I tend to shut people out

OMG. People are still defending Bill Cosby! I’m looking at Whoopi Goldberg – a person I like.  For the record, I have never liked Cosby and I’ve always thought he was a jerk. Okay, maybe I did watch the Cosby Show growing up but ever since the late 90s, I’ve disliked him. So when all this came out, no surprise to me. I hope he has stopped raping women.

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It’s funny how people judge success. What is it? 2.5 kids, home ownership, a significant other and exceptional grammar? That is not my definition of success. Obvs. Success to me is living the life you want. Whatever that may be. Considering my life and my abilities,  I’m successful. I don’t know how to say this without sounding like I’m putting people with extreme social anxiety down. I’m not looking down on them OR thinking they could simply do better if they had motivation. I’m not one of those people…I never thought I would be able to get a job. Ever. I think my fear of that has motivated me in spite of my disabilities.

With my social anxiety and panic attacks, I should be homeless. So anything above that is a win. I’m not trying to be funny. All the doctors I’ve seen say I have the most severe case of social anxiety they’ve seen. I see everything I have as a blessing. I don’t compare myself to Susie because Susie doesn’t have SA so why would I compare my accomplishments to hers? That doesn’t make sense. Susie may look down on me. Whatevs. That has nothing to do with me. That’s all on him or her.

Don’t get me wrong. There have been times when I compared myself to the Susies of the world. But then I realize what they have and what I have. The comparisons need to stop. It’s pointless.

Well this is the only me that I know how to be
Sorry if that don’t fit your reality
I’m giving one hundred percent of me
So take it or leave
Whether you’re in or out
This is what I’m about

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I got my Tori Kelly CD in the mail. I ordered it on Sunday and received it Monday. Awesome. 🙂  I want to share some of her music. So here goes:

This is an oldie…from 2013. 😉 Tori Kelly – Dear No one

This is her current single: Should’ve Been Us

One of my  favorite live versions of Nobody Love

Tori @ The House of Blues in Anaheim:

I’ll stop now. I hope to see her on tour in the fall. ??? A girl can dream.

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Now I have to go post another eBay auction.

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