winter just go away? We didn’t even have that bad of a winter. If it weren’t for that snowstorm, this winter would have been decent. I hate the cold, and I really hate snow.

Edit: Now it just looks like we are having a cold rainy day. I guess I can deal. 😉

I am so close to getting a free Fitbit Zip! It isn’t the fancy one, but I don’t care. I am getting it for free after all. I can’t wait to get it. I should have it in time for my Asheville/B-Day trip.

There it is! It is a glorified pedometer. 🙂   Click on the pic for more details. Oh, I’m getting it free through a wellness program at work.

I can’t keep eating ramen noodles. I tried to lower my grocery bill that way, but UGH! It makes me feel like crap and I gained a pound after only eating it for a week! This can’t continue. I’m done. Food costs too much. Living in this neighborhood costs too much (but I love the house). etc. etc.

I just got back from taking my dog to the park. The park is 2.8 miles from my house. (thanks, GPS). I had a good time. I know my dog had a better time. 🙂 We stayed there longer than I anticipated. I was supposed to do yard work today, but now college basketball is about to come on. Basketball is why I’m off today and tomorrow. I have to watch it. #Priorities

I snap chatted the whole “day at the park”. I was going to post a pic of me on Snapchat since the pic only lasts 24 hours, but I decided against it. One day I will snap a pic of myself. Anyhow, here are a few pics that didn’t make Snapchat:

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This week I…

Music of the week: Andra Day, Jewel, Toby Lightman, Mariah Carey, The 1975, Troye Sivan, Hailee Steinfeld, Sia

I love Andra Day. Her music has been getting me through the week. Her voice can make anything sound good. Check her out if you are unfamiliar with her music. I chose a cover for this post, but her album is amazing.

 TV of the week:  Mad Men, basketball, political stuff

March Madness! yay. All basketball, all the time.

Movie of the week: none.

Books of the week: 

  • Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie (page 334)

There was something wrong with her. She did not know what it was but there was something wrong with her. A hunger, a restlessness. An incomplete knowledge of herself.

I doubt I finish both books before they are due at the library, but I’m trying. This is what happens when you place a bunch of books on hold, and they all become available at the same time.

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This weekend I will be doing yard work, tons of reading, my practicum, and watching basketball. The latter is what I’m looking forward to the most. I hope my teams win (UVA, Duke, and VCU). Happy weekend!

don’t lay down to die

I went ahead and ordered a purse. No, it isn’t Chanel or Michael Kors.  But it will do until I can buy the Chanel bag in 10 years.

Isaac Mizrahi purse

Isaac Mizrahi purse

It is the medium Isaac Mizrahi  Bridgehampton Quilted Lamb Leather Bag. It retails for $196. I got it on sale for $178. Go ahead and shame me, animal rights activists.  I wanted a black one because it looks identical to the black Chanel bag, but black is no longer in stock. As far as I know, they aren’t making the black any more so I settled for bone.  (If the black ever comes back in stock…buddha help me). It goes with everything. My only concern is it getting dirty. It does come with a dust bag so yay!

How often should I use it? Well, I don’t go out a lot so I’m thinking once a week should be okay. If I’m just going to the bank or post office, this bag stays at home. This bag will be great for any future interviews. Here is a video of it:

I will try my best to not buy another bag until I can afford the Chanel bag, BUT talk to me in 3 years. I might decide to get a Michael Kors at that time. The one I want will be ‘vintage’ by then. lol.

I did my fall cleaning…sort of. My big trash can is full. I can’t throw anything else away until after my trash is picked up next week. I currently have 2 large trash bags of clothes (mostly suits and dresses) and purses to give to the Goodwill. But I’m not done. I will do a winter cleaning perhaps where I will donate more items. I will continue to throw things away every week until everything is gone.

I put my clothes rack up (brought from The Container Store). I’m in love with it. It was so easy to put together. In fact, there was no putting it together. No screws. The wheels were already securely attached. It is very nice. My mom wants a few after she saw mine. I could use at least one more, but I don’t know where I would put it. Unfortunately, my rack is currently full with designer clothes I don’t wear often (or ever? lol). I need a rack for my everyday, active wear. Here is a pic of how it looks now:

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clothes rack

I had my cheat day on Wednesday instead of Thursday because I was very hungry after cleaning all morning. I went to spin class today to work off all those calories. I had a half of a tuna sub, a meatball sub (my fave), cheese fries and red velvet cake. Stuffed in the worse way. I won’t have another cheat day for 45 days. And then I might just go to McDonalds. I’m not a food snob. Obvs. Breakfast all day? About damn time! Get rid of those old school traditionalists who insist that breakfast is for a certain time.

Sorry for my mini-rant but places not serving breakfast all day really gets on my nerves. Breakfast is my favorite meal and I can eat it anytime.

I should get my Forever 21 clothes today. I don’t know where my order is. It was supposed to come yesterday. I would have gone to the store, but I can never find good stuff at the store. I might do a “Forever 21 Haul” where I post all my clothes. It depends on how much time I want to waste. 😉

Don’t tell your mother

Update to add: AHHHHHHHHHH! Just like I thought my manager and I will have a meeting on Monday. No, it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m fired. BUT it could mean that I have to work in the office or it could be just a warning (doubtful). Talking isn’t one of my skills. I really don’t know what to say. If she can’t see the truth than LOL. I have one sentence I can say. That’s it. It isn’t like I can google an answer to this unique situation.

If she doesn’t think I’m taking this seriously, she could not be wronger. I’m a single person. No significant other to help pay bills. No parents to help with much of anything. I could eventually live with my mom to have a roof over my head, but she has no money because she stopped working to take care of her mom. It’s all on me. I have to work. So YES, I am taking this very seriously. That’s all I can say….and I don’t think that is good enough.

Monday is the day. Nervous. Will my coworkers get want they want? Time will tell.

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I don’t know what’s going on. I couldn’t nap much this week. Napping is my favorite thing. 🙂  Was it because I was worried about my job? Or do I nap because my job is so exhausting that when I do work, I feel so tired that I have to nap? I don’t know, but I do know that my dog hated having the weekend schedule during the week. He was confused. Why aren’t you sitting at the computer and working mom? Why aren’t we eating dinner at 5? Uh, because we woke up later…remember?

Overall, I had a good week off. It was very relaxing.

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park

I took my dog to the park on Wednesday. Surprisingly it was fun. I finally found the walking trail but by the time I found it, we had been there about an hour and I didn’t feel like walking the whole trail. We ended up taking a shortcut through the woods which was awesome. I love wooded areas. So that was cool. My dog wouldn’t let me sit down. I wanted to read a book by the lake, but that didn’t happen. We went around 10 AM and it wasn’t crowded at all.

On Thursday, I took my dog to get groomed while I went to the gym and ran errands. I took a spin class. Less than 10 people were in the class. Gotta love a morning class on a weekday. I went to the consignment shop but, they weren’t taking clothes that day. They do state on their website to call first but since I was already out, I decided to just go. Oh well. Another day.

The grooming didn’t go well. I expected that. He wouldn’t let them trim his nails. She told me to take him to the vet for that. LOL. The vet doesn’t want to do it either. But I will try there in early August. They have to cut his nails or I can’t keep him. What are the other alternatives? Anyway, he didn’t like the bath or being dried either. Oh well. I guess that will be the last time I go there.  I will do everything at the vet which costs more. Grrr!

Then my mom and I went to Red Lobster. Thank god I did spin and burned 400+ calories. Otherwise, I would be in trouble. I ate TWO biscuits. Plus I had the caesar salad. 😦  But I didn’t eat the croutons in the salad. I forgot a salad came with the meal. The broiled flounder was awesome! I skipped two meals (1 snack and dessert) so in the end it all evens out. She wants to go back to Red Lobster in August. argh. This time I will try not to eat any bread. lol. And just eat the salad and the meal.

Here is a pic of the salad. I forgot to take a pic of the main meal which would have been great food porn.

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salad

I saw 130.4 on the scale on Tuesday. It was only ONE day so I’m not celebrating yet. Today I’m back to 131.

This week I…

Music of the week:  Tori Kelly, Raquel Sofia, Crystal Lewis, Ed Sheeran, Nina Simone, Florence + the Machine, Mariah Carey, Shelby Lynne

Watched: Big Brother, Preachers’ Daughters

Movies of the week: Does watching a Lifetime movie count? 😉

Books of the week:  I finished reading Not Fade Away: A Memoir of Senses Lost and Found by Rebecca Alexander. Great book. One of the best memoirs I’ve ever read and I read a lot of memoirs. Moving.

Now reading: Something Must Be Done About Prince Edward County: A Family, a Virginia Town, a Civil Rights Battle by Kristen Green. I live 80 minutes away from Prince Edward County. I didn’t know the history of that county. I never really thought much about Prince Edward County prior to reading this book.  The author used to live where I live now. She talks about how racially segregated it is. I tell people online that that is true. But the way she puts it makes it really sad. It is like people are living in two different cities. The haves and the have nots.

I have a free Audible credit. I’m thinking about getting Ta-Nehisi Coates new book. I dunno. Is it better to read it or is it okay to listen to it? I don’t know why I mess with Audible. I don’t love audio books. I used to listen to them when I worked in the office because that helped pass the time, but now I can barely finish an audio book. I have to use my free credit by August. I need to get something…Every book I want to read I usually come to the conclusion that I want to READ it, not listen to it.

Planner update:

plans of the week

plans of the week

As usual, the weekend isn’t filled in yet.

Tell ’em that is my birthday

horses

horses

Things happened while I was away (no shit) . I had very limited internet access and basically no TV. I’m bummed I missed a few NBA playoff games. But I had a great, relaxing time at the cabin. My dog was awesome!! He was perfectly behaved. We had a blast. My right leg is still sore either from the dancing or all the walking.

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my dog on “beach”

This is the area near the cabin where I spent most of my time walking:

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peaceful

The one bedroom cabin I stayed in. A female slave used to live here:

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cabin

We (my dog and I) went to the beach two mornings. We were there alone on Friday for over an hour. On Thursday there was another family there but most of the time it was just us. I love non-peak season!

beach porn

beach porn

Love this place

Love this place

Here is a pic of the bedroom. I didn’t sleep one night in there. I slept on the sofa in the living room.

the bedroom

the bedroom

I went on a tour of the mansion on the property. AWKWARD. All of my social situations are awkward but how am I supposed to know what requires talking and what doesn’t? It could have been worse. I could have been the only person there. Luckily I saw another family coming and I said, “Someone else is here”. We waited for them so I wouldn’t have to be alone. I could tell the tour guide was a talker and I was getting anxious. I don’t know. All of my social interactions are cringe worthy moments. I’ll just leave it at that. Oh, the mansion was nice but I thought we would be able to see more. The tour guide knew everything about the owners. Nice history lesson.

Great time. I’m glad to be back though.

Nutrisystem update: I’m not supposed to weigh myself until Monday to see how much I’ve lost in 7 days. But I sneaked on the scale today. I’ve lost about 2 and 1/2 pounds. I’ll see the real number on Monday morning. This is a pic of a typical NS dinner. It is NS vegetable lasagna (very good) and my broccoli. I’m eating broccoli everyday for dinner. I hope I don’t get sick of it.

vegetable lasagna

vegetable lasagna

I pretty much love all the pasta dishes. Shocking. I’m going to miss NS food but not the sodium. I’m not drinking enough water. I think I would have lost 4-5 pounds if I drank even just 4 glasses of water a day but ugh, I hate plain water. I ran out of sparkling water and the Dasani drops don’t really do it for me. I suck at drinking water. Always have.

I got a very special gift for my birthday:

Stuart Scott's book

Stuart Scott’s book

I don’t want to read it. I cried for days after Stuart Scott passed. How will I ever get through this book? Right now I have 2 library books to read so I can’t touch this book. I admire that man so much. 😦