used to cry bout some crazy shit

I got my first week of Nutrisystem food. The first week is the hardest. NO SNACKS. None. I’m used to snacking. NS started me with the whole it’s okay to snack thing and now I can’t for seven days. Then after that, I get dessert (mostly ice cream for me)  and other snacks (like crackers and almonds).

My official starting weight is 129.6. I’ll just say I’m starting at 130 pounds. I want to get down to 120. But will I maintain that? I know I can maintain 125 without NS because I’ve done it before, but 120??! I feel like I need to start thinking differently if I want to maintain 120. I have to be serious.

Anyway, today was my first day back on NS. I don’t think I’m supposed to exercise the first week since I’m eating so little, but I got on the treadmill for a little while and plan to do that for the remainder of the week. I’m feeling dizzy. I forgot how much the first week sucks. I WANT SNACKS. 🙂 I can see myself breaking before seven days like I did last time. I was feeling dizzy from lack of food today. That happened last time too. The first week sucks.

Edited to add: I broke and had a night time snack. I had biscotti. It is only about 130 calories so not a horrible snack option. I will probably have a snack for the remainder of the week.


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Mom took some pics of me using her new camera. What do you think? I hate having my picture taken, but mom used the zoom, so it didn’t feel as intrusive. I hate that she posts these pics all over the internet. What about my privacy? But you have to admit; I look pretty handsome.

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I went ahead and did it. I ordered my first Erin Condren Life Planner on launch day! Well, I did buy one semi-used off of eBay a while ago. But that doesn’t count. It was used.

I got the fancy purple Luxe vegan cover. Yes, it cost quite a bit ($80), but Erin Condren ain’t cheap. I will have pics of it very soon. The planner starts in July. I have already gotten rid of my personal planner. I’m replacing my personal with Erin Condren. All I have in my personal sized planner is note paper. I will probably add some budget pages, but I’m over planning in it.

Guess what will be back? Weekly planner layouts in this blog. I know no one cares about this, but I will post it here every week. I stopped using Instagram months ago so I won’t post there. I hate how cliquey it is and how the people with DSLRs ruined it for normal Nancies like me.

I will be unboxing all that and more on Snapchat. (kat3x5) Had to get that in. In fact, I just unboxed the best. thing. ever. Move over Erin Condren. I used my Amazon points to buy this jewelry organizer:

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I hate jewelry boxes, so I was looking for something else I could do with my jewelry. I found this jewelry organizer dress on Amazon for about $14. It is the. best. thing. EVER. I love it. They even send the dress with a cute velvet hanger. OMG. **dies**. I don’t know if the picture does it justice. It is very dark in the room, and I used the flash for the first time on my camera. Anyway, now I can finally see all my jewelry. Yay.


This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Fifth Harmony, Vanessa Carlton, Prince, Little Mix, Beyonce, Niykee Heaton

I love reading good reviews of Ellie Goulding in the US. Some crowds and critics do get her. I can’t wait to see her live on June 10!

TV of the week:  Bloodline, Pretty Little Liars, basketball

Movie of the week: I’m hoping to catch the remake of Roots this weekend. They will repeat it, right? I know cable usually repeats things. I couldn’t watch it when it first aired because a LIVE basketball game is more important than a movie (to me).

Books of the week:  I finished  Until I Say Good-Bye: A Book About Living by Susan Spencer-Wendel. It is a true story about a woman living with ALS. I didn’t like it. I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. I expected something different. I thought it was going to be more about teaching others how to live, and it wasn’t. It was more about how she traveled during her last years alive and found things out about her family.

Now reading  The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte (page 44) and Brilliant Madness: Living With Manic-Depressive Illness by Patty Duke (page 35).

Planner update:  Coming in July! hahaha. I crack myself up.

Plans for the weekend: As of right now, I’m going to a hair salon for the first time in years. I’m just getting my hair washed and maybe trimmed. There is still a chance I may cancel, but I doubt it. Other than that I will be attempting to stay on Nutrisystem. I have to clean my living room. My life is so exciting!

May was pretty good. I took a lot of time away from work during May, and it felt great. During the summer, I don’t have as much time off.  I’m taking a 3-day vacay in October. Yes, I have to wait until October. LOL. But this is normal for me. I don’t mind working during the summer when everyone else is at the beach, and everything is overcrowded. I like empty places during spring and fall. Not that I have plans for the fall. I’m 99% sure I’m not going anywhere, but anything could happen.

Have an awesome weekend!

I got zero chill in me

It looks like my North Carolina plans have changed. Now I’m going with my mom and my dog. We are spending one night there. As of right now, we are staying in a hotel near Duke University even though the Ellie Goulding concert is in Raleigh.  I love Duke. I’ve been there once.

My dog is only coming because I don’t want to board him again. After Asheville, he acted out BIG TIME. He trashed my dining room. He ate my chocolate bars. I know dogs aren’t supposed to eat chocolate, but I also didn’t know he could reach my chocolate bars. I’ve had the bars in the same spot BEFORE I adopted him. I’m talking more than a year ago. Anyhow, I hope this works out. I’m a little nervous about having my dog in a rental car. I don’t want to think about what could go wrong.

So we are going to walk around Duke University, and that’s about it. Thankfully dogs are welcomed to walk around the campus. Unfortunately, he can’t go inside the buildings, so I’ll be going in buildings solo like I did last time.

Since my dog is coming, I wish we could stay in a house. I found one, but they want a $500 refundable deposit. OUCH! I know it’s refundable…Staying in a house for two nights would be so much more fun, but a hotel is fine. Plus it is hard to find a house on short notice.

Random note: I really should be working on learning how to use my camera before June 10. I’ve been slacking. I’m not that excited about learning how to use it since I know the quality won’t be as good as my previous camera.

Edited to add: I’ve been working on taking nice pics today and I will probably post some in my next entry.  So far all of the pics are pics of my dog. He is so cute. 😉


I did something dumb. NEWSFLASH! What a shocker! Right? I signed up for Nutrisystem again. LOL. I like their food, and I’m disciplined on Nutrisystem, so I signed up. I weigh about 129. I’m going to get my exact weight when I officially start NS again. (Just waiting for the food to be delivered).  I know 129 doesn’t sound like a lot and I’m about 5’6″, but I have an apple shaped body. That is the WORST shape to have, for me. I only feel good under 125.

To lose weight, all I had to do was stop having cheat days more than once a week. And what did I do? Something dramatic and impulsive. Oh well. I’m only planning on staying on the plan for two months, but I might go 3.  I have a feeling I will be going back on NS anytime I want to lose a few pounds. That is the easiest thing for me, and I like easy. Have I mentioned how much I like the food even though it has way too much sodium in it?

To give background, I signed up for NS about a year ago. I lost about 20 pounds in 3 or 4 months.  So it worked. Then I did fine for months without NS food, but I’ve been slacking recently and gained about 5 pounds back. 😦 Bummer. Too much ordering in. I love food, but I hate cooking.

The only cheat day I have planned is June 10 (the Ellie Goulding concert). I won’t go crazy or anything. I might even stay on NS while there. It’s possible, but not the easiest thing to do when the other person is eating REAL food.


Let’s talk planners. Well, I will only talk about one planner because only one planner worked ALL of last year. I use an academic year planner, so my year starts in July. I just received The Day Designer (Blue Sky version) for 2016/2017. I bought it because the one from last year worked so well for me. I used it for work and personal things. I use it daily. I can’t say the same for any other planner I’ve used.

I just wanted to mention The Day Designer because I’ve gone through several planners while blogging and I never talked about this one that much and I use it every single day! How weird. I guess this is kind of a recommendation? LOL. I have no idea. I’m just excited to use my new one. I will keep the one from last year because I have a lot of info in it.

People talk about planner peace, and while I love The Day Designer, it doesn’t bring me planner peace because I still need something I can carry around. I still use a personal planner for that reason. The Day Designer is too big (8 x 10) to carry around. I will probably blog about my personal planner in January of 2017. I plan on using Sew Much Crafting inserts. I hope to have planner peace while using that and The Day Designer.

I wish I could just use one planner for everything. #FirstWorldProblems But I need the room of the daily planner and I need something to carry with me everywhere so I will probably always have two planners.


So far this morning, I mowed my back yard, colored in my coloring book and it is only 10 AM. WTF am I suppose to do with the rest of the day? haha. I’m going to chill outside and get more reading done and maybe hop on the treadmill.  Brilliant Madness: Living With Manic-Depressive Illness by Patty Duke is fascinating, and I just started. Tomorrow I’m going to the ’empty’ mall and walk around. I’m not buying anything.

Prior to me using clothing rental services, I NEVER voluntarily went to the mall, but now I do it if I have an extra day off.  I have to wear these clothes before June 8, and I’m not going anywhere before then so….I call this mall empty because they only have a Forever 21, Sears, and Dillards. Yeah, nothing to see there (even though I now love Dillards). But it is great for walking, and that is what people use it for. The mall will probably be closed in less than 2 years.

Btw, I unboxed a ton of stuff on Snapchat (kat3x5) yesterday. Still up as of this post. I know people are probably tired of me mentioning Snapchat. rofl. I mostly do unboxings and show videos or pics of my dog.

I gotta go and do more um, stuff. Right now, I’m dancing around the house to Ariana Grande.  I just thought of something I could do. I need 18  CEUs by the end of the year to keep my license. I could do that. BORING, but that’s the plan. I’m going to hit ‘publish’ on this post. Bye.

Life after Nutrisystem *Update

The following is what I eat after being on Nutrisystem. I started at 142 pounds in May of 2015. I currently weigh 125. I stopped eating NS food around mid-September. Thoughts on cheat days are at the bottom of the post.

Breakfast (each bullet point is a different option)

  • 3 slices of turkey bacon and a boiled egg
  • 2 slices of Aunt Jemima french toast and a boiled egg
  • 1 piece of  Nonni’s biscotti and a boiled egg

Morning snack

  • 100 calorie bag of mixed walnuts and almonds

Lunch

Afternoon snack

  • Fiber one cinnamon coffee cake (90 calories)
  • Special K or Kashi crackers

Dinner

  • chicken with broccoli or cabbage

Dessert

  • 1 Pepperidge Farm cookie

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As you can see, I still need to find a dinner alternative. I just haven’t gotten around to it. Plus, chicken is so easy to cook. I can bake enough chicken for about two weeks, and I’m done with dinner.

Overall, I’m pleased with my menu. Although, I wish I could come up with more lunch alternatives,  I can’t find much I like that would fit. On some days, I’m not in the mood for a bar, but I eat it anyway.

Re: cheat days

Where do I begin? Cheat days started out fine when it was only once a month, but Thanksgiving time destroyed me. I used not to get hungry eating the above diet. Now I crave ‘bad’ food. I’m currently working on that. I’m just trying to ignore my cravings and stick to my plan.

I won’t have random cheat days planned. My mom’s birthday is in January. I’m taking her out to eat. That will be a cheat day. My birthday will probably also be a cheat day. And any vacations* might include cheat days. That’s about it. So in a year, I plan on having less than seven cheat days.

*I try not to go on vacations where I have to eat out. Besides, I don’t go on a lot of vacations. In May, I’m going to a cabin with a full kitchen (in state or North Carolina) so I can bring my food. No excuse for a bunch of cheat days.

Life after Nutrisystem

I lost 18-19 pounds on Nutrisystem. I started in mid-May weighing 142.  I weigh about 124 pounds. Success! 🙂 But it’s over and now I have to go back to regular food. I’m going to have cheat days once a month. On those days, I will most likely eat out or order in. My next cheat day is October 9 or 10. I’m ordering my favorite non-Italian food (meatball sub, cheese fries, and red velvet cake) from a local Italian restaurant. Can’t wait.

Anyway, here is my diet after NS. Each bullet is a different option.

Breakfast

  • 2 slices of turkey bacon, 1 boiled egg, fiber one brownie
  • 2 slices of french toast

Morning Snack

  • almonds
  • turkey sausages
  • tuna ranch 80 calories packet

Lunch 

  • bar with yogurt
  • tuna salad w/crackers
  • mini cheeseburger with yogurt

Afternoon snack

  • whole grain crackers (Kashi or Kellogg)
  • fruit (most likely a banana or pear)

Dinner

  • chicken with 2-4 servings of broccoli or cabbage

Dessert

That doesn’t seem like a weight loss diet to me. But it is low calorie. I think it is around 1,500 calories. Yeah, I could use some options for dinner, but I won’t be having the same kind of chicken every day. I may have fish on some days. Or turkey burgers. I haven’t looked up the calories of those things so I don’t know if they will fit. I love my new menu. Not a lot of cooking. 😉 Thanks to Nutrisystem for teaching me how and when to eat.

I should be studying for my certification test instead of ‘blogging’. Oh well, I’m the queen of procrastination. This was a quick post to type. I just copied the menu from my planner. Gotta go. Instead of studying, I think I’ll read. #Fail

Why can’t I be careless?

I got my first “I’m too smart to need Nutrisystem”. Well, good for you! I didn’t need it, of course. But I wanted to do something. I didn’t want to continue gaining so I tried something. I think I needed discipline. I wasn’t going to spend all this money on NS and NOT follow the plan. I was always intrigued by having food sent to me. I chose NS because I had heard the most about them (great advertising!).  After the experience I’ve had, I would recommend NS. But there are caveats:

  • High in sodium. This is controversial for some reason. I will never understand why. This is one of the reasons I would not want to stay on NS forever. I’m scared the sodium will give me high blood pressure. My BP is fine at this moment but who knows what a few more months would do? Some people claim drinking lots of water washes out the sodium. I have no idea whether this is true. I don’t drink as much water as I should on most days. I would tell other people to ask their doctor before starting…especially if high BP runs in their family.
  • Processed foods. Most people know that going in due to the advertising.
  • High in carbs. I love carbs so not an issue for me.
  • Expensive. Some people say it is less than what they spent prior to NS, but all those people admit to eating out. I rarely eat out because I can’t afford it so NS is expensive to me. There are numerous ways to get the price down. Please don’t go on the website and sign up unless there is a special. My biggest complaint is that some people pay $200 while others pay $400 for the exact same plan. Not cool.

The good outweighs the bad for me. My current weight is 128. I’m still trying to get to 125. Buddha willing. 🙂

One more important thing: It is not just about the food! If the person is willing to learn, they will learn HOW to eat so they can get off Nutrisystem. A few years ago this wasn’t the case but now (credit to NS), there are tools to teach you once you leave the program. Some people consider this a diet, but I consider it how I should have been eating all along: 5-6 small meals a day.

I haven’t figured anything out

YOU DID IT!

Congrats (insert my name)! You Reached Your Goal!

You’ve lost 14 lbs in 80 days, we knew you could do it!

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woohoo! That message is from Nutrisystem.  I now weigh 129 which isn’t really my goal. My goal is 125. I know that will be tough to maintain in the winter…unless I go to the gym 2-3 times a week. Not happening. But I will  be eating healthier than I was before. I do expect to gain 2-4 lbs during the winter like I always do. Mowing the lawn is really a secret blessing. But don’t tell anyone I said that. shh!

Time to do another what I eat on Nutrisystem post. This is what I eat on MOST days. This menu will change drastically after I start on frozen foods at the end of next week. I won’t even bother updating this list again until I’m off Nutrisystem because the food will be so varied.

Breakfast: muffin with 1 large boiled egg

Snack: almonds OR 2 turkey sausages (same # of calories)

Lunch: bar with nonfat yogurt OR tuna salad with pita bread and nonfat yogurt OR a mini cheeseburger with nonfat yogurt

Snack: crackers or Fiber One brownie

Dinner: pizza with 2-4 servings of broccoli

Dessert: nachos or cookies or cake 🙂

The key is eating every 2-3 hours. And no, I don’t get tired of eating the same things on most days. Pre-NS, I used to eat the same dinner and breakfast every single day.

won’t shatter me

I have a stomach for other people not stomaching me. Or at least I’m working on it.

– Amy Poehler

Yeah, fuck ’em. 🙂

The Jen Kirkman’s comedy special was pretty good. I haven’t watched a comedian do stand up in forever (see last entry). Basically her take is like my take:

  • Society is stupid.
  • Weddings are stupid.
  • Child-free people: please stop saying how much you LOVE kids. It sounds soooooo fake…even if it is true.
  • She didn’t have kids because she didn’t want to ruin her life. Precisely.
  • Who cares if someone wants to marry their pet? AMEN. Um, not that I want to marry my dog.

The only thing I haven’t said is the stuff about sex. lol. She kind of goes on and on about sex and masterbating. Two things I know nothing about nor do I care about. But it didn’t ruin the show for me at all. That is how good she is. It wasn’t great but definitely worth watching. You’ll laugh.

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I’m getting my stuff organized into piles. I have decided not to sell any clothes on eBay. I’m donating most of the clothes to two different places: the LGBT thrift store and  The Junior League. And the remainder of the clothes I will take to a consignment shop. Consignment shops are so picky. They only want the name brand stuff in pristine condition. I don’t know how many things I will have for them.

I really hope I make some money off the items I’m taking to the shop. I’ve never done it before. Of course the place I think will take my clothes is called “snooty” on Yelp. haha. I don’t need that kind of attitude but my clothes are not in season (the fashion season) so they are the only ones who might take my clothes. I have a variety so I’m sure they will be interested in something. Oh god, I just saw on their website that the owner described her taste as “picky”. LOL. I do have high end stuff (Yves Saint Laurent etc.) so I’m not worried about that. I’m just worried about whether the stuff is cool enough for lack of a better phrase.

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****BREAKING NEWS******

I brought a CD. An actual physical CD. I think it has been a year or two since I last brought a CD. Since I’m paying Spotify $120 a year (worth it), I don’t spend much on music anymore. I ordered Tori Kelly‘s CD from Amazon. Of course I already know I love it cause I heard the whole thing on Spotify. I like buying music from Amazon because when you order the physical CD, you get to download it right then for no additional cost. I just wanted to hold the CD booklet in my hands because I love her so much. She is an underdog. She got signed at 12 and it took her 10 years to be able to release a full album. I’m glad it went to #1.

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I wrote down my menu for life after Nutrisystem. I have to tweak it more but I will post it here when I’m done. Breakfast was easy. I’m pretty much eating what I used to eat (just one egg instead of two and I’m adding a delicious carb. yes!). Dinner is also almost the exact same. I’m adding broccoli to it. The hardest was figuring out dessert. I still don’t have a perfect substitute for it. Lunch is probably going to be the most expensive. Pre-Nustrisystem,  I didn’t eat lunch so I kind of resent having to buy food for it. But eating on my own will be cheaper than NS. So that’s a win.

I know I have said this before but I’m so glad I did NS. Best decision ever. I never knew I could eat 6 small meals a day. I was reading books trying to figure out how this healthy eating thing worked and I couldn’t get it. I just gave up. I thought I had to learn how to cook and that is not a solution for me. Trust me. I ‘cook’ baked chicken and I boil eggs. That’s about it. That is all I’ll be doing once NS is over. I should run out of all my NS food in mid-September…if I don’t decide to sell another box.

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I might watch the women play soccer tonight if it doesn’t interfere too much with Big Brother. 😉  I’m not that excited because I feel like they are going to win anyway so why watch? I don’t really care. If they lose or if it is a good game, I’m going to wish I would’ve watched. I will probably watch. I can’t help it. I love sports.

I’m going to take a nap. I have a webiner to attend in two hours. I get 1 CEU for it so I can’t miss it. Adios.