I guess I should put a trigger warning on this entry, but I don’t know how. Um, it is about unwanted sexual advances.
I’m shocked if any woman hasn’t been sexually assaulted or harassed. Isn’t that sad? I just read a report that said 30% of women (in the US) have been sexually harassed at work. That hasn’t happened to me at work. However, I have had unwanted sexual advances. I don’t know what it is called because it happened when I was in elementary school. I think I was 7 or 8. I can’t remember.
It happened with 2 different boys. They were around my age. Maybe one year older at the most. Is that sexual assault? Or is that child abuse? What is it? I have no idea.
One boy tried to kiss me. I think more than once. I think he did kiss me but not on the mouth. It still disgusts me. The other boy felt my butt while I was fully clothed. I thought I could get pregnant from that! I was scared. That happened more than once. But I don’t remember how long it went on. It didn’t last for longer than that school year.
That is all that has ever happened to me. I don’t know how bad it is. It just happened. Is it weird that I think this is normal and that it has happened to almost everyone? Is my thinking skewed? I’m asking a lot of questions because I know nothing. I never reported this, btw.
I would like to think this didn’t scar me. But I was probably (definitely?) afraid it would happen again. I was so young. I didn’t know anything. I’m not scared of it happening now. I rarely think about it.
I just wanted to share my “Me too” story even though I don’t know if it is a “me too” story.