Wish I hated everyone

I didn’t end up going to the psychic festival. 😦 I was so sick with allergies. Now I’m taking Zyrtec every day. Because I can’t swallow pills, I have to take the dissolvable kind which is ridiculously so much more expensive than the regular tablets. Grr!

Anyway, I don’t know what I’m allergic to. It could be the house, or it could be my dog. I adopted my dog about 8 months after I moved here. So I don’t know which is causing the allergies. I don’t see anything in the house that could cause it. My mom is convinced it is “invisible mold” because when my sister and I were young, we lived in a house where it took a while for the mold to show. My sister was always sick, but they couldn’t figure out why. So I guess it could be “invisible mold” or it could be my dog.

Whatever. If it is the house, I’m moving in less than 2 months and if it’s my dog…oh well. I’m stuck with him. 😉 Speaking of medical things, I’m getting my first flu shot EVER on Tuesday. I better not get sick. I’ve never had the flu. I’m only getting one because I signed up by mistake through work. I meant to just sign up for the checkup so I can save money on my health insurance. I might see if I can get out of it once I get to the appointment.

Let’s talk about more medical things because that’s exciting, right? I ordered more Abilify. I didn’t want to pay the $75 copay (between my dog and me, our meds are expensive!). However, I can’t stop taking Abilify right now. For the past two years, I have stopped around Christmas. I’m not into Xmas or anything. In fact, I hate it, but that’s not the point. I’m getting ready to move and I don’t want to go through the winter depressed and nauseous. I’m already depressed because winter SUCKS. I hate winter! I’m seriously thinking about moving somewhere where there aren’t winters. It won’t be LA because it was cold when I was there. lol.

Anyway, I’m going to TRY to stop taking Abilify in June of 2019. I’m going to the beach for my birthday in May* and then I will try to stop the Abilify. I’m on the lowest possible dose. I only take it 5 days a week. Maybe I should try to take it 4 days a week and see what happens? I think I will start that next week.

*Unfortunately this will be a semi-expensive beach trip. None of the hotels on the beach that I love will accept dogs. 😦 So I will have to get some really fancy place, even though I could care less. I don’t want to leave him at the vet. Besides the money I would spend on boarding almost equal what I’ll end up paying at the expensive hotel. My mom is coming too so I hope I can find a suite. In the cheaper hotel, we always got a suite. But the pet-friendly hotels, already cost too much so I will probably just get a room with 2 queen beds. As long, as the room has a balcony (A MUST!!), I’ll be fine.

Should I talk about moving? Noooooo! I think I’m in denial. I start packing next weekend. I still don’t have a move date. I’m still terrified of notifying my landlord. It doesn’t really matter when I move, I’m still paying for rent and electricity (so the pipes won’t freeze) until at least December 31. But I want to move to my mom’s by Thanksgiving. In case I haven’t mentioned it, I don’t have a lease. I haven’t had a lease in 5 years. Weird, I know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Maggie Rose, Janet Jackson, Christina Aguilera, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Joan Osborne, Pistol Annies,

TV of the week:  Nashville

I will probably start watching basketball soon. Of course, I’m watching the news since they stopped talking so much about Russia.

Movie of the week: I might watch the RBG documentary on Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I don’t know much about her. All I know is that she is on the Supreme Court.

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Online Marketing Made Easy, True Crime Garage, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lowe Post, The Rachel Maddow Show, Why is This Happening, What Should I Read Next?

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again. I’m so fun! I want to spend time working on my tarot biz. This is quarter 4. I need to get busy. I need to put myself out there and start making money. I don’t expect a ton of customers. But I will be strategizing this weekend. I already know I’m going to offer 50% off every reading from maybe mid-October to November. Or maybe I should offer it through December. Oooh, what should I do for Black Friday??! I forgot about that. I have to think about it. Anyway, some of my readings are only $5.00 so 50% off is a bargain. I’m going to do a short Youtube video explaining my services and giving away the coupon for 50% off.

I haven’t mentioned this, but I’m also taking two online courses to make a big move during this time of year since this time is the busiest time for all businesses. One is a group mentorship. We meet LIVE on video once a week. I have to blog about that. LOL. I just had my first meeting on Tuesday. Scary!! And one is a productivity type class. I was doing my homework for that until I got the urge to blog.

Like I said, next weekend I’m focusing on packing. It would be great to make a big dent with that. I don’t have a lot of big things. I have a lot of little things. A lot of it will be going in the trash, but some things I want to keep.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! 🙂

Leave me where I lie

Countdown:

1 day until my dog’s birthday

18 days until my pap smear

19 days until my birthday

49 days until my DC Getaway

I’m so excited about the Getaway! I’m not excited about people finding out where I am and being disappointed that I didn’t invite them. Blah. On my dog’s birthday I have to work, but afterward, I’m planning on taking him to the river park. I have lived here for years and never really explored that area. I asked my dog where he wanted to go and he said, “the river”! 😉 My mom might come with us. I was excited to invite her, and now I’m kind of regretting it. She’s scared of water and bridges, so the river probably isn’t an ideal place for her to go. Ya think?

Unfortunately, I’m not that familiar with that part of the river. The local people said it’s like a beach and good for dogs, so I want to try it. It’s a huge place. People come from out of town to visit that area, and I figure I should get familiar with it since I live here. I just hope there aren’t too many people there. Especially too many people with dogs. My dog will go crazy the whole time, and it won’t be enjoyable.

Update: My mom is definitely coming with us tomorrow. I hope there aren’t too many hills, water, and bridges. Those are the things she is scared of or doesn’t like. I guess I should clarify that she doesn’t like some bodies of water. She doesn’t mind the beach as long as she’s not too close to the water. I LOVE water. Anyhow, if it isn’t a good place for my mom, I will just go back there later this spring/summer without her.

I made a mistake. I requested a tarot reading from someone in my advanced tarot class! I know that doesn’t seem like a big deal to most. But I hate intimacy. I would never go to the same coffee shop or any store every day. Yes, even that is too intimate. Someone in another tarot Facebook group posted that she would do FREE readings for the first 3 respondents. I made it in. I recognized her face from some Facebook group so I should have put those two things together. But I didn’t.

Now I feel awkward because we are going to be in class together ON CAMERA. So I can’t ask about my job during the class because I already asked about my job to her. That would be uncomfortable. Now I have to come up with more questions. I do have a question about where I will be living in a year. But I don’t have any other questions I want to know the answer to. It’s funny because she recognized me when I responded and I never post in either group. ARGH.

Am I the only one still eating romaine lettuce? Well, I was until it ruined. I bought a big bag of romaine lettuce for my homemade chicken salads I eat during lunch. I probably won’t buy any more (if any store is still selling it). I might do without salads for a few weeks, or I might eat a different kind of lettuce. After I heard yesterday that people were suffering kidney damage from consuming romaine lettuce, I don’t think I want to touch it.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Janelle Monae, First Aid Kit, Brandi Carlile, MaMuse, The Wailin’ Jennys, Lissie, Taylor Swift

Janelle Monae’s album is easily the best release of 2018 so far. Brandi Carlile’s album is a very close second.

TV of the week: NBA playoffs,  How to Get Away With Murder

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week:  The Lowe Post, What Should I Read Next?, True Crime Garage, Pop Shop

Books of the week: 

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: It’s my dog’s birthday. He turns 4! I didn’t buy him anything (bad mom), so that’s why I’m taking him to the river. First I have to work overtime, and then we are heading out. On Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping. I wanted to take him out to eat on Sunday. Well, he wouldn’t be eating. But I found a restaurant that allows dogs on the patio, and I want to go there. I just don’t trust my dog will behave. I think he would be jumping up trying to steal my food the whole time. Plus, he would probably bark if another dog is out there on the patio.

Thanks for reading! Have a delightful weekend. 🙂

I wanna suffer for my sins

I have a feeling someone I know is reading this blog.  Someone said something. (vague enough?) I stopped checking all stats during late December 2017, so I have no idea what’s going on. Now I’m paranoid, but I won’t check my stats. Besides, it won’t tell me exactly who is reading. The stats aren’t that detailed. I hope no one I know is reading, especially someone from work!

I’m going to cycling class on Sunday. I hope I’m not the worst in the class again. 🙂 Then right after that, I have a session at the sauna scheduled. The buildings share the same parking lot. So perfect. This may be my last sauna session until next winter. I’ll see.

Gabby Bernstein and I had another nice chat. Okay, not really. It wasn’t like it was in LA. But there were only 20 people in the chat. I’m in a closed Facebook group she recently started, and she had a private chat scheduled with any of the 377 people in the group. Only 20 people made it live.

I asked my question in advance, and she answered it first! And she took her time. The answer was so helpful. I get it now. I asked her what judgment had to do with debt because Gabby previously said everything comes to judgment (paraphrasing). She answered my question by going into what A Course in Miracles says. Also, she said don’t focus on the debt because that’s living in lack, focus on earning and having fun. I’m simplifying her answer. It took her about 3-5 minutes to answer the question. I have to watch the video replay. I was so excited she was answering my question. I probably missed something.

I’m the queen of living in lack. I have to catch myself constantly. I was surprised she picked my question and how in-depth she went. She even said she wished she could talk to me and ask questions. I don’t use my real name on Facebook, so she had no idea that I’m the person from LA with no friends. I want to keep it that way until I see in person at her at a Kripalu retreat. Like I’ve said, I feel like I let her down and I don’t want her to know that I still don’t have any friends.

Work update: Unfortunately, the people who have been in training are being really honest about how hard the training is. I was really looking forward to it, but regular work is hard and stressful enough. I don’t need the training to be hard too. Pout. At least I know what to expect.

Since I can’t take my birthday week off in May, I have the last week of July off. I’m definitely not planning on going anywhere. Everything is expensive and crowded during that time of summer. So I’m staying home. I’m still going to try to get my birthday off. But if the training is really challenging, I’m not going to miss a whole day of information just because I don’t want to work. I should find how hard it is soon. Training starts next week.

Update: It looks like I can get my birthday off! My manager just told me I should be comfortable with the new system by then so taking a whole day off won’t hurt too much. Yay!

My “Escape From DC” isn’t until June, but I’m already stressed. It’s not just about the no cell service part. It’s my dog! When I was booking the trip, I decided to read the rules, and they have a rule about barking dogs. Um. My dog barks when he hears something. He is a watchdog (not really, but you know what I mean). As long as there isn’t noise, I’ll be fine. They give one warning for a barking dog, and then they ask the person to leave!!

He barks when he hears a vehicle pass by the house. God forbid people are talking outside. I am going to take my noise machine with me and turn it all the way up. That might solve any issue. There are about 20 tiny houses on 80 acres of property. How well are they spaced out? I have no idea.

I leave my noise machine on 24/7 at home, and he rarely barks. But I also don’t have close neighbors. I know it is pointless to worry about this. It’s also stressful because of the secret thing. I still don’t know what I’m telling my mom. We are supposed to go to the grocery store that weekend, so I really have to come up with something.

It would be nice if I felt like I could tell the truth, but I don’t think she would ever forgive me. 😦 I’m not lying. I’m just going to ask if we can go to the grocery store the next week and not give a reason why. Sigh. Between my dog and my mom, I don’t know if this was a good idea.

I feel like this entry is all over the place. Sorry. My mind is not functioning correctly. I’m posting this during lunch while I’m having a dance party. lol

Feeling fine and free

I was going to sign my dog up for training classes. I thought it would be a fun, get out of the house type of thing to do. All I do is go to the park every day. Other than that, I pretty much stay home Monday through Friday. Plus, I was supposed to do this 2 years ago to build my dog’s confidence. I just never did it.

However, my dog barks at other dogs he sees at the park. So how could he be in a training class with other dogs? I emailed a training school just to make sure. She said private training was best. That’s what I’m doing. Someone is coming to my house on Tuesday (election day) to do a free consultation. I’m nervous because my dog doesn’t like strangers on his territory. He will bark the whole time. So how are we supposed to talk? I might have to leave him outside during parts of the consultation.

My dog is well behaved at some places like the vet or Petsmart, but he will not tolerate people in the yard or in his my house. And like I’ve already mentioned he misbehaves around other dogs at the park. I’m nervous about the cost. Private training in my house??? Uh, that could be expensive. I would rather go someplace than have the trainer come here, but they don’t do that.

Private training for 1 hour at a place near me is $60 per hour. That is the cost of going to the location. That place doesn’t do in-house training. So I’m assuming that is the least it will cost. The place I choose says they can train a dog to walk properly in 2 hours. I’m hoping 1.) it will work and 2.) it won’t be terribly expensive. If it is too expensive, I will probably try the $60 place near me.

SO…I probably won’t go after Demi Lovato tickets tomorrow. Private dog training, Demi concert and I would like to still go to Kripalu*. I have to cut something, and it will probably be Demi. If I can get a ticket in the first 8 rows, I probably will purchase it. The chances of that happening are very slim. I love Demi, but she’s not one of my top 10 favorite musicians or anything. I just thought it would be fun to go see Demi in DC.

If I do get a ticket, I will update this entry.

*About Kripalu, I have no idea whether Gabby Berstein will hold her workshop there next summer. It is 8 months away. Right now she is focusing on her new book that I’ve already preordered. The book comes out January 2. Anyway, I don’t know whether I can afford to go. I’ve added up everything and the price is almost what it cost me to go to Mexico! sigh. The issue is that I will only go if I have a private room which costs a ton. If I’m going to be around people all day at the workshop and in the cafeteria, I want my own private room to decompress.

I still want to go, but I want to be financially smart too.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Kelly Clarkson, Demi Lovato, Pink, Marren Morris, Carrie Underwood, Michelle Branch, Mariah Carey, Ariana Grande

The new Pink album is really good. I also like the new Kelly Clarkson, but Pink tops that.

TV of the week: basketball, news, RHONJ

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: Accused, Mental Illness Happy Hour, Missing Maura Murray

I have listened to the Mental Illness Happy Hour for years. I usually listen to it on Friday nights as I fall asleep.  I just started listening to Accused (#late). I’m not sure I like it. I like my true crime recent. I don’t like cold cases as much. I will probably give it one more episode before I give up.

Books of the week: I finished reading The Goddess: A Novel by Swan Huntley. Um, I gave it 3 stars. That is the lowest rating I have given a book this year. I usually don’t finish 3-star books because I have so many books I want to read, so why waste time on an average book?  The book starts off great, but I guessed the ending very early on. I dunno. It was okay enough for me to finish.

Now focusing on reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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I have a new planner! I’m using the Get To Work Book for a couple of weeks in 2017 and all of 2018. That means no more stickers. 😦  I love planning with stickers. It is my only creative outlet these days (sad, but true). And it relaxes me. I will still post my planner here and on Instagram, but it will look pretty boring. I’ve been eyeing the GTWB since it has been on the market and I finally decided that is all I need. I’m not spending any more money on stickers even though I use mostly printable stickers so I’m not spending a ton. I can easily go back to my Erin Condren if I want to use stickers for a week or two.

Plans for the Weekend: This isn’t really weekend related but I’m off from work on Tuesday and Thursday of next week. Tuesday is election day, and the day the dog trainer is coming to my house. This weekend I will clean up for the trainer. I don’t have a lot to clean up since I’ve been trying to tidy up as I go, but I hate cleaning.

I’m going grocery shopping on Saturday, and I have a test on Sunday morning. That is all I have planned. I get to play in my new planner!!  🙂 I’m so excited to get it on Saturday. It is at my mom’s house. I send all my bigger packages there.

I gotta go cook food for the rest of this week and next week. Thanks for reading! Have a nice weekend. 🙂

not lonely, just alone

A pic of my dog from one of our daily visits to the park. It wasn’t this week because this week was rainy. (We still went to the park every damn day, though. ha!)

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He hates having his pic taken which makes it hard to get good pics, but oh well.

I just finished splitting a few of my Abilify pills in half. I do it in advance, so I don’t have to do it daily. I guess that means I won’t be quitting within the next two weeks. I feel this undercurrent of depression in me. I’m scared as hell to stop Abilify right now. I would rather stop when I’m not feeling any kind of sadness or overwhelmed.

I’ve been going on and on about Harvey Weinstein in this blog. I was a big fan of Miramax and The Weinstein Company, so this is a huge story to me. I’ve always known he was a jerk, but I didn’t know about the harassment. I just want to say that I know he isn’t the only one in Hollywood sexually harassing people. Also, I know it happens in other industries.

Quick Depo-Provera update: I haven’t bled as of 10/11/17. I hope that doesn’t change.

Quick stalker update: I haven’t seen him on his moped all week. That is probably because I was able to go to the park at 11:30 instead of after I got off from work. The week isn’t over…

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Demi Lovato, Shania Twain, Jasmine Thompson, Jillette Johnson, Lana Del Rey, Sam Smith, Justin Timberlake, Broods

I didn’t expect to like the new Shania. I must admit that I thought she was over once her ex-husband stopped writing with her. (How sexist!) But her new album is decent.

TV of the week: Grey’s Anatomy, Big Little Lies

Big Little Lies is so good! Reese Witherspoon kills it. Everyone is good. Don’t watch season one of BLL and think the book is good. It’s not. Don’t bother. I might be a little bitter because I spent $8 on the Kindle edition of the book. Ugh. What a waste. Anyhow, I can’t wait for season 2. I don’t have HBO, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to see it. I might get the digital version or DVD. So good (when compared to the book).

Movie of the week: I saw Hidden Figures. Very good movie. It’s based on a true story. Janelle Monae is really something. Once again, everyone was good in it. I would recommend this movie to everyone. It was better than Big Little Lies. lol.

Podcast of the week: True Crime Garage. Love that podcast. I usually listen to at least two different podcasts a week. I will start listing those in this section. I’m obsessed with true crime. I can’t get enough of it. I went through a period where I only read true crime.

Books of the week: Ugh, I’m so disappointed. There’s no way I can finish the Vietnam book in less than 2 weeks. 😦 I will still probably read it over the weekend, but then I’ll stop because it is just wasting time to try to read a book I know I’m not going to finish. I hope they put the PBS special the book is based on on Netflix, or maybe I can catch it on PBS. I think it was on over the weekend. I would just buy the book, but at last check, it was $25. I’m not spending that much on a Kindle book.

Currently reading:

I have more library books I could read, but now I’m just trying to finish The Handmaid’s Tale. I always get a bunch of library books at one time. ugh. Too many books, not enough time.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: Staying in for the most part. I have to mail one thing. I don’t even have to go inside the post office. yay. I rarely get to stay in all weekend. I’m going to work at my part-time job and work on my school course.

This week off was pretty good. Only one bad thing happened: I lost power for almost 5 hours on Wednesday morning. I could’ve worked at my part-time job. I lost 5 whole hours! I would like to think I’m over it now, but I dunno. 😉 I had everything all planned out and then that happened.

Have an amazing weekend. Thanks for reading! 🙂

I’m just like my dog

I find out tonight whether or not I get a ticket to the Charlottesville benefit concert. I’ll update this entry with the news.

Update: I wasn’t selected to get a ticket. The good news is I don’t have to lose a whole day of life and deal with general admission. I hope it is live streamed.  Should be fun.

I have to leave my house two days in a row! 😦 That never happens during the week. I have to see my shrink tomorrow, and then on Thursday, I’m going to see the orthopedic surgeon for my carpal tunnel syndrome. I should have postponed the shrink visit, but I didn’t think about it until it was too late. ugh.

Things are not going great with the part time job. This project is tough. It isn’t for beginners. But I am going to try to rise to the occasion and be perfect. No sarcasm. I only have about two weeks left to do perfect work, or they will take me off the project. Last week I made silly mistakes. Silly! At least I have made some money. I’ve made $112 so far. I will get that even if I’m pulled off the project.

I want so much to do well. I think I can do this. I know I can. I’m also praying for a miracle. So there’s that.

The park is also getting tough. I no longer enjoy it as much as I used to even though I love nature. I hope this is just some weird phase. On Saturdays and Sundays, the parks have been full with dogs. I don’t mind people, but the dogs have to go! My dog barks at 20% of the people. He barks aggressively at 95% of the dogs. It wouldn’t be such a huge deal if everyone would leash their dog (like the rule says).

Just yesterday there was an unleashed dog with his owner. She asked, “Can he (the dog) just say hi (to my dog)?” UGH. My dog was already going crazy because he saw the dog. I replied, “He doesn’t get along with other dogs.” ROFL. Sad, but true. What was I supposed to say? Anyway, she somehow got her unleashed canine to get out of our way. I was getting ready to just go another way. But she said, “no” as in don’t go just because of us.

My dog is shy according to the vet. But why does he call attention to himself and bark at other dogs if he is so shy? Maybe he needs to be socialized. I have had him at doggie daycare, but it’s been at least two years since he’s been. Why pay for that if my mom can watch him? When he went to daycare, he ignored the other dogs according to the owner.

The vet is always trying to make conversation when I go for check ups. Maybe I will bring this up to see what she says. I’ve read a few things on the internet, and I don’t know what to think. I think he is just aggressive. Maybe that is why he was at the animal shelter in the first place.

I will keep going to the park every day because it isn’t always uncomfortable. Sometimes nothing occurs.

Can’t get away from them.

That also happened at the park on Monday. Did he mean he can’t get away from people of my ethnicity? Or did he mean dogs? Or was he talking about something totally different? I don’t want to assume. But it was the location and how he said it. It was kind of nasty.

We (my dog and I) were walking on a trail in the woods. It is a shortcut we often take. They were sitting in a secluded part of the park near the trail. I don’t know how old this guy was. I didn’t look directly at him. He sounded anywhere from 16-24. If he wants to get away from people of my race, he can easily move elsewhere. Besides, this is MY park. I walk to it. It is less than a 5-minute walk from where I live.  What did he do? Get in his car and drive there like so many people do?

Oh yes, I am very territorial. Just like my dog. I’ve always been this way. Anyhow, I just thought this was interesting. I think before I started A Course in Miracles I would have assumed the worst, would have thought about it non-stop and it would have overtaken my life for a few days. I’m not kidding. But now I just report on it and let it go. 🙂

Besides, maybe it had nothing to do with race. I think it is on my mind because there was a racial “incident” at the park recently. No one got hurt. No one would have known it happened if it weren’t for the media. That is all I can say about that.

Feels easier to just swim down

My dog is killing me. There is a reason why I don’t have kids, and there is probably a reason why I probably won’t get another dog even though I LOVE animals. I always wanted a house full of animals. That was my dream. I know of a couple who just rented about 15 goats to clean their property. I’m so envious. I would love to have rental goats. lol.

“Killing me” is a bit of an exaggeration. I used to put him in his crate when I ate. I recently stopped doing that because he would get so excited, sometimes he would use the bathroom in his crate. The new arrangement worked for a few days. But now he uses the bathroom on the dining room carpet whenever he freaking wants to!! (not when I’m eating) *%^#. I give up. I don’t show him I’m mad because he purposely would use the bathroom on the kitchen floor to piss me off. (I know some scientists disagree that animals try to piss people off).

When I give him his tick medicine on his neck or leave him outside too long, he’ll purposely use the bathroom in the house to make me mad. That is why now I give no reaction when he does it. Hopefully, that will help. Sigh. I just wish he would use the bathroom when I take him outside. I take him out so many times a day. Much more than I used to. I give up on trying to control his bathroom habit. I have no choice. I worry about it too much.

Only a few things are stressing me out right now, and this is one of them.  I love my dog so much, and if he would just stop using the bathroom in the house, I would have a lot less anxiety. I need to give this situation up. Stop trying to control it. I think the lesson in this is to love someone in spite of their flaws. The universe would give me a person instead of a dog for this issue, but I don’t come into contact with many people!

On second thought, I think the lesson is to stop trying to control the situation. Stop being a control freak! I think that is what the universe is trying to teach me. Hmmm.

I got the new Kindle Fire from Amazon on release day (Wednesday), and I didn’t even care. How sad. I had my last one for about 3 years. I treasure that Kindle. I only ordered the new one because I recently used a Samsung charger to charge my old Kindle and the battery started acting up! How strange. I use generic chargers all the time with no problem. Anyway, I just think it says a lot that I wasn’t even excited by the Kindle. There are people (yes, even in the United States) who would love a Kindle and I’m all “whatever.” Btw, I’m using both Kindles now.

Pathetic. Anyhow, I prefer my old Kindle over the new one only because it has “text to speech” in books. The new Kindle Fires don’t have that. So I will keep my old one for as long as possible even though I have to keep charging it.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Halsey, Paramore, Rachel Platten, The Bird and the Bee, Natalie Merchant, Shakira, Kelly Clarkson

Song of the week: Miranda Lambert – Tin Man (Unplugged)

TV of the week: House of Cards, NBA Finals

Movie of the week: I already mentioned I watched Moonlight. I’m thinking about rewatching but *SPOILERS* I don’t think I can watch the bullying scenes over again so soon. This stuff is going on right now, and it has gone on forever. There is a local story going on now with bullying in the schools. It reminded me of Moonlight. It makes me sad that children have to go through this and reminds me of my childhood (even though I was rarely touched…but I was touched, just not a lot).

I’m planning on watching Me Before You this weekend or Monday. I read and loved the book. I hope I like the movie. I’m planning on reading the sequel in a couple of months.

Books of the week: Holy shit! All the holds I had at the library came through. There is NO WAY I can read all these books and study for my certification test. So I’m focusing on The Secrets of My Life by Caitlyn Jenner and Shattered: Inside Hillary’s Doomed Campaign by Jonathan Allen and Amie Parnes.

The Caitlyn Jenner book is decent so far. I don’t know why it has average reviews. Well, she does come across as a little insincere (if you want to judge – lol), when talking about transgender teens and all these statistics.  But how do I know what’s really in her heart? I was never a Bruce Jenner fan. I’m indifferent towards Caitlyn. Well, I think she’s brave. Extremely brave. I’m pretty sure I would have stayed in the closet forever if I were in her situation. I know a lot of people don’t think she’s brave. I disagree.

Still reading: A Course in Miracles (always) and  A Course in Miracles Made Easy: Mastering the Journey From Fear to Love by Alan Cohen.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren

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Plans for the Weekend: Grocery shopping and studying. This is my last weekend before my test. At some point, I’m going to give up studying. I don’t know when it’ll be. I just feel like if I don’t know it by now…

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂