Just let me live my life

Countdown:

15 days until my weekend getaway

I went to the tarot coaching call on Monday night. We have three more calls left before the class ends. I’m not going to any more of them. No, I’m not letting them “win.” I’m simply not advanced enough to participate in this class. To be more specific, I cannot do this shit LIVE and on camera. This is why I want to do email and YouTube readings in the future. Everything is not for everyone.

Julie (not her real name) clearly doesn’t want to be paired with me for readings because I don’t talk enough. I guess I’m not engaged enough. And probably other things.  She mentioned that so I know that to be true. Other people probably feel that way too. Some people are nice. But others are not so understanding of shy, introverted people. That seems to be the norm in the Western world. For all I know, Julie could be an introvert too. Whatever. It’s not about her.

The video meeting on Monday went okay, but when we were doing advanced channeling, I saw next to NOTHING. Why? Because I was so nervous and anxious. When I do channeling on my own, I do see things. I saw my spirit guide. I got a message. Anyway, I think I did okay on the reading. I read for Vera (not her real name). She asked a similar question to another person 2 weeks ago, and I pulled the same card for the present she got last time from another reader! So I think I’m good at doing the tarot. I’m just not good LIVE.

I’m excited about starting my tarot reading website. I will probably start working on it this summer. Yep, that is much sooner than I had originally planned. I’m off for a week starting July 30th. I would like to work on it full-time then. I’m going to start doing free career readings on Facebook very soon. I’m looking for places to start advertising. The one place I picked doesn’t seem keen on career readings. Everyone wants to know about their love life or how a person near death is doing. My mom has been asking for another reading, btw. So I must not suck that much. 😉

UPDATE: I could erase this whole entry. So much has changed since yesterday. But I will keep this up. Nothing bad happened, but I have 2 new ways I could make extra money. However, I’m not applying for another 6 weeks. More on all this later.

I have kind of decided what I want to do if I lose my job suddenly within the next two years. I either want to get my CDL license and drive a truck or move to Grenada, Nicaragua. If you knew me, you would ROFL about me getting my CDL license. I grew up terrified of big trucks…even when they were parked! I’m still kind of scared. But maybe if I get trained, I would be okay??? Lol.

Truck drivers get paid decently ($45,000 to $80,000 seems to be the range) and you get to do your own thing AKA not much dealing with other people. I’m not motivated by money, but I am motivated by spending hours by myself. Plus, my dog MIGHT be able to be with me every day (like he is now). I did some research, and police officers apparently don’t respect truck drivers at all. Sigh. I didn’t know that until I read many drivers complaints.  All of these complaints were from white males, btw. Of course, cars don’t respect truck drivers. I see that when I’m driving. And a female truck driver? Need I say anymore? Drawbacks include I wouldn’t be able to work on my tarot business easily or at all and drive a truck. And my dog might not be able to be with me on the truck. It seems to depend on the company. There’s also the training which isn’t cheap. I think the price range is $3,000 to $6,000. Ouch. If I were to get a job quickly after training, that price isn’t bad. But who knows?

The other option is moving out of the United States. I would move to Nicaragua. I’m also considering other places. The places I’m considering retiring to are multiple cities in South America, Central America or maybe Mexico. In fact, I’m planning on retiring and moving out of the US as soon as I can. I need to get rid of ALL debt first. Back to Nicaragua. I think that is best for NOW. I wouldn’t stay there forever.

I’ve been looking at house rentals in Grenada, Nicaragua. I would consider apartments, but what if the walls are thin like in America? I can’t live like that. Been there. On the other hand, what if the walls are much thicker? Then I would consider a condo/apartment. Since I don’t know about the walls, it has to be a house. I see a great house on the market now. It is $350 a month. 1 bedroom, 1 bath. It’s furnished. The rent includes a cleaning service. My concern would be safety. It is in the city center but can I walk to the grocery store alone? I won’t have a car, so another requirement is that I’m able to walk or take decent transportation to get necessities.

It’s a gorgeous house. It has a nice outside patio like area. Too bad I can’t grab that now. Can it stay on the market for 2-3 years? 😉 I’m also concerned about internet access. I need the internet to run my tarot business or to make any kind of money. If I were retired, I wouldn’t be concerned about the internet. Of course, I’m also concerned about my dog. I have to be able to take my dog. Some of the houses I was looking at in South America, do not allow dogs. 😦 I don’t know about this particular house in Grenada.

I just feel *a little* better with plans if I lose my job suddenly. Yes, even though the thought of driving a truck is a little scary, it excites me. I just wish the training were a little cheaper, but maybe I will be able to afford it in cash if I pay off my debt. I’ve wanted to move out of the US since I was 12. Needless to say, moving temporarily to Grenada thrills me. No, I don’t hate the US. I just like adventure. The world is big. Why should I stay here? I just have my dog to worry about. I’m not staying here for anyone else.

Update on the credit card situation: The credit card company couldn’t figure out how someone put Facebook charges on the new card I never got. Well, now they locked the new card (which should come soon). So now I have TWO new cards coming. Sigh. I can’t wait until I have no debt and I don’t use that card anymore. Right now, I’m not using it. I’m just making payments. I have enough points to get a modest hotel. I wish I had enough for a flight. Not that I should be going anywhere far away.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Janelle Monae, Shawn Mendes, James Bay, Pusha T, Lissie, Amerie, Christina Aguilera, Camila Cabello

TV of the week: NBA playoffs, 13 Reasons Why

Cavs vs. Warriors. Once again, I do not care who wins. I don’t like one team more than the other. I just want good games. The only NBA teams I root for are the Lakers and the Wizards.

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: Fresh Air, Ted Talks Daily, True Crime Garage, The Kate and Mike show, Tarot for the Wild Soul, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: 

Now reading –

Planner update: Plans of the week in my The Charmed Life Planner

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Plans for the Weekend: I have another therapy appointment this Sunday evening. Since it is free for at least 6 visits (I think), I’m going to do them weekly until they begin to charge. I got the workbook. It’s a typical cognitive-behavioral based book. I’ve only done chapter 1. I can’t remember how many chapters she told me to do before our next appointment.

As of right now, I’m not working overtime this weekend. I’m going grocery shopping, getting some reading done and I want to work on doing practice career tarot readings. I guess that is my first stop in working on my future website. I’m going to start packing what I can on Sunday.

Thanks for reading. Have a splendid weekend! 🙂

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