Not having a meltdown

I’ve been taking my blood pressure on two monitors. I had an older one and I recently ordered a new one because it had better ratings. Both of them say the same thing, so both of these are decent monitors: Fanry Blood Pressure Monitor and the HoMedics Blood Pressure Monitor.

Here are my BP readings for the last couple of days:

  • 147/84 – October 13 HoMedics 11 am
  • 127/91 – October 14  HoMedics 7 am
  • 126/80  – October 14  Fanry 5:45 pm
  • 127/84  – October 14 HoMedics 5:50 pm
  • 125/72 – October 15  Fanry 6:40 PM

So I think my blood pressure is fine. I only had one high reading and that was the first time I used the HoMedics one in about 2 years. My dog was bothering me. My mom was here. etc. Since the two monitors pretty much match, I’m not going to keep doing it twice. I think what happened at the screening is that I was REALLY stressed. I was anxious.

I will probably keep monitoring it, but I’m not worried at all. I went to the doctor in September and it was 130/80.

I wish I could say my allergies were doing okay. It was so bad on Saturday night, I couldn’t breathe so I had to go to my mom’s house to sleep! I would have gone to a hotel if I had money and didn’t have a dog. I like hotels (most of the time). Yes, I’m still using the air purifier and it is helping a little, but not enough.

I’m worried about how much my electricity will cost by having the machine at full speed. Ugh. This sucks. I’m so glad I’m moving soon because I can’t keep living like this. AND the cold air from the purifier is “forcing” me to use my little heater to keep warm, so yes, the electric bill will be higher. 😦

I did my goals/priorities for the rest of the year (and beyond really). Guess what? Tarot didn’t show up in the top 5! That was shocking to me. My top 5 priorities are:

  1. Work (day job only)
  2. Health
  3. Finances
  4. Spirituality
  5. Hobbies

I might break this down more in my next entry. I had my dog on the list, but that is obvious right? Of course, my dog is a priority. I don’t feel I have to list him, but I guess I could remove hobbies and put my dog on the list.

It’s getting late. I’m going to get in the bed and focus on one of my hobbies for a while: reading! See ya later. 🙂

I can hardly breathe

I had to buy a $149 air purifier. Guess who doesn’t have $149? But I had to. This was a NEED, not a want. I just wish the reviews would have said how much cold air it blows out. It is like a fan or a baby AC. Lots of people complained about the loud noise which of course doesn’t bother me. But it is very cold in my house when it’s cold outside because I have no insulation. The last thing I need is an air cleaner or anything blowing out cool air.

But other than that, I think I like it. I was planning on returning it (something I never do) if it didn’t work because $149 is just too much money. I haven’t had to take my allergy medicine since I’ve gotten it. Yeah, I’m moving in 6 weeks or less, but I still had to something. My allergies were SO bad. I have never experienced anything like this. ugh. Oh, and the allergy medicine stopped working. It worked until about a week ago. I did get some relief from peppermint essential oil. But I didn’t want to run my effuser 24/7.

It is so cold, but no allergies! yay!

Allergies? Check. Very high blood pressure? Maybe. On Tuesday my blood pressure was 142 over 100 which is INSANE. I should’ve gone to the doctor immediately. However, I went about a month ago and it was something like 130 over 80. I have my own blood pressure monitor, but I can’t find it. I saw it about 6 weeks ago, so I will probably be able to find it tomorrow while I’m packing. Anyway, I was more nervous at the screening than when I normally go to the doctor so I think that had something to do with it. She only waited 2 minutes before she took my BP again. It went down a little, but not much. I probably needed at least 5 minutes of just being by myself to calm down.

UPDATE: corrected BP numbers. My BP on Tuesday was 142/100. (!!!!). I found my BP monitor today and it was 147/84. FWIW.

So I don’t know. I hope my BP isn’t really that high. That’s horrible!! I don’t understand how it could jump that much in a month, but I guess it is possible. I don’t know how reliable my BP monitor is. It wasn’t expensive, so I’m guessing it isn’t the best. So I will probably monitor my own BP for a week or two and then go to the doctor if it is still that high. I know birth control pills can raise BP. I’ve been on these pills for about 6-8 months. Hmm. I dunno. Both of my parents have high BP so my genes are not good when it comes to this.

It could be stress causing it. I’m so stressed out. Work is killing me. I don’t want to talk about that though.

My cholesterol was great. I don’t have diabetes. My weight is okay. I’m not overweight yet…I do have a plan to lose weight. I’m doing my goals for the last part of the year this weekend. Losing weight is one of the goals. The other 3 will probably be day job and tarot related.

More medical stuff because this is so thrilling! 😉 I got my first flu shot this past Tuesday. I’m still here so I might get one again. If I get the flu this year, I swear I’m never getting another flu shot again. I’m glad I did end up getting the shot because since my BP was so high, I didn’t get that discount. I did get the $100 discount on my health insurance premium for the flu shot. So I ended up getting $500 off my health insurance. I got a discount for my weight, the flu shot, and not smoking. I would have gotten a $700 discount if my BP were okay. Oh well.

I hired an assistant to help with my tarot biz. I really need help during quarter four. Here he is the first day on the job:

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This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Maggie Rose, Jess Glynne, Taylor Swift, Matt Nathanson, Lauren Daigle, Ariana Grande, Camila Cabello, James Bay

Maggie Rose is a gift from the gods and the new Jess Glynne album is everything.

TV of the week:  Nashville

Movie of the week: None

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Dr. Death, Serial, The Lowe Post, The Lively Show, True Crime Garage

I had been resisting Dr. Death because everyone else was listening to it. LOL No, really it was because I’ve read so many stories and about doctors killing patients. I thought, why should I listen to this? But it is good and definitely worth a listen. I’m listening to it as I type this.

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: PACKING!! This should be interesting. I’m doing the bedroom and my mom is doing half of the living room tomorrow. I really want to get so much packed. Half of me wants to move so bad (the half with allergies) and the other half of me will really miss living here. It’s quiet, in walking distance to a great park etc.

I’ve finally been working on my astrology course this week. I really want to get good at astrology because I want to offer more astrology services along with tarot. One day, I might do only astrology. I LOVE astrology. It is so fascinating. Not that tarot isn’t. It’s just that there’s so much science behind astrology. In fact, I’m going to stop blogging soon and work more on my course tonight. I know how to party on a Friday night.

Have a marvelous weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

 

Wish I hated everyone

I didn’t end up going to the psychic festival. 😦 I was so sick with allergies. Now I’m taking Zyrtec every day. Because I can’t swallow pills, I have to take the dissolvable kind which is ridiculously so much more expensive than the regular tablets. Grr!

Anyway, I don’t know what I’m allergic to. It could be the house, or it could be my dog. I adopted my dog about 8 months after I moved here. So I don’t know which is causing the allergies. I don’t see anything in the house that could cause it. My mom is convinced it is “invisible mold” because when my sister and I were young, we lived in a house where it took a while for the mold to show. My sister was always sick, but they couldn’t figure out why. So I guess it could be “invisible mold” or it could be my dog.

Whatever. If it is the house, I’m moving in less than 2 months and if it’s my dog…oh well. I’m stuck with him. 😉 Speaking of medical things, I’m getting my first flu shot EVER on Tuesday. I better not get sick. I’ve never had the flu. I’m only getting one because I signed up by mistake through work. I meant to just sign up for the checkup so I can save money on my health insurance. I might see if I can get out of it once I get to the appointment.

Let’s talk about more medical things because that’s exciting, right? I ordered more Abilify. I didn’t want to pay the $75 copay (between my dog and me, our meds are expensive!). However, I can’t stop taking Abilify right now. For the past two years, I have stopped around Christmas. I’m not into Xmas or anything. In fact, I hate it, but that’s not the point. I’m getting ready to move and I don’t want to go through the winter depressed and nauseous. I’m already depressed because winter SUCKS. I hate winter! I’m seriously thinking about moving somewhere where there aren’t winters. It won’t be LA because it was cold when I was there. lol.

Anyway, I’m going to TRY to stop taking Abilify in June of 2019. I’m going to the beach for my birthday in May* and then I will try to stop the Abilify. I’m on the lowest possible dose. I only take it 5 days a week. Maybe I should try to take it 4 days a week and see what happens? I think I will start that next week.

*Unfortunately this will be a semi-expensive beach trip. None of the hotels on the beach that I love will accept dogs. 😦 So I will have to get some really fancy place, even though I could care less. I don’t want to leave him at the vet. Besides the money I would spend on boarding almost equal what I’ll end up paying at the expensive hotel. My mom is coming too so I hope I can find a suite. In the cheaper hotel, we always got a suite. But the pet-friendly hotels, already cost too much so I will probably just get a room with 2 queen beds. As long, as the room has a balcony (A MUST!!), I’ll be fine.

Should I talk about moving? Noooooo! I think I’m in denial. I start packing next weekend. I still don’t have a move date. I’m still terrified of notifying my landlord. It doesn’t really matter when I move, I’m still paying for rent and electricity (so the pipes won’t freeze) until at least December 31. But I want to move to my mom’s by Thanksgiving. In case I haven’t mentioned it, I don’t have a lease. I haven’t had a lease in 5 years. Weird, I know.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Mariah Carey, Maggie Rose, Janet Jackson, Christina Aguilera, Carrie Underwood, First Aid Kit, Joan Osborne, Pistol Annies,

TV of the week:  Nashville

I will probably start watching basketball soon. Of course, I’m watching the news since they stopped talking so much about Russia.

Movie of the week: I might watch the RBG documentary on Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I don’t know much about her. All I know is that she is on the Supreme Court.

Podcasts of the week: All In With Chris Hayes, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Online Marketing Made Easy, True Crime Garage, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Bill Simmons Podcast, The Lowe Post, The Rachel Maddow Show, Why is This Happening, What Should I Read Next?

Books of the week: 

Currently reading –

Plans for the weekend: Grocery shopping again. I’m so fun! I want to spend time working on my tarot biz. This is quarter 4. I need to get busy. I need to put myself out there and start making money. I don’t expect a ton of customers. But I will be strategizing this weekend. I already know I’m going to offer 50% off every reading from maybe mid-October to November. Or maybe I should offer it through December. Oooh, what should I do for Black Friday??! I forgot about that. I have to think about it. Anyway, some of my readings are only $5.00 so 50% off is a bargain. I’m going to do a short Youtube video explaining my services and giving away the coupon for 50% off.

I haven’t mentioned this, but I’m also taking two online courses to make a big move during this time of year since this time is the busiest time for all businesses. One is a group mentorship. We meet LIVE on video once a week. I have to blog about that. LOL. I just had my first meeting on Tuesday. Scary!! And one is a productivity type class. I was doing my homework for that until I got the urge to blog.

Like I said, next weekend I’m focusing on packing. It would be great to make a big dent with that. I don’t have a lot of big things. I have a lot of little things. A lot of it will be going in the trash, but some things I want to keep.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! 🙂

Happy & sad at the same time

Oh dear. I’m watching Anita Hill’s testimony from 1991. I can’t believe the questions Arlen Spector asked her. Wow. I’m only on the 56th minute of day 1. I’m watching the CSPAN version. I have a long way to go. I haven’t watched Clarence Thomas’ testimony. I should say rewatch. I was very young when all this happened. I was on Anita Hill’s side just because she was a woman. Hey, I said I was young. 😉 Speaking of young, it is strange seeing a young Joe Biden, and a few people have passed.

Anyway, I cried during most of Dr. Ford’s testimony. I didn’t get to watch all of Judge Kavanaugh live. I watched it later on YouTube. I did tear up a little when he got emotional. FWIW. Sigh. Next subject.

Oooh! There’s going to be a psychic fair this weekend! I wanna go so bad. But I have YouTube videos to record. Blah, blah. I didn’t know about it happening until today. A psychic fair is usually a fair with psychics (duh), Reiki practitioners, tarot readers, energy healers, astrologers, etc. ALL the money is being donated to a charity for children in Kenya. These people are volunteering their time. My mentor does psychic fairs for charity. I always thought it sounded cool and now I have an opportunity to go to one. Hmmm.

I’ve always wanted Reiki done. I don’t know much about it, but I know I could use it. But since I have to pay for these services, I would probably get one service. A psychic would be okay because I’ve never seen a psychic. I have never had a tarot reading in person. I’ve had one on the phone and a few by audio and email. I think everything will be $20 for a 15-minute session. I can definitely get a decent tarot reading during that time. I’m not sure about Reiki since I almost know nothing about it. From personal experience, I know it is hard to give a good astrology reading in 15 minutes, so I wouldn’t even bother. Plus I know a little astrology, so I really don’t need it.

I might attempt to drag my mom to the fair. I don’t think she’ll want to pay the $20 because she doesn’t have it. But I know she would love a reading from a psychic or tarot reader. I feel like if I take her, I will end up paying for her. I know it goes to charity, but I don’t have a lot of money. I just paid a bunch of money to get trees trimmed and to a plumber. I’m not done yet. I forgot I have to pay the movers. Pout.

If I go, I’ll have lots of details in a blog post next week. One more thing: I know I often rant about tarot readers not being psychic, but I do believe in psychics. I know they exist. I was in an online video class with a few this spring.  So I’m 100% a believer. I just don’t like when people associate tarot readers with being psychic. Psychics don’t NEED tarot cards. We use tarot cards because we aren’t psychic. LOL.

OMG. The Anita Hill testimony. Someone just asked her, “Are you a woman scorned”? WTF? And then he said, “Are you militant?” Okay, I’ll stop listing the questions. Geez. What happened in 1991? And some of these questions are by Democrats! What was in the water? Unbelievable. Or is it really? I could see this happening in 2018. Anything goes these days.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Tori Kelly, Maggie Rose, Nashville Cast, Jason Mraz, Lauren Daigle, Carrie Underwood, Ariana Grande, Pistol Annies

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Nashville

I knew Tyler wouldn’t win Big Brother. He should have. I hate when people like Kaycee say they won by their “social game.” It sounds like using people just to win. I know Big Brother is a game. Tyler was robbed!!!1!!! My mom just started watching this year. She is 19 years late. Yes, the show has been on for 20 years, and I’ve watched EVERY summer. It feels good to call someone else late. I’m usually the late one. (See: Anita Hill comments).

Movie of the week: none

Podcasts of the week: The Rachel Maddow Show, Online Marketing Made Easy, So You Wanna be a Witch, The Bill Simmons Podcast, Serial, All In with Chris Hayes, The Lively Show, True Crime Garage,

I know it seems like I listen to a lot of podcasts. But I “listen” to most of them as I fall asleep. Or sometimes I will wake up at 4AM and know I won’t go back to sleep, and then I  will really listen to the podcast.

Books of the week: I finished reading Unnecessary Roughness: Inside the Trial and Final Days of Aaron Hernandez by Jose Baez I’m not the biggest Jose Baez fan. However, I’m so glad he wrote this book. This is the 3rd book I’ve read on Hernandez plus I watched all of his first trail. This book made me feel like I finally got to know him. I feel so bad for his fiance and daughter. I guess I have to say I feel sad for the victims (even though I strongly believe Aaron is innocent in one of the cases). Yes, I feel for them too, but I didn’t know of them.

Now reading – 

  • Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice Nope, I’ve never read this book. Yes, I’m extremely late. Haven’t seen the movie either. There is a movie, right? I LOVE VAMPIRES. Sorry, for the outburst.

Plans for the weekend: Maybe going to the psychic fair? I can only hope. I have no idea whether I’m going as of right now. I’m not working at my day job this weekend. I am doing a bunch of tarot stuff. I’m recording 12 YouTube videos. Sounds fun, right? That will be time-consuming. I’m going grocery shopping. I will enjoy the park while the weather is nice and while I’m still living very close to the park.

I’m going now. I will probably go to sleep watching the Clarence Thomas Hearing. Have a fun weekend. Thanks so much for reading! 🙂

I keep on searching

My motivation to blog has just been…blah. Not really. I want to write more, but I am always working on my tarot stuff. I did take a break from the online course I wanted to create. Doing tarot and that was a bit much. I can’t do both. Plus I was just creating the online course for the extra money. Now that I’m moving back in with my mom, I don’t need the money NOW. It would be nice, but that was too much pressure. I did upload one module. So, I don’t know what’s going to happen with that. I do want to finish it, but I probably won’t start working on it again until February 2019. That is when I plan to take my first break from tarot. I will probably blog, but no youtube, and less Instagram.

I started my email list for tarot. If you have the link to my website, please visit to sign up! You will get a free meditation immediately. The meditation is for tarot readers, but I plan to do more IF that goes well. Or if I get better at recording meditations. I had a hard time finding the perfect music. I still don’t love what I picked. What I picked was free. There’s a track of the beach (my fave place in the world!) but it is $39. Okay. Maybe later. I just paid an insane amount of money to my landlord, so it ain’t happening now.

I wanted to go on a rant about people that believe tarot is about fortune telling, but I won’t. I’ll just say clearly they haven’t been in the “tarot community”. Most people frown on fortune telling. I have never had a reading done by a psychic tarot reader. Not that I’m against that. If a person is psychic, they don’t need tarot cards. What would be the point? I do know that psychic tarot readers exist, but they are in the minority. TAROT ISN’T ABOUT FORTUNE TELLING. Just do the research. Don’t let knowledge get in the way. Oh, was that a rant?

I got the trees/bushes cut down and trimmed so the plumber can get beneath the house. Now I have to call the plumber. I will probably email them tonight. I hate calling people. Hate it. This is all so expensive. Sigh. Whatever.

I should do a pros and cons list for moving back in with my mom. But first, my dad is coming back from overseas to move in soon! 😦 I really wanted to move in before he did for numerous reasons I’m not getting into. But maybe he’ll only stay a few months, and then we won’t overlap as much. My dog is going to have to be on a leash 100% of the time my dad is there (except when he is with me with the door is closed). That sucks. He doesn’t know my dad, so he doesn’t like him. He barks at him like he will attack.

Anyway, I will do a pro list for moving in with my mom. No conns tonight. That may come later. 😉

  • I will get to go to kundalini yoga twice a month. It’s $20 a class which would be the price of a gym membership. I will start going once I stop paying rent for this house.
  • I will have access to a treadmill again. My treadmill doesn’t currently work. I think it has dust in the engine. I haven’t really tried to play around with it.
  • I will have access to a washer and dryer again. Yay!
  • I will have access to a dishwasher. What a concept.
  • I will sleep in a bed again. Long story, but I now sleep on a sofa…with my dog.
  • I won’t have to pay high ass rent anymore. I’m still paying my mom something, but it’s not nearly as much. Initially, my money will go to paying off debt. Then it will go to debt and a downpayment on my dream house in the country. I hope to move out in 2 and a half years if I can stand living there that long. 

Those are the main things that I think of when I think of the good part about moving. There are so many cons. I don’t even want to think about them. That is why I won’t list them today.

Cute pic time:

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That’s my dog! He isn’t thrilled about moving because he won’t be able to go to the park every day. 😦 But we will walk every day when it is over 50 degrees. It is okay walking in my mom’s neighborhood. Nothing special. But I’ll take it. Nothing is as good as living in walking distance to the park.

Well, I’ve gotta go. I only had extra time today because I didn’t mow the lawn like I was supposed to. Bad girl. I don’t know what I’m going to do next. Probably something related to tarot. Then I will get into bed and try to finish the Aaron Hernandez book.

Bye!

I made it through the heartache

I feel like I’ve been so busy this week. I can’t explain why. I was off from work on Monday, and that was the only day I feel like I got anything done. Anyway, I finally have time to breathe.

Hurricane Florence mostly missed us, but on Monday there were tornadoes from the hurricane. Two people died, and buildings and cars were destroyed. I can’t help but wonder if I’m being robbed by having some trees trimmed and cut down at this time. HE IS CHARGING ME $500!! Yes, I’m yelling because this sucks. 😦 I’m putting it on my credit card, of course. My trees have nothing to do with the hurricane. Bad timing. I know people who trim trees are probably charging more because people are desperate to get their yards clean. This is not my situation at all. Sigh.

I don’t know why men think it’s still okay to tell women to smile. Fuck off is my first reaction. Well, really I’m wondering why you’re contacting me in the first place. I get flirtatious messages on Instagram and Facebook way too often. I can’t imagine what pretty women get. It must be overwhelming. I haven’t responded to the last guy. 80% of the time I don’t respond. He said I was pretty and that I should smile in my photos. Ick!

I’m not interested in making friends. I’m definitely not interested in a romantic relationship. So why should I respond at all? Hmm. I’m only on Facebook because of my dad (at first) and now because of my business page. I don’t like ignoring people but if you only want to flirt and I have no interest in that, why should I respond? Some people are relentless.

If Kavanaugh doesn’t get approved, Trump will only appoint someone worse. I don’t really care about Kavanaugh either way.* I guess if the Democrats win control after the midterms, they won’t approve anyone? LOL. No freaking way. Dems have no spine. This whole thing is absurd.

*I do care if he attempted to rape someone. His age doesn’t matter. BTW, 17 is not that young. Rape is serious to me. Should this disqualify him if he did it? Yes.  There was a witness, but he’s Kavanaugh’s friend, so that’s like having no proof. I still can’t believe people wonder why people don’t come forward. I haven’t had anything happen to me since I was maybe around 9 years old but I don’t think I would report a rape or sexual harassment. I don’t report all kind of things that happen to me so I can’t see me reporting something that serious. I have an unhealthy fear of retaliation, and I would probably feel shame. Plus, I’m shy.

I just created an email list for my tarot website. I feel legit now. Haha. I’m offering a free meditation for tarot readers to all the people that sign up. I worked on the meditation a little tonight. I hope to have it finished by Sunday. I haven’t advertised my email list yet. I won’t advertise until I have at least one free meditation. I plan on making two. Oh, and I’m very nervous about creating an email list because I don’t have much to say. What a shocker! I will send out an email at least once a month. I think I can do that.

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Carrie Underwood, Tori Kelly, Aretha Franklin, Lauren Daigle, Ariana Grande, BeBe Rexha, Mariah Carey, George Micahel

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Nashville

Tyler is playing the best game. I’m not a fan of his. But I can acknowledge he is the only player that played the whole game! For anyone else to win…I can’t imagine. I don’t think he will win. I think Kaycee will win. I don’t like that one bit. She didn’t start playing until the end of the game. That is a no-no in Big Brother. You can’t just float for weeks and start playing the game. Ugh. BTW, my favorite houseguest is Sam.

Movie of the week: I started watching Black Panther. I think I made it about 45 minutes through. Not sure if I will finish. I don’t like action adventure movies. I see them as movies made for 12-year-old boys. I just can’t. Is there more depth there? I wouldn’t know because I don’t really care. I might finish it this weekend. I just don’t get all that violence UNLESS it is a horror movie. I’m down for crappy horror movies. 😉 I like dramas, documentaries, and horror movies.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, All In With Chris Hayes, True Crime Garage, The Lively Show, The Mind Your Business Podcast,

I can’t wait to listen to Serial. I will probably start it tomorrow. It is about the unjust “justice” system this season. It will be interesting to see how well received it is. Because some people believe the justice system is fair. ROFL.

Books of the week: Now reading

Plans for the weekend:  I’m working overtime at my day job for half a day on Saturday. I’m not going anywhere this weekend. I need to focus on my tarot biz. I have about 7 blog posts to get done by October 1. I also have to film 12 videos for YouTube. I also have a free tarot reading to do tomorrow.  I may start packing. As of right now, I’m still moving out by Thanksgiving. More on that later.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂

No surprises

UPDATE: We were spared….but the people of the Carolinas weren’t. Donate to:

And there’s always the Red Cross.

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So much is going on. I don’t know where to begin. I’m worried about Hurricane Florence. Apparently, the groceries stores are empty. I wouldn’t know because I’m supposed to go grocery shopping this weekend. I hope the power doesn’t go out for an extended period of time. Once I went almost 2 weeks without power due to a hurricane/tropical storm. One of my coworkers went over 6 weeks without power. Anyway, all I have are peanuts, one can of beans and crackers. No other canned food.

I work from home. I will have to go into the office if the power goes out. 😦 I live very close to the office, and unfortunately, they have generators so their power will be on no matter what. So I will still have to work no matter what the weather is like. I’m off on Monday. Yay! That is one day I don’t have to worry about.

I’m annoyed when I see people in faraway places tweeting out pictures or news about how horrible this storm will be. Does this ever annoy anyone in Florida? Or am I just nuts? Rhetorical question. I’m trying to ignore most of the news about this hurricane, and there are people from nowhere near the storm talking about it. I’m like STFU. You don’t have to deal with it. I’m trying to ignore the news. WORST STORM EVER!!1!!  It is REAL to us. Just breathe. These people don’t mean harm. Breathe.

I hope the hurricane somehow doesn’t hurt anyone. I hope people’s homes are okay and because I know living without electricity sucks, I hope the power isn’t out for a long time. I know some people from Hurricane Maria just got their power turned on last week. They went a year without electricity.  Yes, I’m aware. I know 3,000 people died. I’m not trying to be insensitive. I always rant about hurricanes because I hate them. I hate snow and hurricanes. Hurricanes are way worse than snow. I could go on forever about Florence, but I’ll stop.

The plumbing situation is on hold because the plumber can’t get into the crawl space because there is a sapling AKA small tree blocking the entrance! Why me?  The man I contacted to cut the tree down, hasn’t texted me back even though I told him $75 was okay. Maybe he is waiting out the hurricane. After a week, I’ll give up on him and contact someone else.

I still have a leak. The kitchen floor is wet. The bathroom floor is soaked.  I barely have any water (due to the leak?)  I can’t shower. I can’t use the water in the kitchen. I have to go to my mom’s house to use/get water. This sounds fun, right? 😉 Oh, fixing the plumbing situation (if I ever get the tree cut down) will be expensive. But I have to fix it.

I’m supposed to start packing this weekend, but I don’t know anything. Will I work on Saturday? I didn’t find out I was working overtime last Saturday until Friday afternoon so I have no idea whether I will be working. Will I have electricity on Saturday? I have no idea. Besides, I’ve been thinking about starting to pack so early and uh, what if I need my stuff? It’s my mom’s idea to start packing now. I might have to change that plan.

I’m off the week of election day. I will probably start moving that week. Maybe? I don’t know. I need a plan! I know I have a plan to get out of here by Thanksgiving. See, I don’t know anything. This is my life right now.

I have a doctor’s appointment on Monday. It’s just a physical. If she cancels due to the storm, this will be the second cancellation in a row. I wanted to talk to her about Abilify withdrawal, but I found a place near me that deals with withdrawal on the outpatient basis. I question whether seeing someone once a week can help with the brutal symptoms of withdrawal. But maybe they can give me something that happens with the nausea? It’s debilatating. I’m contacting them after the storm.

Everything stops due to Hurricane Florence!

This week I…

Music of the week (my top 8 most listened to): Ariana Grande, Aretha Franklin, Lauren Daigle, Mariah Carey, Camila Cabello, Justin Timberlake, Shawn Mendes, Amos Lee

I can’t believe Mariah Carey released a decent song in 2018. Amazing. Lol. Loving the new single.

TV of the week:  Big Brother, WNBA Finals, US Open

I’ve been watching tennis for over 2 decades. I like Serena. She isn’t my favorite tennis player. I saw her play live against Jennifer Capriati about 10 years ago. It was a match for charity. Anyway, her behavior was bad at the US Open. I’m not talking about her breaking her racket. I get that. But calling the umpire a thief was over the top. I do wish he would have given her a warning first instead of penalizing her so harshly.

Serena was rude (not that unusual for her), but I still wonder why men don’t get punished for doing the same shit she does? It’s mind-boggling. However, that doesn’t excuse Serena’s behavior. But it’s so not fair.

Something else bugs me about Serena. It has nothing to do with tennis though. Ever since she had a baby, she’s been intolerable. I can’t listen to her talk anymore. She’s like one of those women who think they are the only person to ever give birth. OMG. Women have babies every day! It’s normal. I know she almost died during birth, but even if that wasn’t the case, I’m 98% sure she would still act like she is a goddess for giving birth. PLEASE. Not impressed. And I don’t care.

I do like that she married a UVA graduate. And he’s so handsome. Ugh. I love him.

Movie of the week: Planning on watching Black Panther this weekend….if I have power.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, All In With Chris Hayes, Joyce Meyer, True Crime Garage, Why is This Happening? Pod Save America

I need new podcasts to listen to. I know it doesn’t seem like it. I want more on topics of true crime, tarot, spirituality, and progressive politics. I think I have tried all the true crime podcasts at least once. I don’t think there is anything new there. But I’m sure I’m missing podcasts in the other categories.

Books of the week: Now reading

Plans for the weekend: I don’t think I’ve mentioned that Hurricane Florence might affect us. I don’t have any plans!! The power could be out. Another tree could fall. I don’t fucking know. I’m just waiting until tomorrow to see what happens. I should probably cancel doing any more free tarot readings in case I don’t have power. The company is based in Austrailia. They have no clue about any weather affecting the Mid-Atlantic. I’m supposed to pack and go grocery shopping this weekend. I’m off from work on Monday no matter what.

If I’m not back for a while, it is probably due to Florence. Thanks for reading! 🙂  Stay safe if you are near the path of the hurricane. Well, stay safe regardless! Have a great weekend.