What if I’ve always been good enough?

I’m not a Fergie fanatic. I don’t keep up with her.  She can sing, and I like one of her solo songs. I like her songs with Wild Orchid better. I didn’t think her rendition of the National Anthem was terrible. It was DIFFERENT. Gasp! How dare she sing a jazzy version of the Anthem? (It has been done before, btw). I liked it. Whatever. I feel like I’m living on a different planet for liking it. I didn’t love it, but it was decent. Geez. Why all the bashing and hate? Because that is how people are. 

I got my Fitbit…on a Sunday. Thank you, USPS. They did something right. The Fitbit gods knew how much I wanted my Fitbit and now I have it. Of course, I love having a Fitbit again and blah, blah. BUT the app doesn’t work with my phone. I’m using the app on my laptop which isn’t convenient at all. If I want to see my stats on the go, I can’t because I don’t carry my laptop around.  I rarely travel with my laptop. In fact, I try not to use my laptop much at all. (I want it to last as long as possible). A lot of people on the Fitbit discussion board returned it when they found out it didn’t work with their Samsung Galaxy J7.

I’m keeping my Fitbit Flex until I can get something with a screen. I’m not going to run out and buy one now because I just bought this. Another thing I don’t like about it is the charging situation. Unless I’m staying in a hotel like the one in LA with USB ports, I won’t have a way to charge my Fitbit on longer trips. The hotels at the beach I go to do not have USB ports for charging. The state park I often go to definitely doesn’t have USB ports. But other than these two things, I love my Fitbit. 😉

In case anyone is wondering, I don’t really like the Samsung Galaxy J7, but I refuse to pay a lot for a phone. I never have. But maybe I should? The phone runs kind of slow even though I have an SD card and put as much as possible on it instead of putting it on the phone itself.  I would love a phone with a better camera. And I  would love more space because most of the apps can’t be installed on an SD card. I love my apps, and unfortunately, I’ve had to delete a bunch of them recently due to lack of space. I just deleted Uber on Sunday even though I didn’t want to in case Lyft isn’t available. Not that I use car services a lot, but anything could happen.

I went to my second cycling class on Sunday. I wasn’t the worst in the class the whole time! I was only the worst for 55 minutes out of 60. LOL. I suck. I think I don’t have the right form for cycling. Maybe it is because I’ve never been on a real bike before? I only burned 259 calories. The average is probably about 500 calories. This seals it. I’m not paying for cycling classes. But I do have 2 more classes left on my Groupon, so I am going two more times.

The sauna was good, but not as great as last time because I was worried about my Fitbit. I know that’s lame. :/ But I got a text saying it had been delivered right before I got into the building and then I texted my mom to see if it was at her house. She said no. Sigh. So half of the time in the sauna, I was worried about my package. Did it get delivered to the wrong address? Etc. Anyway, it was there. The mail carrier did a good job by hiding it.

I think I’m going to plan on buying a package for the sauna only during the winter. That’s when I need the sauna. It’s pretty much spring here, so I don’t feel like I need it until next January/February. I really love meditating in the sauna. There’s nothing like it.

Work and training are kicking my ass! Today is only my second day of training. I’m just hoping for the best. People that said, “Act like you are starting a new job when you start training” weren’t lying. AHHHHH.

I hope I get to the park today. It will be near 80 degrees. I have to work overtime so I won’t be able to go to the park until near 4PM. Um, even the thought of how crowded the park will be makes me nervous. Gotta go get my brain ready for this long day. 🙂

Update: The park was excellent today. We (my dog and I) arrived around 3:45 and stayed for 35 minutes. We barely saw any dogs OR people. When I think it’s going to be a nightmare, it’s not. I need to stop trying to predict how many people will be at the park. I’m almost always wrong. I’m such a control freak. Anyway, tomorrow I have to work “late” too so I’ll probably go to the park at the same time. Watch tomorrow will be a total nightmare! Hahaha. I can’t stop trying to predict and control.


I want more best days

This has been the best February ever as far as weather is concerned. I have only been going to the park about twice a week because it has been rainy, but the temps have been in the 60s and 70s!  I bitched about the weather in January so much so guess who is so grateful for this weather? My electric bill for January was $290. I kid you not. I thought it would be more than that because it was so cold and my house has not been weatherized. I have to do something different for next winter.

Wednesday at the park was one of the best walks I’ve had in months. I saw a bunch of people on bikes, but no dogs. It was great.

I’m going to start skipping two days of taking Abilify next week. I’m scared. Maybe terrified. I hope I don’t see any side effects. I’ve been taking Abilify every other day for about 3 weeks. I can’t afford to ever go through withdrawal. Who can? If “Abilify withdrawal” were a thing, maybe there would be resources, but there’s nothing. Sigh. I would like to point out that I’m on a very low dose of Abilify and I still can’t just quit it cold turkey.

I shouldn’t talk about work when I suspect someone from work may be reading. But I’m gonna do it anyway. Only 2 people have gone through this training in our department. I was picked in the next group. We are considered the first real group to go to training. She chose me and the 4 other people because we have good reading comprehension. Lol. Thanks! 🙂 We have to do a lot of reading for our job.

I just wish I knew the schedule. Training starts on Monday, and I know next to nothing. I do know that we have to post on a discussion board almost daily. I HATE THAT! And they even have that ‘like’ shit like Facebook. I’m going to be the last person to post every day so people won’t have time to like or even read my posts. What kind of crap is this? Are we back in college or high school? Ick.  The training will take place at home (thank god), but we have 2-3 hour meetings via the phone and internet at least a few days a week. It might be every day. I will probably have a lot more to say about training because soon this will be taking over my life.

Update: I received the training schedule for the next week and a half. Is this how they are going to do things? Training lasts until the end of June, but we only get a week and a half of the schedule?  Well, I won’t be able to plan for things in advance. I have a doctor’s appointment already scheduled for March. I can’t change that. It is very hard to get an appointment with him. I only have 2 hours off that day. Hopefully, it won’t affect my training.

I lost my Fitbit Zip about 2 months ago. It fell off my pants and eventually, my mom found it outside her house. It was ruined by the time she found it. I had that for over 2 years. I miss my Zip. 😦  I finally ordered a Fitbit Flex 2. It is on backorder. It should be here within 2 weeks. I can’t wait to finally have my walking stats again. The only thing I don’t like about it is that I have to sync it with the app to find out my stats. I prefer the Zip because I could tell how many steps I had by just looking at it.

Update!! – My Fitbit shipped. It should be here Wednesday, but I probably won’t pick it up from my mom’s until Sunday. Woohoo! So excited. YAY. 🙂 🙂

Update #2 – MY FITBIT CAME ON A SUNDAY! I totally mean to yell. I have it right now. It is charging. Total yayness!!111!!!

These school shootings are scary. I don’t know what it feels like to send a kid to school and wonder about it. All I know is that my sister is a teacher. And this is some terrifying shit! It could happen anywhere.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8):  Kelly Clarkson, Lissie, Zedd, Anna Nalick, Justin Timberlake, Ben Platt, Kesha, Kendrick Lamar

I forgot how much I love listening to Lissie’s music. I was thinking about going to the 9:30 Club in DC to see her on tour. I forgot that they do general admission for their shows and  I don’t do general admission. Oh well. This is probably for the best. I don’t need any more plans. Her new album comes out March 23. I can’t wait that long! :/

TV of the week: Curling, basketball, PLL, Celebrity BB

I don’t know what to think about Celebrity Big Brother. It’s like regular Big Brother on speed. I want Shannon to win even though she has next to no chance. I still like Meta World Peace, but I’m disappointed because he didn’t bother to watch one episode before agreeing to be on the show. Ugh. Yes, I take BB very seriously. It is definitely one of my favorite shows. I love Grey’s (when I can binge watch it) and Big Brother.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Lowe Post, The Lively Show, Open Run, Ryen Russilo Show, All In with Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage

Books of the week: Unfortunately I didn’t finish reading any books this week. Now reading –

I watched the Aaron Hernandez trial live every single day. I don’t know what the book can tell me that I don’t already know. I didn’t follow his NFL career that much because he was a New England Patriot and I hate the Patriots. I’m hoping to learn more about his history in this book. **Possible spoiler** The news of his death hit me HARD. I was shocked and saddened. I remember barely being able to work for an hour after hearing the news. I kept thinking about his girlfriend/wife and their kid. So sad. Plus, he had CTE. And this is exactly why I no longer watch football.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get To Work Book


Plans for the Weekend: This is probably the busiest weekend I’ve had in a while. I don’t like busy weekends, but most of these things I’m choosing to do. On Saturday I’m working 3 hours of overtime. Then I’m taking my mom and dad grocery shopping to two stores. (My dad is coming back to the States tomorrow). After that, I’m picking up my taxes. I still don’t know how much I’m getting back, but I do know I have a refund.

On Sunday, I’m going to spin class for an hour and then directly to the sauna. I still have to make a decision on whether I want to spend money on spin class or the sauna. This weekend will have a lot to do with my decision. I may decide to just commit to neither and do drop-ins.

I hate being out all weekend. Sunday is more of a choice and Saturday is just doing things I have to do. I didn’t do any school work this week. I’ll start doing it next week. Maybe. I’m working overtime every day except Monday next week.

Thanks for reading this entry. Have a great weekend! 🙂

I wanna suffer for my sins

I have a feeling someone I know is reading this blog.  Someone said something. (vague enough?) I stopped checking all stats during late December 2017, so I have no idea what’s going on. Now I’m paranoid, but I won’t check my stats. Besides, it won’t tell me exactly who is reading. The stats aren’t that detailed. I hope no one I know is reading, especially someone from work!

I’m going to cycling class on Sunday. I hope I’m not the worst in the class again. 🙂 Then right after that, I have a session at the sauna scheduled. The buildings share the same parking lot. So perfect. This may be my last sauna session until next winter. I’ll see.

Gabby Bernstein and I had another nice chat. Okay, not really. It wasn’t like it was in LA. But there were only 20 people in the chat. I’m in a closed Facebook group she recently started, and she had a private chat scheduled with any of the 377 people in the group. Only 20 people made it live.

I asked my question in advance, and she answered it first! And she took her time. The answer was so helpful. I get it now. I asked her what judgment had to do with debt because Gabby previously said everything comes to judgment (paraphrasing). She answered my question by going into what A Course in Miracles says. Also, she said don’t focus on the debt because that’s living in lack, focus on earning and having fun. I’m simplifying her answer. It took her about 3-5 minutes to answer the question. I have to watch the video replay. I was so excited she was answering my question. I probably missed something.

I’m the queen of living in lack. I have to catch myself constantly. I was surprised she picked my question and how in-depth she went. She even said she wished she could talk to me and ask questions. I don’t use my real name on Facebook, so she had no idea that I’m the person from LA with no friends. I want to keep it that way until I see in person at her at a Kripalu retreat. Like I’ve said, I feel like I let her down and I don’t want her to know that I still don’t have any friends.

Work update: Unfortunately, the people who have been in training are being really honest about how hard the training is. I was really looking forward to it, but regular work is hard and stressful enough. I don’t need the training to be hard too. Pout. At least I know what to expect.

Since I can’t take my birthday week off in May, I have the last week of July off. I’m definitely not planning on going anywhere. Everything is expensive and crowded during that time of summer. So I’m staying home. I’m still going to try to get my birthday off. But if the training is really challenging, I’m not going to miss a whole day of information just because I don’t want to work. I should find how hard it is soon. Training starts next week.

Update: It looks like I can get my birthday off! My manager just told me I should be comfortable with the new system by then so taking a whole day off won’t hurt too much. Yay!

My “Escape From DC” isn’t until June, but I’m already stressed. It’s not just about the no cell service part. It’s my dog! When I was booking the trip, I decided to read the rules, and they have a rule about barking dogs. Um. My dog barks when he hears something. He is a watchdog (not really, but you know what I mean). As long as there isn’t noise, I’ll be fine. They give one warning for a barking dog, and then they ask the person to leave!!

He barks when he hears a vehicle pass by the house. God forbid people are talking outside. I am going to take my noise machine with me and turn it all the way up. That might solve any issue. There are about 20 tiny houses on 80 acres of property. How well are they spaced out? I have no idea.

I leave my noise machine on 24/7 at home, and he rarely barks. But I also don’t have close neighbors. I know it is pointless to worry about this. It’s also stressful because of the secret thing. I still don’t know what I’m telling my mom. We are supposed to go to the grocery store that weekend, so I really have to come up with something.

It would be nice if I felt like I could tell the truth, but I don’t think she would ever forgive me. 😦 I’m not lying. I’m just going to ask if we can go to the grocery store the next week and not give a reason why. Sigh. Between my dog and my mom, I don’t know if this was a good idea.

I feel like this entry is all over the place. Sorry. My mind is not functioning correctly. I’m posting this during lunch while I’m having a dance party. lol

Don’t go knockin’ on my door

This guy on Instagram is annoying me. He has been DMing me with heart emojis. He wants to “get to know me better.” Please. Go away. Should I just tell him I’m asexual? That would be the truth.  I’ve been ignoring him. This isn’t the first time this has happened. If this happens to me, I’m sure pretty girls get all kind of advances on social media. That must be irritating.

Yes, I’m on social media. But I have NO DESIRE TO BE SOCIAL. It’s not my fault they call it social media. Stupid name. I just want to share pics once a week. I don’t care about likes or whatever. I’m just sharing. Like I’m sharing here. Is this social media too? Why does everything have to be social? Ugh.

I was supposed to start this entry off with my first sauna experience. It was divine! I was in a private room. All the rooms are private, but you can bring people with you if you want. People said they take their Kindles with them in the sauna, so I thought, “Why not take mine in the sauna with me?” I didn’t need it. I meditated and did breath work for the whole 40 minutes!

I could get used to this. 😉 What do I do? Cycling class or go to the sauna? Cycling is a little cheaper, and I like the feeling of working out. Hmmm. I dunno. Just due to me being able to easily meditate, it makes me want to choose the sauna. I have to use my 2nd sauna session within the next two weeks, or I lose it. I will definitely use it. I found my bathing suit. I had it on completely in the beginning, but it got so hot (it was about 130 degrees!), I took my top off. TMI? LOL.

I might go next time after I go to cycling class. I hear going to a sauna is great after a workout. The woman asked me if I sweated and I said kind of incredulously, “YES!” She said that some people don’t sweat their first time which shocks me. I have never sweated that much not even in cycling class. It’s 130+ degrees. How can people not sweat? Interesting how the body works.

My paycheck is $25 more due to the tax reform bill that recently passed. I’m not convinced that I won’t have to pay more in taxes when my taxes are due in 2019. But I’ll take the extra money for now. I really need it. AND my 401k repayment loan also just ended. So overall, my paycheck is $72 more. Thank God.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8): Justin Timberlake, Kesha, Shania Twain, Anna Nalick, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, Camilla Cabello, Paramore

TV of the week: Celebrity BB, PLL, Olympics, basketball

Should I boycott the Olympics? How much did they know? Who knew? Did everyone know? If they did, I believe the Olympics should be boycotted. Larry Nassar’s crimes disgusted me. I tried not to keep up with too much of it so now I don’t know whether I should boycott. I need to read more about it. I’m pleading ignorance for now.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Joel Osteen, The Lively Show, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage, Fresh Air

Books of the week: I finished The Four Tendencies: The Indispensable Personality Profiles That Reveal How to Make Your Life Better (and Other People’s Lives Better Too) by Gretchen Rubin. 4 stars. I did NOT finish Fire and Fury: Inside the Trump White House by Micahel Wolff. It was too much talk of his staff and Russia. You know how I feel about Russia.

Now reading –

Recently I’ve been having a hard time focusing on leisurely reading. That’s why I wanted to take my Kindle into the sauna room. I thought I would make a big dent in my reading. I’m going to have to force myself to read before I get tired and I should stop reading in bed. It makes me fall asleep.

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Erin Condren planner –



Plans for the Weekend: I’m dropping off my taxes this weekend. I hope I get a nice refund. Please. 😉 I’m also finally taking my test. And that’s about it. I’m enjoying my 3 days off from work. Training starts on February 19. I wish it were starting next week, but I can’t control that. I’m glad I checked my work emails this morning. If I hadn’t, I would have missed an opportunity to sign up for overtime for this whole month! I said I wasn’t going to check my emails because off from work means no work. Anyway, I was able to sign up, and now I’m working OT almost every day after the 17th. I so need the extra money. I don’t know when I will have part-time work.

Thanks so much for reading. Have a marvelous weekend! 🙂

Been a prisoner of the past


130 days until I go on my “Escape from DC” weekend getaway

It’s never too early to start a countdown. 🙂  If you didn’t see my update, I did book the trip for my dog and me. I will blog more my concerns later this week. Doesn’t everyone need an escape from DC? I’m so sick of hearing about Russia. I haven’t watched the news in a week. I want to watch the news, but I find the Russia stuff so boring. I just don’t care. Yes, they interfered with the election. Trump knew about it. How much can the media talk about this? I’m so annoyed.

Cycling class went well. Everyone was really nice! They even put my name on my locker with a welcome sign. Wow. They do that with all the newbies. I only burned 262 calories during the class. That’s low but, it is more than I burn when I go to the park or when I get on my treadmill (most of the time). I think my performance was so bad when compared to everyone else because 1.) I’m rusty and 2.) I don’t have the cycling technique down.

Now my goal is to burn more than 262 calories next time. They rank all the users in the class with usernames, and I was the worst all throughout the class! ROFL. Btw, that is a choice. It isn’t mandatory. I chose to pick a username and have my stats against all others in the class. I’m not competing with them though. I’m competing with myself. I want to get better each time.  I don’t know if I’ll ever be good at cycling. I just know that I’m glad to burn that many calories in an hour.

There are two things that might keep me back from being a regular after I’m done with my Groupon – 1.) THE SHOES. Omg. I cannot figure out how to get the cycling shoes on OR off the bike. In the past when I did cycling, I would just wear my tennis shoes. I really wish we could do that at this place. I don’t want to be the person who ALWAYS needs help with her shoes. It’s embarrassing!

2.) The price. $22 for a drop in class is the best option for me. I can go once a month if I want. Their packages involve too much commitment, and they are expensive.  I didn’t like how the woman at the front desk asked me whether I wanted to sign up for a package on the way out. Um, Hello?? I still have 3 classes left on my Groupon. Why would I sign up for a package now? Next time I will say I’m just doing drop-ins.

Overall, it was a really nice experience. But I hate the damn cycling shoes. Oh, I forgot to mention one thing I LOVE about these classes is that they also do strength training with weights during the cycling class! I’m so in love with this place.

The cycling place gave me a 2 for $35 sauna pass. I’m totally using that! Once I found out it can help with seasonal affective disorder, I was all in. It also has other benefits like pain and stress relief, burning up to 600 calories (just by sitting there!!!), and skin purification. I think I’m going on Wednesday morning for my first session. BUT I might have my period* and I also have nothing to wear. I own one bathing suit. I’ll see if I can find it. I barely have any shorts.

*My freaking OB/GYN gave me the birth control pills that give me a period about every 25 days. I could strangle her for that. So unnecessary. I will talk to her about it next time I’m there. Or maybe my period will disappear while I’m on BC like it does for some lucky women.

Screw the critics! You know what I’m going to talk about now. Like New Kids on the Block said, “Who gives a damn about what critics say”. Like I tweeted, the Justin Timberlake album is not bad. Yeah, that’s not glowing praise. To be blunt, the lyrics are bad overall. But the music is decent/good. I don’t think this is going to be album of the year material (I hope not!!!), but I enjoy it for what it is. Flannel is still my favorite song on the album.

After listening to the album, I think I would enjoy seeing him on tour. I bet the songs live will be so good. His band is awesome. But I’m not going because I booked my Getaway from DC. No more fun for me. I’m content with the plans I have. I think…

As far as his Super Bowl performance goes, it was very blah. Maybe he was trying too hard to be entertaining? All he had to do is what he does on tour. That’s it. I loved that he did Mirrors because that is one of the best pop songs ever. I’m just glad that the New England Patriots lost. I really hate them. 🙂

In case anyone missed my LA posts. Here are the links:

Gotta go. See ya later!

Learn to let go

I guess I’m weaning myself off Abilify again. I’ve started taking a dosage every other day. It wasn’t planned, but one day I just skipped so I figured why not keep skipping days. After a couple of weeks, I will probably skip two days and then 3 days. I haven’t figured it all out yet.

It looks I got picked for training. :/ I kind of want to go to training just to do something different, but I’ve heard it’s hard. I love a challenge, but not when it comes to working since other things like my livelihood depends on it. However, since I can’t take off time until July or August, I have 3 days off at the end of next week! Yay. Celebrate!! I was so nervous about asking for time off on such short notice. But fuck it. They won’t let me get my birthday vacation so what’s wrong with asking for time off next week? I could have taken the whole week off. I probably should have.

I have to book my Getaway from DC weekend vacay soon. I’m still nervous about not having cell service, and I feel guilty for keeping it a secret. I just have to get over it.

UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just booked the Getaway! I was a nervous wreck the whole time. OMFG. I am going to a cabin/tiny house in the woods on June 15th and I’m returning on June 17th. A weekend getaway. I’m still nervous. WTF did I do? My dog better behave. Ack!

I enjoyed the Grammys this year. It wasn’t great, but I had no expectations, and that’s why I think I enjoyed the show. The performances (for the most part) were good. I don’t care about the awards as much anymore. I used to care because the awards would affect sales and that does matter to the musicians. Well, Kesha’s song, “Praying” went back in the top ten on iTunes, so the Grammys still do affect sales somewhat. To all the people that like “Praying,” you’ll probably like the album so buy that too! 😉

I won’t even comment on the Grammy boss saying that women need to step up. What BS. I listen to mostly female musicians, so I’m not having any of that. Whatever. Ugh.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8):  Kesha, Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Kelly Clarkson, Sam Smith, Taylor Swift, Brintey Spears, Carly Rae Jepsen

Bad reviews are coming in for Justin Timberlake’s album (by music critics). I’m not shocked. His music is very hit or miss. If I don’t like the new album, I’m so glad I’m not seeing him on tour when he comes to DC. I would still probably enjoy myself, but a concert is always better when you like the new music. I’m still excited to watch him at the Superbowl halftime. I don’t watch football anymore because it kills people. #BoycottFootball But I will watch halftime.

I don’t get why people are still so mad over the Janet Jackson prank, yet they aren’t as mad about JT doing a movie with Woody Allen. Don’t get me started on Woody Allen. Gross! (for lack of a better word).

TV of the week: basketball, news, Grey’s Anatomy, PLL

I’m excited about the winter Olympics. I love curling. It is definitely my favorite thing to watch. I’m also thrilled about Celebrity Big Brother. lol.  I want Metta World Peace to win so bad. I heart him. I also like Brandi Glanville. I don’t think Brandi will win. She’s a shit stirrer on purpose. That rarely works, but we’ve never had a Celebrity BB before. So who knows?

Movie of the week: I’m 90% through The King’s Speech. I’ll try to finish it this weekend.

Podcasts of the week: Mentally Chill, The Mental Illness Happy Hour, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage

Books of the week: It’s been a while since I’ve done this section. I’ve finished a few books and started new ones. I finished reading White Like Her: My Family’s Story of Race and Racial Passing by Gail Lukasik (4 stars), My Lovely Wife In the Psych Ward: A Memoir by Mark Lukach (5 stars), and Judgement Detox: Release the Beliefs That Hold You Back From Living a Better Life by Gabrielle Bernstein (5 stars). TWO books with 5 stars in one month?? That never happens.

Now reading:

Planner update: Plans of the week in my Get to Work Book (coming Sunday)

Plans for the Weekend: A spin class on Sunday! I’m excited. Obvs. I’m also going grocery shopping and doing school work. I’m just looking forward to only working two days next week.

I hope to go the park today. I haven’t been since Saturday. It was about 60 on Saturday. Today will be 55 degrees. I got on my treadmill twice in the past 11 days! How sad to be so excited about that. But my dog is the problem. I can’t leave him alone while I’m on the treadmill. He’ll make a big mess. Last Monday he was at the vet being boarded (LA trip). And this Tuesday, I left him outside while I was on the treadmill. Obviously, I can’t leave him out there if it is really cold so that is why I’m glad I signed up for 4 classes of cycling.

Every winter I need to sign for some kind of class since I’m not going to the park every day when it’s cold. I used to go to the park as long as it was over 35 degrees. Now I won’t go unless it is at least 45. Sometimes I feel sick (like I’m getting a cold) when I go to the park when it’s really cold.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

I’m still hanging on

Woohoo! I’m going to a cycling class this Sunday. Yeah, it’s kind of like SoulCycle. I’ve never been to a cycling studio before. I usually just go to the regular gym and take a cycling class. The class is usually only 45 minutes, but they are doing a Superbowl special. It will be 60 minutes. More calories burned!

I like that they let people reserve what bike they want online. The only problem for newbies is that you might not know which bike you like until you get there. I picked a bike with not too many bikes around it, of course.  Another issue for me is that I’ve NEVER been on a real bike so I’m not good at cycling. But I always sweat, so it is still a workout even if I don’t have the best technique.

I have 3 more classes left after this Sunday. After that, I may not go back. The classes are pretty expensive. More expensive than most yoga classes!

Work news: It looks like I can’t take a real vacation until after August. Um, is that even legal? LOL. I will find out soon if I’m in the next training class for the new system. I always go on a birthday vacation. This year I might not even get my birthday off. All I know is that I’m not working all day on my birthday. I’ll take only 2 hours off if I have to.

Too bad because I found a cute basement like studio apartment thingy. (I don’t know what to call it). It is 4 short blocks from the beach. My dog could come! It could be great. I was going to spend 3 nights there with my mom and my dog since we haven’t had a real beach vacation in a while. Not happening because I won’t be able to take 4 days off from work in May even if I don’t get picked for training this time.

SO here’s the new plan: You have to promise not to tell ANYONE. It is going to be a secret vacation. Only my dog and I are going. Shhhhhh! It is called,  “Escape from DC.” It is a tiny house in the woods, and I think it’ll be great. I would invite my mom if the tiny house were a little bigger. But two people and a dog in a tiny space with no separate rooms doesn’t sound like a vacation to me.

It’s going to cost about $350 for a weekend in June with dog fees. They don’t tell you where it is. But it is an “escape from DC” so I’m guessing it is in or near Northern Virginia. It would probably bother some people not to know exactly where it is, but I don’t mind. I’ll know a week beforehand.

What does bother me is that there probably won’t be any cell service according to the website. I have to text my mom once a day, or she’ll think something terrible happened. I guess I could just drive 20 minutes out and find someplace with cell service just so I can text my mom. That’s annoying, but I have to text her or she might call the police. (She doesn’t drive so she can’t just stop by my house). I could just tell her where I’m going. What a concept! But I’ve already recently been on a solo trip. I don’t want to act like I NEED another one because I don’t. If the tiny house were bigger or made differently, she would be more than welcomed to come along.

I hope nothing comes up. “Emergency! Can you take me (where ever) or call me”?  That would suck. My dad will probably be back in the States in June too. (He’s coming back in late February, but I don’t know how long he is staying). So anything could come up. I have two people to worry about! Lol. Ugh, I hate not having cell service. If people knew where I was, then I would just tell them I won’t have cell service so don’t bother trying to contact me. But it’s a secret.

Other than that, I don’t mind a vacation “off the grid.” I’ll be with my dog, and we’ll explore, and I also have my electronics with me with stuff downloaded so I’ll be fine.

In summary, if I get to take a week-long vacation, I’m going to the beach with my mom and dog for my birthday. If I’m going to be in training, I’m going on my secret “get away from DC” vacay with just my dog in June for a weekend. I have to book something soon, or all options might sell out.

I really can’t believe they expect me to work all through the spring and summer. The only good thing is that there might be overtime opportunities because someone has to work while we are being trained. So I will probably sign up for that.

I have an appointment with my “old” psychiatrist. It was impossible to get an appointment with someone new. I really wanted a female this time, and that was probably the issue. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to see my doctor until March 12. I will run out of my anti-depressant before than. Oh well. I’ll just cut them in half or something. I might have a prescription around here somewhere, but it’s been 4 months since I’ve been to the doctor and I don’t know where anything is from that long ago.

More on all this later. Bye! 🙂