Is it just part of the process?

Countdown:

17 days until I’m off from work for a full week

I’ve been working 24/7. I finally have at least 10 minutes to catch my breath. It’s my fault. I need to be more structured when it comes to the tarot biz. However, I only have a mentor for 3 months so I’m trying to get in as much as I can while she’s around. I go from working my day job to working the tarot. I can’t wait to be off from work for a week, but that time will probably be 95% tarot and 5% doctor appointments. It would be nice just to have one day off of not doing any work. I’m going to try to do that. As of right now, I’m going with the Wednesday of that week.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

We started working on the new system at work. So far, I am really slow at it. It took me 5+ years to really get used to the old system and now, they change it. I hope it doesn’t take me too long to get used to the new system. We started training in March. I have forgotten so much. I have to look up almost every single thing. That is why I’m so slow.

Enough about that work. Now let’s talk about tarot work. I joined a tarot community that assigns people free email readings to do. How awesome. There are drawbacks, of course. But the best thing is that I don’t have to ask people do they want a free reading. I was shocked I got picked. I thought they would never pick me, but I got a free reading request the first night I signed up! The question is pretty detailed. She wants a little of everything covered. Uh, I don’t usually do that in readings. I might talk it over with my mentor tomorrow. But how much can I tell her? I don’t want to cross any boundaries.

(UPDATE: I just got a request for another free reading. Ummmm, I haven’t even done the first one yet. I’m grateful for the opportunity. But I’m shaking at the same time. This one is 100% relationship based. Oh dear.)

UPDATE pt 2: I now have 4 readings to do. There goes working on my intro video.

Another good thing is the feedback. On Facebook, I didn’t always get feedback. Now I get feedback PLUS I get rated from 1 star to 5 stars. LOL. Oh, God. This could really suck! I’m doing the reading on Saturday. I’m anxious about it. Please give me at least 4 stars!

FUCK MY THERAPIST! Okay, this time we actually had a decent session. She even took notes!! But she didn’t know I don’t have any friends. How many times do I have to say it? This time she typed it into her notes, so I think she got it. Why fuck my therapist? Because she wants me to talk to my dad. NOT HAPPENING!!!1111!!!!!

Should I lie? Nah. Should I tell her I just didn’t want to do it? I will probably do something like that. After I told her he lives mostly in {insert country name}, she asked whether he spoke English. ROFL. Uh, yes. Very well.  He was born in Maryland and lived most of his life here. Anyway, my appointment is on Tuesday, right after work. I might see my dad on Sunday. But I’m not saying a thing besides “hi.”

Oh, and the main reason I don’t talk to my dad is social anxiety. Simple as that. I admire my dad. He is a Vietnam Vet. He is smart. I don’t agree with him when it comes to everything. For example, he doesn’t think the football players should kneel. FYI, not all veterans agree with him. Some think they fought for the right of the football players to have freedom of speech. What a novel concept! So there’s that. I think the whole thing is stupid. Stop playing the National Anthem at football games. Whatevs. I don’t watch football anymore because it kills people. Not because of some kneeling BS.

(Not that the football players are kneeling for BS. Just wanted to state I know they are kneeling for important stuff they believe in. I think the “controversy” is BS).

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Dave Matthews Band, James Bay, Janelle Monae, Florence + the Machine, Sugarland, Demi Lovato, Amy Winehouse, Hailee Steinfield

TV of the week:  Big Brother, The Handmaid’s Tale, The Bachelorette (judge away)

I watched The Bachelorette because they visited my hometown. It’s so sad that I’ve only been to one of the places they visited. It’s not like they went to touristy places. They just went to everyday places. I’ve wanted to go to one of the places they visited for the longest time. I just keep going to the same places. Anyway, I like Becca (the bachelorette), so I’m going to keep watching until the end of this season. I’ve never watched the show before, but I know the concept. I don’t watch it live, so I hope no one spoils the ending. I have to stay off social media… especially Twitter.

Oh and one of the guys called where I live “country”. Okay, Mr. Elitist or should I just call him ignorant? I’m sure tons of people living in the city were laughing at that. The country is at least an hour away from here, dude. Thanks for stopping by. I love the country, btw. I’m trying to move there. I want to own a house there. It’s just so far out. I don’t want to spend a ton on gas just to get places, but it’s probably worth it.

Movie of the week: I watched two comedy specials last week. I can’t believe I’m watching comedy like I used to back in the day. So weird. I watched Kamau Bell’s latest (soo good!) and Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette. I enjoyed both. Nanette was more serious and so necessary. If you want serious comedy, watch that. If you want to laugh at the ridiculousness, this country has become watch Kamau’s special. Can’t go wrong with either option. Should I watch David Chappelle next? I probably won’t because I haven’t heard great things about any of his recent specials.

Podcasts of the week: Fresh Air, Online Marketing Made Easy, The Biddy Tarot Podcast, The Mind Your Business Podcast, True Crime Garage, Unsolved Murders, Why is This Happening?

Books of the week: Now reading:

Plans for the weekend: Tarot, tarot, tarot. What else is there to do? I’m working OT on Saturday. I also have to do that free reading. I hope I do a good job. On Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping.

I also want to record another video for my tarot website. I’m not sure I’m going to get it done this weekend, but I want to try. This one I want to be more professional. I’m going to attempt to use iMovie for the first time ever! Ugh, this might take some time. There goes my weekend! I hope I can make it good. Oh, and I also started a biz Twitter account. I’m not sure how long I’m staying on there. I don’t like having two Twitter accounts. One for fake business shit and one for real stuff I care about. It doesn’t sit right with me. I feel like I’m fake on the biz Twitter because I probably won’t tweet anything bad about Trump or politics at all. I do follow NPR on that account though. LOL.

Anyway, I’m glad I made time to do this entry because I don’t want this blog to die just yet. Thanks for stopping by. Have a great weekend! 🙂

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