Feeling fine and free

I was going to sign my dog up for training classes. I thought it would be a fun, get out of the house type of thing to do. All I do is go to the park every day. Other than that, I pretty much stay home Monday through Friday. Plus, I was supposed to do this 2 years ago to build my dog’s confidence. I just never did it.

However, my dog barks at other dogs he sees at the park. So how could he be in a training class with other dogs? I emailed a training school just to make sure. She said private training was best. That’s what I’m doing. Someone is coming to my house on Tuesday (election day) to do a free consultation. I’m nervous because my dog doesn’t like strangers on his territory. He will bark the whole time. So how are we supposed to talk? I might have to leave him outside during parts of the consultation.

My dog is well behaved at some places like the vet or Petsmart, but he will not tolerate people in the yard or in his my house. And like I’ve already mentioned he misbehaves around other dogs at the park. I’m nervous about the cost. Private training in my house??? Uh, that could be expensive. I would rather go someplace than have the trainer come here, but they don’t do that.

Private training for 1 hour at a place near me is $60 per hour. That is the cost of going to the location. That place doesn’t do in-house training. So I’m assuming that is the least it will cost. The place I choose says they can train a dog to walk properly in 2 hours. I’m hoping 1.) it will work and 2.) it won’t be terribly expensive. If it is too expensive, I will probably try the $60 place near me.

SO…I probably won’t go after Demi Lovato tickets tomorrow. Private dog training, Demi concert and I would like to still go to Kripalu*. I have to cut something, and it will probably be Demi. If I can get a ticket in the first 8 rows, I probably will purchase it. The chances of that happening are very slim. I love Demi, but she’s not one of my top 10 favorite musicians or anything. I just thought it would be fun to go see Demi in DC.

If I do get a ticket, I will update this entry.

*About Kripalu, I have no idea whether Gabby Berstein will hold her workshop there next summer. It is 8 months away. Right now she is focusing on her new book that I’ve already preordered. The book comes out January 2. Anyway, I don’t know whether I can afford to go. I’ve added up everything and the price is almost what it cost me to go to Mexico! sigh. The issue is that I will only go if I have a private room which costs a ton. If I’m going to be around people all day at the workshop and in the cafeteria, I want my own private room to decompress.

I still want to go, but I want to be financially smart too.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Kelly Clarkson, Demi Lovato, Pink, Marren Morris, Carrie Underwood, Michelle Branch, Mariah Carey, Ariana Grande

The new Pink album is really good. I also like the new Kelly Clarkson, but Pink tops that.

TV of the week: basketball, news, RHONJ

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Accused, Mental Illness Happy Hour, Missing Maura Murray

I have listened to the Mental Illness Happy Hour for years. I usually listen to it on Friday nights as I fall asleep.  I just started listening to Accused (#late). I’m not sure I like it. I like my true crime recent. I don’t like cold cases as much. I will probably give it one more episode before I give up.

Books of the week: I finished reading The Goddess: A Novel by Swan Huntley. Um, I gave it 3 stars. That is the lowest rating I have given a book this year. I usually don’t finish 3-star books because I have so many books I want to read, so why waste time on an average book?  The book starts off great, but I guessed the ending very early on. I dunno. It was okay enough for me to finish.

Now focusing on reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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I have a new planner! I’m using the Get To Work Book for a couple of weeks in 2017 and all of 2018. That means no more stickers. 😦  I love planning with stickers. It is my only creative outlet these days (sad, but true). And it relaxes me. I will still post my planner here and on Instagram, but it will look pretty boring. I’ve been eyeing the GTWB since it has been on the market and I finally decided that is all I need. I’m not spending any more money on stickers even though I use mostly printable stickers so I’m not spending a ton. I can easily go back to my Erin Condren if I want to use stickers for a week or two.

Plans for the Weekend: This isn’t really weekend related but I’m off from work on Tuesday and Thursday of next week. Tuesday is election day, and the day the dog trainer is coming to my house. This weekend I will clean up for the trainer. I don’t have a lot to clean up since I’ve been trying to tidy up as I go, but I hate cleaning.

I’m going grocery shopping on Saturday, and I have a test on Sunday morning. That is all I have planned. I get to play in my new planner!!  🙂 I’m so excited to get it on Saturday. It is at my mom’s house. I send all my bigger packages there.

I gotta go cook food for the rest of this week and next week. Thanks for reading! Have a nice weekend. 🙂

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not lonely, just alone

A pic of my dog from one of our daily visits to the park. It wasn’t this week because this week was rainy. (We still went to the park every damn day, though. ha!)

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He hates having his pic taken which makes it hard to get good pics, but oh well.

I just finished splitting a few of my Abilify pills in half. I do it in advance, so I don’t have to do it daily. I guess that means I won’t be quitting within the next two weeks. I feel this undercurrent of depression in me. I’m scared as hell to stop Abilify right now. I would rather stop when I’m not feeling any kind of sadness or overwhelmed.

I’ve been going on and on about Harvey Weinstein in this blog. I was a big fan of Miramax and The Weinstein Company, so this is a huge story to me. I’ve always known he was a jerk, but I didn’t know about the harassment. I just want to say that I know he isn’t the only one in Hollywood sexually harassing people. Also, I know it happens in other industries.

Quick Depo-Provera update: I haven’t bled as of 10/11/17. I hope that doesn’t change.

Quick stalker update: I haven’t seen him on his moped all week. That is probably because I was able to go to the park at 11:30 instead of after I got off from work. The week isn’t over…

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Demi Lovato, Shania Twain, Jasmine Thompson, Jillette Johnson, Lana Del Rey, Sam Smith, Justin Timberlake, Broods

I didn’t expect to like the new Shania. I must admit that I thought she was over once her ex-husband stopped writing with her. (How sexist!) But her new album is decent.

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, Big Little Lies

Big Little Lies is so good! Reese Witherspoon kills it. Everyone is good. Don’t watch season one of BLL and think the book is good. It’s not. Don’t bother. I might be a little bitter because I spent $8 on the Kindle edition of the book. Ugh. What a waste. Anyhow, I can’t wait for season 2. I don’t have HBO, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to see it. I might get the digital version or DVD. So good (when compared to the book).

Movie of the week: I saw Hidden Figures. Very good movie. It’s based on a true story. Janelle Monae is really something. Once again, everyone was good in it. I would recommend this movie to everyone. It was better than Big Little Lies. lol.

Podcast of the week: True Crime Garage. Love that podcast. I usually listen to at least two different podcasts a week. I will start listing those in this section. I’m obsessed with true crime. I can’t get enough of it. I went through a period where I only read true crime.

Books of the week: Ugh, I’m so disappointed. There’s no way I can finish the Vietnam book in less than 2 weeks. 😦 I will still probably read it over the weekend, but then I’ll stop because it is just wasting time to try to read a book I know I’m not going to finish. I hope they put the PBS special the book is based on on Netflix, or maybe I can catch it on PBS. I think it was on over the weekend. I would just buy the book, but at last check, it was $25. I’m not spending that much on a Kindle book.

Currently reading:

I have more library books I could read, but now I’m just trying to finish The Handmaid’s Tale. I always get a bunch of library books at one time. ugh. Too many books, not enough time.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: Staying in for the most part. I have to mail one thing. I don’t even have to go inside the post office. yay. I rarely get to stay in all weekend. I’m going to work at my part-time job and work on my school course.

This week off was pretty good. Only one bad thing happened: I lost power for almost 5 hours on Wednesday morning. I could’ve worked at my part-time job. I lost 5 whole hours! I would like to think I’m over it now, but I dunno. 😉 I had everything all planned out and then that happened.

Have an amazing weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

I’m just like my dog

I find out tonight whether or not I get a ticket to the Charlottesville benefit concert. I’ll update this entry with the news.

Update: I wasn’t selected to get a ticket. The good news is I don’t have to lose a whole day of life and deal with general admission. I hope it is live streamed.  Should be fun.

I have to leave my house two days in a row! 😦 That never happens during the week. I have to see my shrink tomorrow, and then on Thursday, I’m going to see the orthopedic surgeon for my carpal tunnel syndrome. I should have postponed the shrink visit, but I didn’t think about it until it was too late. ugh.

Things are not going great with the part time job. This project is tough. It isn’t for beginners. But I am going to try to rise to the occasion and be perfect. No sarcasm. I only have about two weeks left to do perfect work, or they will take me off the project. Last week I made silly mistakes. Silly! At least I have made some money. I’ve made $112 so far. I will get that even if I’m pulled off the project.

I want so much to do well. I think I can do this. I know I can. I’m also praying for a miracle. So there’s that.

The park is also getting tough. I no longer enjoy it as much as I used to even though I love nature. I hope this is just some weird phase. On Saturdays and Sundays, the parks have been full with dogs. I don’t mind people, but the dogs have to go! My dog barks at 20% of the people. He barks aggressively at 95% of the dogs. It wouldn’t be such a huge deal if everyone would leash their dog (like the rule says).

Just yesterday there was an unleashed dog with his owner. She asked, “Can he (the dog) just say hi (to my dog)?” UGH. My dog was already going crazy because he saw the dog. I replied, “He doesn’t get along with other dogs.” ROFL. Sad, but true. What was I supposed to say? Anyway, she somehow got her unleashed canine to get out of our way. I was getting ready to just go another way. But she said, “no” as in don’t go just because of us.

My dog is shy according to the vet. But why does he call attention to himself and bark at other dogs if he is so shy? Maybe he needs to be socialized. I have had him at doggie daycare, but it’s been at least two years since he’s been. Why pay for that if my mom can watch him? When he went to daycare, he ignored the other dogs according to the owner.

The vet is always trying to make conversation when I go for check ups. Maybe I will bring this up to see what she says. I’ve read a few things on the internet, and I don’t know what to think. I think he is just aggressive. Maybe that is why he was at the animal shelter in the first place.

I will keep going to the park every day because it isn’t always uncomfortable. Sometimes nothing occurs.

Can’t get away from them.

That also happened at the park on Monday. Did he mean he can’t get away from people of my ethnicity? Or did he mean dogs? Or was he talking about something totally different? I don’t want to assume. But it was the location and how he said it. It was kind of nasty.

We (my dog and I) were walking on a trail in the woods. It is a shortcut we often take. They were sitting in a secluded part of the park near the trail. I don’t know how old this guy was. I didn’t look directly at him. He sounded anywhere from 16-24. If he wants to get away from people of my race, he can easily move elsewhere. Besides, this is MY park. I walk to it. It is less than a 5-minute walk from where I live.  What did he do? Get in his car and drive there like so many people do?

Oh yes, I am very territorial. Just like my dog. I’ve always been this way. Anyhow, I just thought this was interesting. I think before I started A Course in Miracles I would have assumed the worst, would have thought about it non-stop and it would have overtaken my life for a few days. I’m not kidding. But now I just report on it and let it go. 🙂

Besides, maybe it had nothing to do with race. I think it is on my mind because there was a racial “incident” at the park recently. No one got hurt. No one would have known it happened if it weren’t for the media. That is all I can say about that.

Feels easier to just swim down

My dog is killing me. There is a reason why I don’t have kids, and there is probably a reason why I probably won’t get another dog even though I LOVE animals. I always wanted a house full of animals. That was my dream. I know of a couple who just rented about 15 goats to clean their property. I’m so envious. I would love to have rental goats. lol.

“Killing me” is a bit of an exaggeration. I used to put him in his crate when I ate. I recently stopped doing that because he would get so excited, sometimes he would use the bathroom in his crate. The new arrangement worked for a few days. But now he uses the bathroom on the dining room carpet whenever he freaking wants to!! (not when I’m eating) *%^#. I give up. I don’t show him I’m mad because he purposely would use the bathroom on the kitchen floor to piss me off. (I know some scientists disagree that animals try to piss people off).

When I give him his tick medicine on his neck or leave him outside too long, he’ll purposely use the bathroom in the house to make me mad. That is why now I give no reaction when he does it. Hopefully, that will help. Sigh. I just wish he would use the bathroom when I take him outside. I take him out so many times a day. Much more than I used to. I give up on trying to control his bathroom habit. I have no choice. I worry about it too much.

Only a few things are stressing me out right now, and this is one of them.  I love my dog so much, and if he would just stop using the bathroom in the house, I would have a lot less anxiety. I need to give this situation up. Stop trying to control it. I think the lesson in this is to love someone in spite of their flaws. The universe would give me a person instead of a dog for this issue, but I don’t come into contact with many people!

On second thought, I think the lesson is to stop trying to control the situation. Stop being a control freak! I think that is what the universe is trying to teach me. Hmmm.

I got the new Kindle Fire from Amazon on release day (Wednesday), and I didn’t even care. How sad. I had my last one for about 3 years. I treasure that Kindle. I only ordered the new one because I recently used a Samsung charger to charge my old Kindle and the battery started acting up! How strange. I use generic chargers all the time with no problem. Anyway, I just think it says a lot that I wasn’t even excited by the Kindle. There are people (yes, even in the United States) who would love a Kindle and I’m all “whatever.” Btw, I’m using both Kindles now.

Pathetic. Anyhow, I prefer my old Kindle over the new one only because it has “text to speech” in books. The new Kindle Fires don’t have that. So I will keep my old one for as long as possible even though I have to keep charging it.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Halsey, Paramore, Rachel Platten, The Bird and the Bee, Natalie Merchant, Shakira, Kelly Clarkson

Song of the week: Miranda Lambert – Tin Man (Unplugged)

TV of the week: House of Cards, NBA Finals

Movie of the week: I already mentioned I watched Moonlight. I’m thinking about rewatching but *SPOILERS* I don’t think I can watch the bullying scenes over again so soon. This stuff is going on right now, and it has gone on forever. There is a local story going on now with bullying in the schools. It reminded me of Moonlight. It makes me sad that children have to go through this and reminds me of my childhood (even though I was rarely touched…but I was touched, just not a lot).

I’m planning on watching Me Before You this weekend or Monday. I read and loved the book. I hope I like the movie. I’m planning on reading the sequel in a couple of months.

Books of the week: Holy shit! All the holds I had at the library came through. There is NO WAY I can read all these books and study for my certification test. So I’m focusing on The Secrets of My Life by Caitlyn Jenner and Shattered: Inside Hillary’s Doomed Campaign by Jonathan Allen and Amie Parnes.

The Caitlyn Jenner book is decent so far. I don’t know why it has average reviews. Well, she does come across as a little insincere (if you want to judge – lol), when talking about transgender teens and all these statistics.  But how do I know what’s really in her heart? I was never a Bruce Jenner fan. I’m indifferent towards Caitlyn. Well, I think she’s brave. Extremely brave. I’m pretty sure I would have stayed in the closet forever if I were in her situation. I know a lot of people don’t think she’s brave. I disagree.

Still reading: A Course in Miracles (always) and  A Course in Miracles Made Easy: Mastering the Journey From Fear to Love by Alan Cohen.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: Grocery shopping and studying. This is my last weekend before my test. At some point, I’m going to give up studying. I don’t know when it’ll be. I just feel like if I don’t know it by now…

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

Just do you

He turns 3 today!

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I wish the terrible twos would magically disappear. His behavior is worse now than when I first adopted him. Okay, he isn’t that bad. Sometimes he is just too needy when I’m working, AND he won’t always use the bathroom when I take him outside which is so annoying.

If kids are harder than having a dog, then I know I made the right decision to not have kids. Dogs are hard work. I think kids are easier than dogs. However, I can’t stand neediness and kids are very needy.

I love Marianne Williamson. Without her (and Gabby), I wouldn’t want to tackle A Course In Miracles. I have to say that first. But her stance on antidepressants is so typical. I just bought her book on depression and anxiety. I already listened to her speech about the book, so I know what’s in it. Let me state my opinion:

  1.  People on anti-depressants aren’t stupid just because they are on meds.
  2. Yeah, 1 out of 10 people shouldn’t be on ADs. But why do people care so much? Mind your own business. What a concept! Stop with the BS about caring about pharmaceutical companies. I’m not buying it. Mind your business.
  3. Until the person walks in my shoes, I don’t give a damn what he or she thinks. I laugh when people talk bad about anti-depressants.
  4. I don’t believe most ADs work anyway so who cares?
  5. I mind my own business, so I don’t care what Susie is taking. You do you.

Need I go on?? I shouldn’t because it is all about letting people do whatever they want. If the person isn’t dumb, they will probably figure it out own their own. Let people figure out their shit. It might take 20 years, but whatever. It’s all a part of the journey. 😉

I will read Marianne’s book on depression/anxiety and spirituality. I have so many books to read so that book is not high on my list. I hope to get to it this year. I want to hear more on her point of view even though I don’t agree with all of it.

I have 2 new lumps in my right breast. 😦 That’s why they are making me get a mammogram. blah. I haven’ scheduled it yet. I will probably call on Monday because if I don’t schedule it, the OB/GYN office will keep harassing me about it.  At least mammograms don’t hurt that much. It’s just slightly uncomfortable.

I also have to make an appointment to test my iron levels. I think I have anemia. And having a 20 day period does not help. I was trying to mow just the front yard, and it wasn’t even that hot (84 degrees), and I felt like I was going to faint. It was scary because I’m used to mowing the lawn in really hot weather with no problem. I felt like I was dying. I don’t know what to do because I have to mow the lawn. Hopefully, the doctor can figure out a solution. I might just need to take an iron supplement.

Only two more weeks of work until I go on vacation! I’m going to start packing my suitcase on Sunday. In case anyone is new here, my mom, my dog and I are going to a state park. We are staying in a 2 bedroom cabin. I’ve been there alone once or twice, and once with my dog. This is my mom’s first time going.

Since my car is fixed, we are planning on leaving the state park on the morning of my birthday to drive to the beach. It takes about an hour to get there.  Next year for vacation,  I’m going to Kripalu by myself to attend Gabby Berstein’s weekend retreat. It’s going to happen somehow.

This week I…

Music of the week: India.Arie, Madi Davis, Ellie Goulding, Lea Michele, Robyn, Michelle Branch, Rachel Platten, Ed Sheeran

TV of the week: NBA Playoffs, Survivor

Movie of the week: The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks

Books of the week: I finished  The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein for the second time. I consider that book my Bible so I will reread it a lot. Now that I have the paperback version of A Course in Miracles from the library, I’ve decided I MUST have the paperback version for myself. I’m just browsing it now since I am doing Gabby’s May Cause Miracles (which did cause a few miracles on Wednesday – may blog about it later). I can’t wait to start the Course. Obvs.

Love Warrior: A Memoir by Glennon Doyle Melton is beautifully written. I love the honesty. I can especially relate to her before she got married and had kids. Also reading  My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante and  May Cause Miracles: A 40-Day Guidebook of Subtle Shifts for Radical Change and Unlimited Happiness by Gabrielle Berstein (on day 26).

Planner update: Plans in my Erin Condren planner:

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Plans for the Weekend: I might go to yoga tomorrow. I know I have been blogging about this forever. My period is finally kinda done so as long as I can make an appointment later today, I will go. I hate having to call first. I hope someone answers the phone since they aren’t there full-time.

UPDATE: I called and it looks like I’m going to yoga tomorrow!! Finally. YAY!

If it doesn’t rain, I plan to spend a lot of time outside this weekend. I’m going to study and read. I do my best studying outside. Other than that, I need to start packing. Fun times.

Thanks for reading. Have an awesome weekend! 🙂

used to cry bout some crazy shit

I got my first week of Nutrisystem food. The first week is the hardest. NO SNACKS. None. I’m used to snacking. NS started me with the whole it’s okay to snack thing and now I can’t for seven days. Then after that, I get dessert (mostly ice cream for me)  and other snacks (like crackers and almonds).

My official starting weight is 129.6. I’ll just say I’m starting at 130 pounds. I want to get down to 120. But will I maintain that? I know I can maintain 125 without NS because I’ve done it before, but 120??! I feel like I need to start thinking differently if I want to maintain 120. I have to be serious.

Anyway, today was my first day back on NS. I don’t think I’m supposed to exercise the first week since I’m eating so little, but I got on the treadmill for a little while and plan to do that for the remainder of the week. I’m feeling dizzy. I forgot how much the first week sucks. I WANT SNACKS. 🙂 I can see myself breaking before seven days like I did last time. I was feeling dizzy from lack of food today. That happened last time too. The first week sucks.

Edited to add: I broke and had a night time snack. I had biscotti. It is only about 130 calories so not a horrible snack option. I will probably have a snack for the remainder of the week.


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Mom took some pics of me using her new camera. What do you think? I hate having my picture taken, but mom used the zoom, so it didn’t feel as intrusive. I hate that she posts these pics all over the internet. What about my privacy? But you have to admit; I look pretty handsome.

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I went ahead and did it. I ordered my first Erin Condren Life Planner on launch day! Well, I did buy one semi-used off of eBay a while ago. But that doesn’t count. It was used.

I got the fancy purple Luxe vegan cover. Yes, it cost quite a bit ($80), but Erin Condren ain’t cheap. I will have pics of it very soon. The planner starts in July. I have already gotten rid of my personal planner. I’m replacing my personal with Erin Condren. All I have in my personal sized planner is note paper. I will probably add some budget pages, but I’m over planning in it.

Guess what will be back? Weekly planner layouts in this blog. I know no one cares about this, but I will post it here every week. I stopped using Instagram months ago so I won’t post there. I hate how cliquey it is and how the people with DSLRs ruined it for normal Nancies like me.

I will be unboxing all that and more on Snapchat. (kat3x5) Had to get that in. In fact, I just unboxed the best. thing. ever. Move over Erin Condren. I used my Amazon points to buy this jewelry organizer:

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I hate jewelry boxes, so I was looking for something else I could do with my jewelry. I found this jewelry organizer dress on Amazon for about $14. It is the. best. thing. EVER. I love it. They even send the dress with a cute velvet hanger. OMG. **dies**. I don’t know if the picture does it justice. It is very dark in the room, and I used the flash for the first time on my camera. Anyway, now I can finally see all my jewelry. Yay.


This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Fifth Harmony, Vanessa Carlton, Prince, Little Mix, Beyonce, Niykee Heaton

I love reading good reviews of Ellie Goulding in the US. Some crowds and critics do get her. I can’t wait to see her live on June 10!

TV of the week:  Bloodline, Pretty Little Liars, basketball

Movie of the week: I’m hoping to catch the remake of Roots this weekend. They will repeat it, right? I know cable usually repeats things. I couldn’t watch it when it first aired because a LIVE basketball game is more important than a movie (to me).

Books of the week:  I finished  Until I Say Good-Bye: A Book About Living by Susan Spencer-Wendel. It is a true story about a woman living with ALS. I didn’t like it. I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. I expected something different. I thought it was going to be more about teaching others how to live, and it wasn’t. It was more about how she traveled during her last years alive and found things out about her family.

Now reading  The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte (page 44) and Brilliant Madness: Living With Manic-Depressive Illness by Patty Duke (page 35).

Planner update:  Coming in July! hahaha. I crack myself up.

Plans for the weekend: As of right now, I’m going to a hair salon for the first time in years. I’m just getting my hair washed and maybe trimmed. There is still a chance I may cancel, but I doubt it. Other than that I will be attempting to stay on Nutrisystem. I have to clean my living room. My life is so exciting!

May was pretty good. I took a lot of time away from work during May, and it felt great. During the summer, I don’t have as much time off.  I’m taking a 3-day vacay in October. Yes, I have to wait until October. LOL. But this is normal for me. I don’t mind working during the summer when everyone else is at the beach, and everything is overcrowded. I like empty places during spring and fall. Not that I have plans for the fall. I’m 99% sure I’m not going anywhere, but anything could happen.

Have an awesome weekend!

Don’t let me hit the ground

BEARS!
BEARS!

I got two 10 lb bears….by mistake. Nutrisystem sends a bear for each 10lbs lost. The next bear is the 20lb pound bear, but I won’t be getting that because I’m not getting any more NS food after next week. 😦 It is due to financial reasons not because I don’t love NS. But I wouldn’t want to stay on it forever either. My mom says I shouldn’t lose anymore weight. I don’t care what she or anyone else thinks.

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Don’t say you don’t want to sound harsh before saying what you have to say. It only makes what you’re saying sound harsh. Unless, your intent is to sound harsh. Either way it might lead to tears if you care about that kind of thing.

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The vet assistants wanted me to put a muzzle on my dog* because they were scared! WTF! Now I realize that I was so scared because if he did act very aggressive, I would lose faith in my best friend. It wasn’t just about being bitten. Even though I do have an irrational fear of being attacked by animals. That is why volunteering at the animal shelter wasn’t a good fit for me. Some dogs were sweet, but some dogs scared me. It’s funny if I see a dog while I’m walking alone, I’m 100% fine but in other situations I get scared…including with my own pets.

*I know owners put muzzles on their dogs all the time. But 1.) Their dog isn’t my dog. 2.) They aren’t me. The end.

Anyhow, he did get his nails trimmed. Finally. I think they gave him treats to trim his nails. I didn’t think that would work. Since we walk on the (hard) road a lot, I hope that will keep his nails trimmed for at least 4 months. I do not want to go back there any sooner. The whole situation is very uncomfortable.

EDIT: After reading this section, it seems like I’m saying my dog ALWAYS needs to be muzzled. NO. It is only when he is having his nails trimmed. He is sooooo scared and will scream the whole time. He was shaking as soon as we got inside the building. 😦

This week I…

Music of the week:  Tori Kelly, Ed Sheeran, Nina Simone, Bea Miller, Raquel Sofia, Indigo Girls, Crystal Lewis, Miguel

Song of the Week: Bea Miller – Fire N Gold

Sometimes I go through phases where I’m cynical about new music…especially music from young artists. I don’t want to hear anything new. I think I’m done with that phase now. I updated my music blog for the first time in about 2 years. I’m excited about new music again. I want to share unknown artists. I will share here too. I already know next week’s song of the week. It’s sublime. Better than Bea Miller. 😉 I just posted this because her album finally came out this week. This isn’t the best song on the album. I wouldn’t put it in the top 5. Surprised it got picked as a single.

Watched: Big Brother, The Affair, Dexter

Movies of the week: Iverson the Movie

I finally got to see it! It came out on my birthday but I don’t have Showtime and I was on vacay so I couldn’t see it. I loved it but it didn’t tell me much of anything new. I’m a big Iverson fan. I know almost everything. (including the bad stuff). I saw Iverson play in person for a charity event. One of my best memories. I heart him.

Books of the week:  Something Must Be Done About Prince Edward County: A Family, a Virginia Town, a Civil Rights Battle by Kristen Green. Good book but too long. For people who already know about Brown v The Board of Education and other cases, there is a lot of stuff you can skip. I’m mainly interested in Prince Edward County. I know what happened everywhere else she mentioned. I’m 55% through. I’m not sure I’m going to finish.

Planner update:

this week's plans
this week’s plans

In case anyone is wondering….I have a Plum Paper Planner inside a Kikki.K planner. I recommend both! I didn’t get as much as I wanted done this week. Work was more time consuming than I’d plan.